Summary: This is just something I want to write. This is mainly for you romantic types who love it when stories are realistic. RikuSora and others.
Sora: the easily embarrassed "emo" who is completely random and optimistic. Riku: the smart, good-looking "normal" guy who is always calm and collected. Opposites right? Yupo Can this relationship last? Maybe for a month everyone says…
801: T.T Once again I have made up a completely crappy summary. Oh well… must continue typing…! -Determined face-
TEWG: -PATS 801- DON' WORRY. IT'LL BE GOOD…
801: Says you!! –cries- Remember! This story will be from Sora's POV (Point of View) all the time! Except for the specials!
TEWG: 03-06-08 20:27 (8:27 PM)
"Talking"
'Thinking'
Emphasize
Songs
Sora's Inner
Time: Place
(Note)
Disclaimer: We do NOT own Kingdom Hearts or any of the songs that are mentioned
Before Home Room: School
I sighed. I always loathed going to school. 'Haha! I learned that word in 7th!' I, the optimist, thought. See whenever I had depressing thoughts I'd think of the good things in life and when I couldn't I'd wallow in my own sorrow or cut myself although I could only do it once a week since I was a slow healer… well not really as my friends had said. For example; if I had a bruise or cut or anything it would be completely healed by day three, sometimes it wouldn't even leave a mark. If it did it would leave one so invisible you'd have to squint or focus on it long enough to notice it.
Opening the school doors I automatically saw the school hall monitor. I don't really know her name just that she had red hair and violet eyes. "You're late," She said without looking up from her papers. "Umm… yeah," I responded nervously. I was always afraid of redheaded girls. Guys, I wasn't afraid of, but girls were a different story. Especially this one. I just… hated her for some reason.
"Go to class." She said, "You're lucky it's still Homeroom." I nodded and sped-walked to the main building. I was actually surprised I managed to avoid the curious gazes of the only guy class that was always open.
I kept a frown on my face. I could feel it. I'm not happy. This calls for candy! See that's another thing about me. I have to eat candy every day or else I'd be depressed. It may not be healthy but at least I wouldn't be a broken doll.
I walked towards the guy's restroom and entered a stall. I pulled out my iPod, in its case, and pressed the center button on the kanji characters of "Shuffle Songs". The song "Cradle of Love" by Billy Idol came up. 'Huh. That's weird…' That song rarely popped up. The only times it came up was when something having to deal with love came. Mah iPod was physic! 'Maybe someone will get together with someone today' I thought and looked at the rectangle mirror in the iPod case.
I pulled out the black pencil eyeliner and dragged it underneath me eyes. Satisfied, I pulled out my mascara and pulled a piece of toilet paper from its holder. I always made such a mess with mascara but, hey, I liked it. I dragged it on my right eyelash then my left. I always pinched my eyelashes afterwards so some of the access could go where I missed and it would be equal. There was a lot of access mascara on my thumb and index finger and wiped it on the T.P. 'I wonder if other girls do the same thing as me,' I thought. I always talk to myself and when I catch myself I'd scoff at myself.
Hey wait, right now I'm talking to myself! Uh-oh. Here I come.
What the hell do you think you're doing?!
'Nothin',' I responded to myself.
You're talking to yourself!
'No I'm not!'
Yes you are!
'No, you got it all wrong!'
What are doing right now?
'…' Ladies and gentlemen it has now been proven you can out-smart yourself.
Myself left and I sighed. I always stopped bugging myself when I admitted defeat or got bored.
Four seasons,
Four, four seasons
Four seasons
Four, four seasons
Stay with me
Huh. When did 'Four Seasons come up?' When I get too entranced into something I completely forget about the outside world.
I blinked. Crap. Home room will end soon. Sure I can check what time it is by checking my iPod but I had to hide my bruises first! I pulled out a 'blush' or whatever those girls called it. I just knew it covered my bruises perfectly. There was a small bruise on my right eyebrow and another on the bottom of my left eye. I scowled and put the blush on.
After I applied the damn thing I looked good as new. I was about to leave when I reminded myself of candy. Right. I took out a Starburst, a Sweet tart, and a chocolate mint.
