If Only They Knew
A/N: This is my first ff i hope it goes well i do not own Icarly blah blah blah.
Dear Diary,
On the outside I look like the kid who no one wants to mess with. I am the girl no guy would ever date. On the inside I am scared. No one really knows what I have to deal with. Carly always wonders why my mom would let me stay at her house all the time. The truth is I don't have a mom I ran away a while back I drift from place to place mostly staying with Carly. They wonder why I'm so tough but they don't know that when you live on the streets you have to learn to defend yourself. I learned to be protective of myself when I'm outside a long time ago. I was walking down a street looking for a place to stay the night and I was grabbed from behind and then I was…. Anyways I don't want to go there. When I'm hanging out with Carly I feel loved and when Freddie comes over I finally have someone to take my anger out on. I only do it to him because he's so vulnerable he's so easy to annoy. There are a lot of people who think that I don't really hate him but I really do. I would have been nice to him when we met but he kept whispering things to Carly. I got mad thinking that he was talking smack about me so I talked it right back at him. He really is pathetic with the whole protective mother crap. If only they knew.
Journal,
My new pear laptop broke today. I had brought it to the set of Icarly and Sam started to mess with it. She logged on to Google and typed q five times then clicked I'm feeling lucky (A/N don't do this cause it really works) a video of a guy having his way with a goat came on and she said
"Hey Carly I always knew he was weird"
My laptop still hasn't recovered from the virus. Damn her why is she always so mean to me I never did anything to her? When we first met I thought she was really cute so I whispered to Carly that I thought so. Next thing you know she's talking about my overly protective mother. The only reason my mom is so protective is because of my past. At my old neighborhood I used to smoke drink and party a lot I got into a lot of trouble and almost ended up dead. Everyone thinks i'm such a good kid but i'm only like that because I dont want to end up as bad as I was before. If only they knew.
A/N: I think its obvious where this is headed please R&R to inspire me to keep wrighting this story. it may get really M rated in later chapters