i know this is confusing. It's supposed to be. This is the only chapter that will be in first POV as the rest will be in third POV. This is a time travel AU. there is also a POSSIBLE NarutoxKakashi/KakashixNaruto. When the story get's farther along I'll put up a poll for you guys to take, but remember it is POSSIBLE. So that means that it is NOT a definate. Please, don't expect anything like weekly updates, I'll update as pften as I can but it won't be constant or anything. This is intentionally short so please don;t think that every chapter I write will be this short.
This is my first Naruto fic so I would appreciate any feed back of any sorts.
dead (děd)
adj.
1. Having lost life; no longer alive.
2. Lacking feeling or sensitivity; unresponsive.
Dead.
Everyone dead. All of them. Dead.
Dead.
What is dead?
What does it mean? What does it entail? How does one come about being dead? Am I dead? I'm breathing and my heart is beating. But I don't feel alive.
I feel dead. Just as dead as everyone else. I feel dead but I'm not dead. So what am I? certainly not alive. But I'm not dead either.
There's so much blood.
It's everywhere. Over me. And over you. I can smell it, like copper and salt and death.
Why the hell is everyone dead? What did I do? What did I do to deserve this?
Oh.
I remember.
I was born, wasn't I? That's why they're dead. Because I was born and that fox was sealed in me.
And now they're dead because I lost control of the demon.
It's like floating in a dark abyss with no control over your limbs. I'm numb everywhere and I can't move, but I know. I know what's going on. I know what's happening right now. Because the demon is angry and it's taking revenge.
Just like they always said it would
And now they're dead. I know they're dead. Because even though I can't move or feel or am even really aware. I can see it. Through it's eyes I can see them dying.
They tried to calm me down. Tried everything they could think of. But none of them attacked me. They didn't attack me because I'm they're friend and they need me.
And now they're dead.
Am I dead? I wish I was. Because than I couldn't be blamed for this. A dead man can't stop a demon after all.
Blood. Their blood over my paws, no it's paws. Not mine. Not mine. I didn't do this. it did. But it's my fault. All my fault.
I want to fix this. I want to stop this. but It's so dark. I can't feel. I can't move.
No control, no control.
Fire. Screaming. Crying. Yelling. Shouting. Chaos. Disorder. Blood. Blood. Blood.
Dead.
I can't stop. I can't control. I'm out of my mind or I this a nightmare? I hope it's a nightmare.
I think I just ate somebody.
No, not me. Never me. The demon did this not me. I didn't do this not me.
Tasty.
Not my thoughts not my thoughts. The demon did this not me.
Was that kakashi-sensei I just killed? I think so.
No, not me, not me. Never me.
I didn't do this. Not me, not me.
He IS dead. No. No. No, no, no, no, no,NO.
Not sensei. Not sensei. Please, not sensei. Anyone but sensei.
Don't die, don't die, don't you leave me too! Please! Don't die, don't die!
Don't leave me here!
You promised! You promised you would never leave me again, remember?! You promised! Now you're dead.
Dead.
What is dead?
I wonder, am I dead?
I'm breathing, my heart's beating.
But surly, I'm not alive.
Living doesn't feel like this.
Living doesn't feel like dead. It just doesn't happ-
Bye Sakura-chan!
They're dying I'm killing them. No, not me, never me. Not my fault, not my fault.
Snake.
There's a snake. In front of me.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
KILL THE SNAKE!
It's the snake's fault! He did this! You snake! You damd snake I'll kill you! Don't you run away you bastard! This is your fault!
Die!
Die!
DIE!
Dead.
He's dead now too.
Dead. Blood. Dead. Fire. Dead. Screaming. Dead. Laughing.
Laughing?
Who could be laughing?
Is that…me?
Not, not me, never me.
It's the demon again.
He's happy.
Why?
Oh.
I see.
Because they're dead.
All of it, there's nothing left.
I'm beginning to feel again.
I think….I think it's over now.
Yes. It's over.
It's over. I'm back. I have control.
But…
They're dead.
And now…
Now I'm dead too.
Yes, I'm sure of it now.
My heart's slowing down. Breathing's beginning to hurt.
My head feels light and there's a lot of white around the fire.
I can feel it.
Warm.
So warm.
I'm dead. I'm floating. I see a face.
'I'm so sorry'
It's okay. It's my fault don't cry. I'm a bad boy.
'No, no you're not. It's my fault'
'hush now dear, we have him back and that's what matters.'
'Yes hun'
Wait. Are you…who are you?
'It doesn't matter'
'He's right it doesn't matter'
'This should never have happened'
But it did.
'We know'
'We're sorry'
Don't be sorry. My fault, always my fault.
'No, not your fault. Our fault'
'But we can fix it'
What? But I'm dead. They're dead. Everyone's dead.
'Yes, but we can fix it.'
Why? How?
'I told you; this wasn't supposed to happen'
'As for how, well that doesn't matter'
Wait. Who are you? Why would you do this for me?
'You mean you don't recognize us?'
'Calm down honey, he just doesn't remember.'
'Calm down Naruto. This won't hurt at all'
What's happening?
'This wasn't supposed to happen.'
You said that already.
'Brat, this wasn't supposed to happen, so we're going to make it so it doesn't happen.'
Won't you get in trouble?
'Possibly.'
'Maybe.'
'Probably'
'Definitely'
Why?
'How many times do I have to repeat my self? This wasn't supposed to happen.'
How?
'We'll send you back.'
To the fight?
'No, farther than that.'
How far?
'Hmm…well, how far would you like to go?'
I can choose?
'Didn't I just say that?'
'Hurry up now Naruto, the shinigami will be coming soon. If he gets to you, you won't be sent back'
My first day as a gennin
'Good choice son!'
Son?
'Hurry up now! There's not much time left!'
Wait you're my parents?
'No time for that now, the shinigami is almost here!'
'Remember Naruto, None of this was supposed to happen. You can fix this.'
Light, Light, so much light. Two faces shadowed by the light. A man who I've seen before. Where have I seen him before? A woman, a woman I've never seen before. Familiar. Both of them so familiar. My parents. They smile. A dark shadow is coming nearer. Fear is on their faces. The man pushes me into the darkness.
And the woman says for the final time
'Remember Naruto, none of this was ever supposed to happen!'
And I'm falling. Falling in darkness for what seems like forever. Nothing. No pain. I can't see anything around me but I can still see me. Is that important?
And than I crash land. And I sit up suddenly.
My room. My old room. Ratty and stinky and falling apart, but still my room.
Sweat. Trembling handing, gasping breaths. Memories. Are they real? Are they fake? Nightmares? Reality?
'Remember Naruto, this was never supposed to happen!'
No. Not fake. Not a dream.
I look at my trembling hand and my vision blurrs as I gasp for breath. Water falls into my hands. The roof is leaking, better fix it. Harsh sound come from my throat. Am I catching a cold?
Dead.
What is dead?
I don't know.
But…
'This was never supposed to happen!'
I'm going to change things. What happened shouldn't have happened and now I'm going to make sure it doesn't
Sunlight. Warmth. Laughing villagers. Smiling. Care-free. No worries.
Leaking roof. Better make sure it gets fixed.
I'm going to fix things.
Two faces. Both smiling. Both familiar yet total strangers.
I promise.
I'll fix things.
I promise.
So...Yeah. That's the first chpater! I would love your feedback!