Finally I exited the bathroom. No, my earphones weren't still plugged in. I don't want it taken away.
I stood waiting in front of my Home room class. God, I don't want to go in. What if something's wrong with me? What if they laugh, for a reason unknown to me? Why am I always nervous going into my Home room class?
I knocked trice and waited five seconds. My friend, Tidus, opened the door. He was wearing what he always wore. Orange shorts, with one side longer than the other, and a white shirt with a yellow vest. Sure it may have looked bad on anyone else but, on him, it fitted. We did have to wear uniform though. But Tidus never was one to obey the rules.
The uniform consisted of a white collard shirt and jeans. If you asked me I'd say we looked like military students just waiting to go to war.
He smiled, turned, and walked calmly back to his seat. I followed right after him. I sat right in front of him anyway. The other kids didn't seem to care and continued talking. Only one girl actually had a book out. Just by looking at her you could tell she was a prep and nice. But then again judging people was not something I always did.
I turned around to face Tidus. He had his 'Love Notebook' out. He always shared it with his girlfriend, Yuna. They wrote who-knows-what and poems. Tidus's poems were I'd-Die-Without-You poems but Yuna's were directly of Love.
"So what's new?" I asked. I glanced up at the clock, five minutes left of Home room.
"Nothin'," He responded, still writing. "What are you writing now?" I asked.
"Somethin'," He blushed.
"Is it about your girlfriend?" I dragged the word girlfriend to make him blush harder. It was fun messing with him.
"Y-yeah."
"'Bout what?"
"…" He didn't respond.
"Mm-hmm." I smiled and turned around again. I've always wanted to make him so embarrassed he'd faint but unfortunately I don't think I'd ever see the day. So sad.
1st Period: English: In the Middle of Home Room and English
I stood, with all of the other students and left. Since me and Tidus had the same classes together, I waited for him. He was always the last to come out cause he had to put away all of his stuff. I saw a note, maybe a poem, in his hand. "Another love poem for you girlfriend?" I smirked. He smiled sheepishly and nodded. Note the small blush on his face. Tidus was just too emotional.
When we got half-way to our 1st period class, we were glomped by two people. We could automatically tell who it was. It was Demyx Mizu and Selphie Tilmitt. They were the first two to ever glomp us before anyone else could.
"Hi!Howareyoutwodoing?" Demyx asked. He was obviously on a sugar high. I sometimes envied him. No matter how much candy I eat I never get on a Candy High. Maybe it's because I already eat so many sweets daily and I'm just immune now? I love my sweet tooth though!
We talked quickly for two minutes before Tidus had to go to his girlfriends next period, which was Gym, to hand her the 'Love Note'. We searched and immediately spotted her. How hard was it to find a short cut brown haired girl, who had a very unique hairstyle, with a blue and green eye talking next to a gothic-emo-punk and a hyperactive looking girl who you could easily spot even if she was in a banana stack?
I waved 'hi' to Yuna, Rikku, and Paine. Tidus gave her his note and we were on our way, easy as that.
1st: English: English
Our first period sucked. But at least me and Tidus (we sat next to each other) entertained ourselves by playing 'Footsies' again.
4th: Music
Fourth period, again it was boring but at least I got to hang with Roxas. Me and him were so alike it was a wonder we weren't twins. Though people did say that a lot.
Break
Finally! Break! I walked out of the Horrid Room of Doom (music room) and went to my hang out. It was perfect. Two trees for shade, a trashcan, benches, and a drinking fountain.
Not long after I got there my friends started coming in. It also wasn't very long before we started joking around and playing with each other.
2nd Period: Algebra 1
As soon as the bell rang signaling for second period I laughed sadistically. I couldn't wait to see Riku! He only visited us (my friends and me) whenever he wanted to. I chuckled as yesterdays horrid memory came in mind.
I had literally squeezed Riku's head and hugged him to oblivion! Hahahah!!1!!111! Wait why did I put ones in my mind? Oh well, I remembered Riku gasping, his face flushed. I managed to squeeze all the blood out of his head! Yay! I remember the normally quiet boy, who sits in back of me laughing. That was rare. Lexaeus was never one to smile and laugh. I also remember Pence, Riku's friend, laughing also at my goofiness and Riku's misfortune. I wonder what I'll do to Riku today…?
