Title: Rediscovering Myself

Pairing: Dan Howell and Phil Lester

Rating: M

Warning: Homophobia | Self harm | Violence

Author's Note: Don't worry It has a good ending. Established couple.

Disclaimer: I do not own Dan and Phil. They are their own person. This is purely fiction and any resemblance to real life actions is purely coincidental.

Chapter One:

Dan and Phil were out at a club with some friends of theirs. They had been going from club to club for the last few hours and both were a little bit tipsy but Dan got drunk easily and so what made Phil just a little tipsy made Dan drunk.

This made him easily intimidated and depressed. Phil and Dan were leaving a club with their friends arms wrapped round each other.

Suddenly Dan felt a hand grab his hair and pull him back out of Phil's arms and before he knew it he was pushed to the ground and a bunch of guys were kicking and punching him.

Phil gasped and tried to push through them to help Dan while his friends held the other guys back and one called the ambulance. Phil covered Dan's body with his own taking the blows groaning. He could see Dan was in a lot of pain and more then likely had broken ribs and clearly a broken ankle.

This was obviously a Homophobic hate crime.

Finally the police and an ambulance arrived to detain the one beating them up.

Phil slowly sat up with Dan's head in his lap so he didn't move to much.
He refused to leave Dan's side and so ended up going in the ambulance with him.

"They just came out of no where and pulled him from my arms and started beating him up." Phil said shakily as they traveled. He held Dan's hand who was now on morphine to take the pain away.

Once they arrived at the hospital he was told to wait outside the operating theater while they tended to him. It was a tense two hours. He sat alone for the first ten minutes until the others got there and then Dan's mum.

He paced back and forth waiting for Dan to come out worried sick and blaming himself for not seeing the guys coming.

"Phil darling it's not your fault you were never to know that they were going to do that." Dan's mum tried to reassure him.

She cared a great deal about Phil and never wanted him to think it was his fault. He had saved her son on more then one occasion and she could never repay him enough.

Finally the light went out and Dan was wheeled out. Phil rushed over with them and grabbed Dan's hand.

"He had two broken ribs and a broken ankle. One of the ribs was close to puncturing a lung. It was thanks to you young man holding him still that it didn't." the doctor said to Phil.

Phil gave a small smile and followed them into a cubical. Dan came round soon and smiled seeing his partner and mother next to him.