Ok, so I've written one alphabet story before kind of as a tester. In my opinion, it didn't come out very well though. So I'm writing another one. Hopefully a better one since I learned from my mistakes.

I don't own Ouran…I wish I owned the twins. Or if the twins owned me…all the things that would happen if they did.

A is for Attention

Kaoru's POV

What did I have to do to get this boy's attention? I didn't know whether it was just me, or if Hikaru was actually ignoring me for the first time ever. The feeling was tormenting, and I thought he was doing it on purpose. But it made me sad to think that he would ever want some time without me. I started to think, what if I wasn't satisfying him enough? Does he still love me as I love him? I thought for a long time until...I started thinking about the past. What if I could somehow recreate the past to get his attention back? What had I done before that got his attention for a while? I thought back to the day where I pretended that I was sick so I wouldn't have to go on that date thing with Hikaru and Haruhi. I played sick then, what if I played sick now? Would he fall for it?

I crawled back onto my side of our bed, where I was before, trying to wake him up. I realized that this was one of those weekend days that he wasn't going to get up anytime soon. So I decided to lie there quietly until Hikaru woke up.

"What if…?" I started to ask myself, but stopped not wanting to wake up Hikaru. I turned to face him to see if he was still asleep. I watched him toss a little but he was thankfully still sound asleep. I loved to see him so calm, so quiet, so full of beauty, even when he sleeps. It was rare for him to lash out, but it was very possible for him to. It was mostly because there were times where he felt unhappy, unimportant, unloved, and unwanted. In the end, I always made him believe he was important, loved, and wanted…because he was. That there were just moments that made him unhappy.

I was always the only one to make him happy again, especially when we were little. Whether it was a small argument that hardly ever happened, or if I got hurt and he freaked out. I was always there to put a smile on his face. I've done the same for all the 15 years we've lived.

"Uhh…Kaoru?" Hikaru groaned. I turned to see that Hikaru was awake. I smiled, thinking about my plan for the day.

"Hey," I said quietly. Hikaru smiled back at me before closing his eyes and opening them slowly and tiredly.

"What do you want to do today?" Hikaru asked, taking one of my hands.

"I don't know…I don't feel very well," I started to play my role for today, even though I played a role every day in school.

"Why? What's wrong?" Hikaru tilted his head, looking at me with worried eyes.

"I feel funny and my head is spinning," I faked, putting my hand to my head as if I was having a headache.

"Oh…then we'll stay in bed today," Hikaru felt my forehead. "You don't feel warm, that's good," Hikaru sighed.

"Ok," I said quietly, not knowing what else to say or do.

"Come here," Hikaru whispered, holding his arms out for the first time in a while. I smiled and crawled into his arms happily.

"Hikaru?" I started, but didn't know if I should finish my sentence.

"Yes?" Hikaru looked down at me. I just stared at him for a few seconds, not saying anything.

"I..I..forgot," I stuttered slowly, but quietly. I laid my head on Hikaru's shoulder and closed my eyes.

"Kaoru," Hikaru shook me a little to get my attention back.

"Yeah?" I asked, opening my eyes.

"Have I been ignoring you lately?" Hikaru asked cautiously, as if he was saying what I was thinking.

"No," I lied, not wanting him to feel like he had not paying attention to me, even though he wasn't.

"You're lying," Hikaru took my face in his hands bringing my eyes up to his. He looked different, a different that was hard to describe.

"I am?" I questioned not only Hikaru, but myself.

"Yes, I always know when you're lying," Hikaru smiled slightly.

"You do?" I continued questioning.

"I do, and I'm sorry," Hikaru apologized, making me laugh.

"It's just like you to do something like that," I told him the truth.

"It's true if you say it is," Hikaru laughed with me.

Once upon a time things were said with meaning. Now they were just…well, said. Most things were said without meaning or any type of riddle to them. What if "once upon a time" meant something else than what people really thought it meant?

"What's right is what we feel is right," I always said, and most importantly. I meant it.

"You weren't really sick now were you?" Hikaru asked randomly.

"No, no I wasn't, I just needed a reason to stay here with you," I told him the truth this time instead of a dumb thought out lie.

"You don't need a reason, I'll be here anyway," Hikaru laughed awkwardly. I leaned in and kissed him lightly on the lips.

It was true that I didn't need a reason. I knew that Hikaru would always be there for me no matter what the situation was. We just had to do what our hearts tell us to do. This whole thing with our brains telling us something and then our hearts telling us something else didn't matter. It was only what we thought that we could do together. We didn't listen to what people in the outside world had to say. We just did what we though was right in our world.

I'm sorry if this ended up making absolutely no sense whatsoever. It's 1:00 A.M. here so I'm tired. I hope you liked this anyway and I'll see you next chapter.