Sure Riku and I were best friends but now we were more like friends, no, more like acquaintances. When I turned 11, and Riku was 12, we stopped hanging around each other as much as we used to and eventually stopped talking to each other. It was great to have my friend back! I smiled and thought of new ways to 'punish' Riku for stopping being my friend.
When I got in the classroom I saw at least five seats taken. Hmm…Riku's not here yet. I pouted and sat down in my seat with Lexaeus following behind me.
We talked for maybe two minutes when the bell rang I didn't even notice other students come in. After the teacher finished his long boring speech about life, it mostly took 30 minutes of class so no one really complained and he didn't give these speeches rarely so that was a bonus, but whenever he finished I always got sleepy. I can't get sleepy or else I'd get depressed. That wouldn't be good.
I turned around again and talked to Lex again. I liked talking to him. He was an anime fan and he let me borrow his manga. He one time bought me a manga; I had to pay him back. Bastard.
I felt two hands cover my eyes and I smiled. I recognize those hands anywhere. Soft but not too soft. The gloves kinda gave it away also.
"Riku!" I squealed. The two hands came off and I faced aquamarine eyes. "Cheater," He smirked. I stuck my tongue out at him. "Liar," I responded. He chuckled and the four of us, me, Riku, Pence, and Lex, talked the whole period. Lexaeus kept getting more and quieter, so, as my responsibility, I had to make him, and the rest of the guys, laugh by making small jokes. I can be quite funny and I don't even know it.
5th Period: History
Uh-oh fifth period. I walked with Pence and Lex as we walked to our History class. I took off my black sweater and stuffed it in my bag. Our teacher didn't like the color black much so she made us get rid of it or we'd be suspended. Maybe she was afraid of the color? Nah. That'd be stupid since she sometimes wears the color black herself.
Pence never learned. He just refused to take off his black sweater which made him get in trouble with the teacher and he'd have to get his sweater back after school.
I know Pence has a crush on me but I still talk to him and sometimes come onto him, in a friendly manner of course. Was I leading him on?
Lunch
Yay! OMG! LUNCH!! Food! I almost drooled. God, I'm hungry. I only had a bun yesterday. No not the hamburger one. The one that had white or brown stuff on it. I'm not that good with explaining these things.
This is what I always do at Lunch and at Break, I'd bug my friends for food. I was deemed the 'fatty' of the group and my sweater and baggy pants didn't help. But you'd be surprised at how actually thin I looked without them.
"Sora!" I turned my head from talking with Cloud and face Riku and Pence. They were sitting on a bench away from me and I walked towards them. I stood next to Riku, since he was the closest, and smiled nervously. "Yeah?" There was an awkward silence. I smiled again. A gay baby was just born! Yay! I made history! See there's this rumor I heard once that said every time there's an awkward silence, a gay baby was just born.
"Sit," Pence patted at the middle of the bench, where no one was sitting at and I sat down.
Oh, I could tell something BIG was gonna happen. I looked from Riku to Pence to Riku again. Pence looked away and Riku stared me right in the eyes.
"I like you," Riku confessed.
I blinked and blushed. Whoa. I was not expecting that.
"So?" Riku asked hopefully. I didn't look at him. I didn't know what to do. Do I get with him? Yes or no? I started thinking about what people started saying. I had nothing. I stopped shaking slightly out of nervousness and looked back at him.
I swallowed, "Alright let's try it," I even shocked myself. Sometimes when I couldn't do something by myself I let my body do it, so I attached myself to his right arm when I confessed it. I only liked Riku as a friend and him just suddenly saying that… ah I don't care I'm bi and I wanted a boyfriend… Erm did that sound possessive?
A bit of an awkward silence passed. Another gay ba- oh I'm too embarrassed to say it. I remembered Pence and looked back; he was talking to some girl.
"Umm…" Riku mumbled. I couldn't blame him. Maybe he-
He looked me straight in the eyes again. There was a blush on his face and his eyes twinkled. "Do you know how nervous I was?" I smiled again and hugged him. "Now you don't have to worry," I said.
