A/N: HEY omg okay so I know it's been forever since I've been on here and I AM SO SORRY! I'm still trying to figure out Truth because even tho I have a couple of chapters that I haven't published yet, I'm stuck. SOOOOO here I am with Jori! Making it to my top 5 otp list, I thought I would write it! It's kind of inspired by The Unforgiven written by Djuro (it's absolutely AMAZING so go read it right now!). Enjoy! *mwah*

P.S. This is taken place around season 3 after Beck and Jade broke up. Okay? Okay.

Always Falling

It's been two years.

Two years since she came to our school and I still can't get to her.

Black coffee, fake black eye, deadly flowers,

And she helps me.

Helps me?

And wants a hug.

Did I miss something?

Have I been unjust?

No, that first day. That first day with Beck set it off. No one can put me through that kind of humiliation and not pay.

She hasn't payed.

She won.

The day starts as normal. My drive to school was about as ordinary as it gets. Me, alone, in my car. Lately it's been getting... worse. The feeling of being alone no longer satisfies me. Being alone means thinking and I can't afford to do that anymore because of what happened last time. Thank God I called Cat. Thinking equals overthinking which eventually leads to my dad. I had never had a proper relationship with my father and after he spat on my dreams I didn't want one. But the surpressed memories will always be there. The longing for a "daddy" who cared and loved me no matter what will always stay with me, and thinking pulls it out into the open. And then I panick.

Cat was the only one who understood

Childhood best friends.

Growing up she always knew my story. Originally, I tried to hide it from her. I was embaressed of my family, my life, but I should have known that Cat wouldn't care about that part. She cared about me. Always wished the best for me. She never wanted to see me hurting, which is why my wrists had always bothered her. Every time she saw the scars her face would tense up and she would turn into a little, not-so-tough version of me, her wall quickly coming up. I never meant to hurt her. It was never my intension, but now I can't go one day without hurting someone.

The only person I can't hurt is Tori.

My thoughts vanish as I hear an unfamiliar voice. "Miss? Please take your coffee and move out of the way. You're blocking the line.

Great. I snatch the coffee from the counter, spilling a little on the floor. Not the best way to start the day. I push my way out of the crowded Jet Brew and head to my car.

As I drove into the parking lot, I noticed something usual. No one from our group was at our table. We normally meet there every more before the bell. But then I remembered

I've lost them all.

It had been rough. Beck and I had always fought and eventually our friends wouldn't even invite us to poker games. No. Correction; they wouldn't invite me, and Beck had to pray the price. It was never fair for him. And I was the one who caused it.

As I made my way to Sikowitz' class, I took a look around the empty hallway. Usually, students filled the halls with their singing, dancing, and creativity. But the emptiness gave it a bit of an erie tone to it. It felt... empty. I stopped by my scissor-decorated locker and started pulling my books out. My long sleeve began to make it's way up my arm, something I never want, so as I try to pull down my sleeve, I dropped my black math book. I reach down to grab it and feel someone else's hand on it. Looking up, I come face to face with Tori.

"Vega," is the only thing I say. I roughly take my book from her hand, startling her.

"Um, hi, Jade," she manages. knowing I can make her stutter like that gives me a small feeling of satisfaction. "Shouldn't you be in class?"

I rolled my eyes. "I was running late, Vega. It's not that hard to figure out." God, WHY do I do that? Why do I put up a wall right when there's someone else around?

Her cheeks blushed red, showing her embaressment. "I just... nevermind. Sikowitz said-" she paused, something catching her eye. "Jade...?" I quickly follow her gaze which landed right-

Shit.

"No I-"

"Jade...' she said, slowly reaching towards me. "Give me your wrist."

A/N: THERE! It's not my best work, so I'm sorry, but it's only capter one, right? I know it kind goes all over the place, but it has a point, I PROMISE! :) Soooo yeah! Dunno when I'm gonna update, so just keep an eye open.