Prologue
My world is coming crashing down towards me and I can't stop it. The bright lights are blinding me as I go and I can't stop it. My life is flashing before my eyes. I try to run away but I can't stop it.
I blame my parents for always comparing me to my sisters. I blame my sisters for never listening to me since I'm the youngest.
I don't want to deal with this anymore. It's just all too much.
Everyone is demanding that I to get into a good college, get scholarships, make something of my life, but what if I'm not ready to move on? What if I'm not ready to keep going with my life? This world is just too much. I have nothing to live for anymore.
I don't feel anything anymore. What are emotions to me anyway? All they do is cause pain and hurt. All they do is cause me grief. There is one emotion I can still feel though. It's the only emotion I seem to let in anymore. Besides anger that is.
I can feel pain.
Pain makes me feel alive. It makes me feel something good in this god awful place I call home.
I'm perfect though right? I don't act this way. I'm not rash, spontaneous or crazy. Well then everyone doesn't know the real me. This is who I am. This is who I have been for a long time.
Ever since I met him. He's the reason I cut.