Your Heart Calls You Home

Chapter 1.

Jude sat and looked in the mirror making sure everything was perfect. She checked her hair and make up for anything smudged or out of place. Jude took a deep breath and closed her eyes as she prepared for her last show. Just as Jude was ready to leave her dressing room she heard her cell phone ring. She looked down and saw Jamie Andrews calling……

"Hey Jamie, what's up?" She answered in a hurried tone.

"Jude, hey I know it's your last show tonight and I wanted to call and wish you good luck!" Jamie replied sweetly.

"Jamie you're the best thank you. Sometimes I can't believe I am actually here, you know sometimes I feel like I'm still that sixteen year old girl in the GMajor studio with Tommy Q in my….. ears." Jude stopped realizing what she had said. There was an awkward pause at the mention of his name. Jude cleared her throat to break the awkward silence.

"Speaking of, have you heard from or see him? I mean is he okay?" Jude asked nervously

"I don't really know Jude. I mean Tommy and I aren't exactly best friends. I haven't seen him since you left last year. Last I heard he moved to Montreal." Jamie explained timidly.

"Oh, okay." She replied feeling disappointed.



"Don't you guys ever talk to each other? I mean I know things ended really weird but this guy has been your life for the last five years." Jamie asked surprisingly.

"Um, He sent me a letter last year but I was too afraid to read it and when I finally got the nerve it was months past when he had sent it so I thought it was useless to write back and well that has been it." Jude explained feeling a little ashamed.

"Jude the guy was heartbroken when you left. Now I'm not his biggest fan and you know that but you should have written him back. That's kind of cold Jude. He really cared about you and you took off to London and then never wrote him back. What's going on with you?" Jamie berated her.

"Jamie I am still the same person. I've just grown up, I needed to!" Jude replied indignantly.

"Jude I am glad you're having your own adventures but don't leave us all in the dust while you do it, I mean you and I talk on the phone what every three weeks? We used to talk every day." Jamie responded sounding hurt.

"Jamie it's not that easy!" Jude replied defensively.

"I know it's just that……."

"Miss Harrison they're ready for you on stage." Jude's manager Molly said as she interrupted their phone call.

"Okay Jamie I need to go, we will finish this later okay?" Jude said hesitantly.

"Yeah okay. Have a great show." Jamie replied sadly as he hung up before she could reply.



Jude took a deep breath and another good look in the mirror. She was trying to really see herself and prove that she was still the same Jude Harrison that she had always been, but when she looked in the mirror all she saw was a rock star with no one there to comfort her but her guitars. This brought a tear to her eye but she had to suck it up and go give her London fans the show of their lives.

After the show Jude went back to her London apartment. As she walked in the door she had never felt more alone in her life. Her apartment all of a sudden felt cold and lonely. Jude sat on her bed and looked around. She broke down in tears and thought to herself. Was this really worth it? Was the fame really worth losing the man she loved and everyone else she loved in her life? Her friends and family? As Jude fell deeper and deeper into her thoughts she found herself feeling guilty. Her thoughts were soon interrupted by a phone call from her manager.

"Hi Molly." Jude answered with a broken voice

"Jude you were great tonight! You're such a rock star, I am proud of you." Molly replied as she ignored Jude's mood.

"Thanks." She replied.

"Well that is a wrap on your first tour, congrats. You officially have three weeks of vacation before you have to go into the studio and start recording that long awaited fourth album. I am sure you have a ton of material to bring in." Molly explained.

"Yeah, sure I'll be there. So I have three weeks?" Jude asked.



"Sure do superstar, go have the time of your life and call me when you get back okay love? Molly answered sweetly.

"Ok thanks bye Molly." Jude said as she hung up. Jude ran her hands through her hair and sighed. She had three weeks to come up with a whole albums worth of material. For some reason she couldn't write. It was as if she had lost her motivation.

(RING) "Hello." Sadie answered.

"Hey Sade I miss you." Jude replied desperately.

"Jude are you alright?" Sadie asked.

"No, I am so lost. I miss you so much and I think I am going to come home for a few weeks and clear my head. Jude explained sounding as if she was going to break down at any moment.

"Jude what's going on? Are you able to take a few weeks?" Sadie asked again out of confusion and concern.

"Yeah I have a break in between the tour and studio time. I need to clear my head. Plus I miss you and Jamie. I need to see you guys. I am taking the next flight out." Jude answered.

"Alright I will pick you up. Just call me when you get your flight okay?" Sadie replied sweetly.

"Will do. Oh and Sadie, I love you." Jude responded still sounding sad.

"I love you too." Sadie replied as they hung up.



Jude took a deep breath as her plane landed in Toronto that next morning. She hadn't been here in a year and she was feeling all kinds of emotions. Happiness, relief, sadness, regret, and nervousness. She knew he wouldn't be here but everything they shared still remained in the air of this fateful city. Jude knew she needed him but actually having to face it head on was killing her.

"JUDE!" Sadie yelled from baggage claim.

Jude ran to her sister faster than she had ever run before in her life.

"Oh my god I missed you!" Jude said as she squeezed Sadie tight.

"Same here." Sadie replied as she grabbed Jude's bags and they headed back to their house.

"Wow the house hasn't changed a bit. Do you live here by yourself now? Since Kwest moved out. Or are you guys okay? Oh my god I know nothing about your life Sadie. I am the most selfish sister in the world!" Jude said with great realization.

"No you don't get an A+ in staying touch but I forgive you. Zeppelin actually lives here with me that way she can stay near Jamie without living with him. Since his nana is still there. Plus I get rent money. As far as Kwest he is actually working as a producer for Jamie at NBR Records, we are civil but we are not together. " Sadie explained as she handed Jude a cup of coffee.

"I'm really sorry Sade. I am glad however that Zeppelin makes him so happy." Jude replied with a smile.



"Yeah I really like her. She should be home any moment now." Sadie said as she took a seat by her sister.

"Jude you aren't happy are you?" Sadie asked as she laid a hand on Jude's shoulder.

Jude broke down in tears and just replied with a simple "No."

"London wasn't what you thought it would be, and now you are coming back to fix things?" Sadie asked.

"I don't know I just need to find myself again, before I can put out an album again." Jude replied sadly.

"Okay well I will help you do that I promise. I know you don't want to hear this but you need to talk to Tommy. You need to have actual closure with him Jude. He deserves better than what he got from you and honestly I think that is part of what is eating away at you." Sadie explained.

"I know." Jude replied as she let a tear roll down her cheek.

"Hey Sadie I'm back! I got soy milk!" Zeppelin called as she walked into the living room.

"Oh my god Jude! What are you doing here? Does Jamie know?" Zeppelin asked flabbergasted.

"Hey Zeppelin, I have a break so I came home and no he doesn't. I was going to surprise him." Jude explained as she sat up.

"Oh well welcome back." She replied as she walked into the kitchen awkwardly.

"I think I am going to go take a nap. I'm a little jetlagged." Jude said as she got up.



"Alright I'm here if you need anything." Sadie replied with a sweet smile.

"Thanks." Jude replied as she walked upstairs to Sadie's room.

Jude took a seat on the bed and opened up her cell phone. She scrolled down her contacts and saw his name. TOM QUINCY. She felt another tear well up. She was dying inside and wanted to call him. She had been wanting to call him every day for the past year but she was too chicken or maybe too ashamed. She never actually knew. But as always she chickened out and dialed JAMIE ANDREWS……………………………………………………………..