Disclaimer- I don't own Twilight. But I do own the plot.

Bella's POV

Am I this crazy? You know you might have at some point in your life asked this question to yourself. You know the moment you feel completely mental you started to doubt your own sanity. This was that moment for me well I had this kind of moment too many to count in my life but truly this time it's beyond anything I ever find myself in. Standing just above the waterfall in my ruined jeans from mud my nails dirty I am pretty sure my face was cover in the dirt too and with a throbbing headache. I revealed the sound of the music that is created when water skied through the rock and fell in the circular pit it was not that big but it was deep so deep that nobody knows. It was never discover. I was deep in the forest, I had run for miles and then I found myself in this familiar place, my sanctuary trying to outrun my enemy but I knew they will find they have an uncanny ability of finding me so far, that I have no doubt they are close and with them my death, but there was a way out, a hope that I am meant for much more things then I think or I have. It is insane even to hope a little of something like it to exist and even if it did I can't have it. I can only except is…. Safety. I have to keep that in mind. What I am thinking? I am going completely mental. I pulled the thing out of my black leather jacket that I was saving for this moment. Forest green crystal with the shape of the diamond and the size of the walnut. It is true? This will….? I wish I had someone who will assure me that what I am going to do is not completely insane but no one was there what I had was cold breeze in a silent forest, stars winking in the sky trying to tell me a secret that they kept hidden for centuries, the full moon at it is full glory looking so beautiful like it never did before and a voice inside me that says whatever will happen it is what I was meant for but all this could be delusional, My subconciouse trying to escape reallty.

I was snap out of my thoughts as I hear the rustling through the forest of someone was approaching. I turn around. They were three hooded figures in front of me. They were lean and tall. Masked and hooded I had never find out who were they and why they were after me. I clutch the crystal in my fist behind my back.

"There is no way to run now," A masculine cold voice said under the hood, he was the one in the center.

"I know," I said in a neutral voice. He stretches his right arm in front of him and pointed the gun at me.

He has to shoot you. I remember the words of my most beloved friend it's the only ways the crystal will work it will take you in any realm you want, you will be safe. She never understands the feeling inside me but she was always there to be there when I started to broke. She knew if given the chance where I will choose to go.

I look at the figure front of me. I was never afraid of death and this very moment I have so much hope in my bones as much as I was excepting the death. What if I was really going to walk down on the path of life by embracing death?

He pushes the trigger I unfist my hand letting the crystal fall in the waterfall as the bulled tear my ribcage and puncher my heart and a searing pain shot through my chest blood come out my mouth I stumble and fell off the edge. I felt the pressure of the air as I fall. I felt hitting the water. As my mind went blank that was only one name fell from my lips.

"Edward"

Edward's POV

I will find my end in you if that's what it takes

If this is love then I want perish in it

Just ask me anything and Even my soul will be yours

I will find my end in you if that what it takes

Thousands years would be not enough to be with you

If this is love then I want to perish in it

You are the secret that I will hide forever in my heart

Stay safe in here my love

Because no one will recognize me without you

Don't be afraid my love, I always be your shadow

I will find my end in you if that what takes

To be with you until the end of time

"Until the end of time" I murmured to myself as I look at my most prized possession. It was 60 years old journal. Its pages were scented with roses, courtesy of many roses were pressed between pages now dry but oddly beautiful. The owner of this journal was even more beautiful, closing my eyes I remember the creamy white skin, how soft and warm it used to felt against my touch, my cold touch and she would welcome it with love and adoration in her warm brown deep pools for eyes, how her breath left her body sighing in contentment as I crease her soft cheek, how my hands would be used to go in thick silky deep brown locks layers of it ended at her waist. How I used to tease her while I play with them while she will write in this journal and how that used to irritate her and she would frown and….

"Edward! Stop it" How she managed to say it softly yet completely showing her irritation was beyond me. She was still concentrating or trying to concentrate on the journal and whatever she was writing in it. We were at our place, the meadow we were surrounded by wildflowers, beautiful as this place was it was nothing compare to the beauty that was sitting on my lap scribbling furiously in her journal frowning as she tries hard to concentrate on her writing and not to shiver as I started to place light kisses on side of her neck and then back of it, I revel in the feeling of her warm skin against my cold lips. I smiled against back of her neck as I hear her heart rate increases and her breathing went swallow.

"Edward….. Please" She breathes and titles her head so it rested on my shoulder and her face, facing the sky. I nib at her earlobe and she bite her lower lip.

"Please what? Love" She moved so now she was looking directly in my eyes. Our lips were barely touching. Her arms around my neck, the journal lays forgotten on the ground.

"Stop" she whisper. She was still breathing heavily; I was not much better myself. I feel intoxicated by her very presence. Now having her close, it's hard to keep my animal instincts at bay. I tighten my hold around her.

"Do you really want me to stop?" I said as I look in her eyes, her pupil dilated. She swallows and licks her lips. She stares at my lips then in my eyes and bit her lower lip again. I suppressed a groan. I want to close my eyes shut, sure that my eyes would have been coal black by now but it was impossible to close them when those magnetic pools were sucking my very being into them. She looked down releasing me from her spell as crimson color filled her cheek.

"Edward," She said my name softly and a current passed through my body.

"I really have to complete something" Her voce strong as she pushes me away pressing her both hands and try to get up from my lap. But it did nothing for my stone instead she stumble back in my lap pressed against my chest because I still had my hold around her waist. Her wyes met mine and then she moves her eyes from my mine and started to look over my shoulder, her cheeks getting redder.

"Sometimes I think you love your journal more than me" I joked. She narrows her eyes at me clearly annoyed. I smile.

Looking at the journal that was still on the ground. I grab it "Let's see what is so important, shall we?"

I open the book on her lap I open it, finding the page but before I could start reading she said something that made my breathing stop. I swore I felt my heart started to beat again.

"The word love does not being to cover what I feel for you" I look up in her eyes. They were swimming with so many emotion that I was not sure that even my vampire heart can content all of them.

I came out of my thoughts as my tiny pixie sister enters my room.

"If you are planning to brooding all day sitting on your couch then you can't" She was clearly in a bossy mood.

"And why can't I?" I said smiling as I look at her bouncing figure. It's hard to not to smile when Alice is in the room.

"Because we are going hunting! And you need it" She said referring to my coal black eyes. I did not hunted in weeks.

Please don't say no Edward, it would be fun! Alice said in her thoughts

You know what she would have said if she saw you like that brother Emmett just have to mention her knowing that now I can't refuse. I stand up

"Fine, I am coming, Okay" I smile it was a sad one. Sometimes it's ironic that mention of her gives me the strength to move on a daily basis but as the same time. The pain of that I can't see her touch her feel her tear my heart every second of every day for last 60 years. But my faith never wavers in this last 60 years. She will come back; she did before she can again. She promised me. She would be with me until the end of time. Maybe I am crazy to believe that. But I do.

So that's how I found myself in the forest, hunting. I already had my fill and Emmett was playing with his food like always.

"Emmett, can you finish it off quickly!" Jasper said slightly annoyed slightly amused as he look at Emmett fighting the bear again. Rose just rolled her eyes as looked at her husband but smiled. She sat at fallen trunk after burring the deer she just finished. As Alice was walking towards us, everything went to fast for human eyes.

A pain shot at the centre of my chest near my dead heart. Alice sight went blank and then she looks at me eyes wide. I fall down as the feeling of drowning wash over. I was aware of my surrounding but my mind was stuck at the voice I heard. It was my name. I did not hear the voice for last 60 years. And the name fell from lips.

"Bella"

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-BRCullen