He nodded and hugged me back. The bell rang I had science next. I remember him going the same direction as me and we went. We didn't hold hands but we talked. And that was good too right?
"So…um…I didn't have enough time to tell my friends about you but tomorrow I'll tell them, k?" I chewed my lip and he nodded. When we reached my class we hugged and that was it for then.
3rd Period: Science
Let's just say if I were to tell you about this class you're eyes would be twitching with boredom!
6th Period: P.E.
Ugh. Oh-no. PE. My almost hated subject. I had to take off all of my accessories and my armguards, which covered my cuts, too. I was always afraid that the teachers might catch me and send me for counseling. Ugh.
When I entered the gym lockers Demyx, my partner, immediately decided to cling onto me. I had to walk around with him practically on my back. The other guys didn't really care. They were all used to it by now, I guess. When we reached our locker Demyx jumped off of me and turned the knob carefully to the right combination and opened it. We immediately cracked jokes to see who was funnier. Of course I won. I didn't want Demyx to pay attention to the self-harm so I had to distract him. Although he did know about the cutting, he strongly disagreed about it.
Riku had the same period as P.E. as me. We had to run 4 miles in thirty minutes. I always got 3 miles done. But since Riku was great; he always got ran more distance then me. He always ran 5 miles, more or less. Meany.
When me, Paine, Demyx, Donald, Goofy, and Mickey walked around, we could choose between walking or basketball and I didn't feel like getting my hands dirty, I told them all that I was going out with Riku. They all seemed surprised but smiled nonetheless. I couldn't help but grin myself. They were all supporters! Yay!
By the time we walked around the whole field at least three times, Riku stopped playing basketball and joined us. I thought my friends were there with me but no they decided to ditch me! I pouted and Riku ruffled my hair.
"What's wrong with you?" He chuckled.
"My friends ditched me." I grumbled.
He looked around and saw my friends walking at fast pace away from us. "Hmm…" I looked up at him. He was a head taller than me.
"Just stick with me till they come again alright?" He laughed. "What's so funny?" I asked pouting even more. I'm not happy about my friends' betrayal.
"Nothin'."
My pout died and was replaced by a smile. I felt warmth in my stomach. I knew that feeling. I really… did like Riku.
We walked around the field once just talking. Our hands brushed against each others once or twice but we never held each other.
Suddenly Riku smile turned to a frown and he stared at me. I blushed a bit and felt so vulnerable. I hardly felt that emotion.
"Sora?" He asked. "Yeah?" I asked looking at his pale chin. I didn't want to look at his eyes right now. "Let me see your arms." He commanded. I looked down at my feet and showed him my left arm. That was smart. I didn't cut my left.
"Now the other."
I blushed nervously and showed him my right. Crap. I had at least three suicidal looking cuts and other Not-So-Deep-But-Still-On-Top-Of-My-Veins cuts. Riku nodded and put my arm down. I wonder what he thought?
22:52 (10:52 PM): Home
'I can't believe I'm doing this.' I thought. There was a safety pin in my hand. I had lost my five other razors and now I have none because of them. But this safety pin was sharp and left satisfying cuts so I was okay with it; it is my favorite after all.
I sat on my bed, cross-legged. I brought the needle on my skin and dragged it down. It left a wonderful aftershock. I hid my safety pin back in my favorite teddy bears tag. It was black with bright yellow scary eyes. I called him Shadow. He was one of a kind! He was very rare, only few are left in the world!
'I wonder what Riku would say if he saw my new cuts' I wondered before I lied back down on my bed and curled into a fetal position. I didn't have a pillow anymore so I used one of my very large yet comfortable teddy bears. I groaned a little and put my dark blue covers on my body. Ah nice and warm. Shadow was pressed tightly to my chest as I cuddled him. I closed my eyes and less than what seemed like a minute, sleep overcame me and I closed my eyes to sleep.
801: Ah I finished in one day 03-06-08 11:19 PM.
TEWG: JUST START WORKING ON THE OTHER FF'S.
801: As soon as I finish the next chapter of this down and then the next.