Wolfstar

You are my moon and you are my stars.

Chapter one: It had been a hard week for Remus this week, recently he thought that during an episode he had hurt one of his friends (Sirius) so he shut himself off from everyone, wouldn't speak to a sole. He missed all of his classes, but the professors knew about his condition and the current situation so they let him take as much time away as he felt was needed, for him to recover fully. It had been almost a month and Sirius was missing him somewhat dearly, Remus had never hurt him, but Sirius hasn't been able to find him to talk to him, so Sirius has gone looking for him.

Sirius finds Remus in a self-made log hut somewhere in the high trees of the dark forest, Sirius noticing the moon, but being to over excited about finding Remus forgot that Remus turns to a werewolf at moonlight…

"Remus!" shouted Sirius

"Please don't come near me" groaned Remus

With Sirius' eyes welling up "but I miss you moony"

"Go, leave me alone, you can't stay here" Remus' tone was sharp, hiding that fact he missed Sirius dearly

Moments later the moonlight shone through onto Remus, he started to change into his werewolf form, "Im not leaving you like this Remus! Im not going anywhere", but before he had the chance to look at Remus properly he was already in full form. Remus was snarling and he began slowly creeping up towards Sirius. He knew he wouldn't stand a chance like this against him so he changed into his animagus form, a large black dog known as padfoot. The two males squabbled until near death when Remus managed to pull away and gain control of himself. Remus had taken hiding behind a large tree, but as he looked round his heart sank as he saw padfoot lying lifelessly on the ground, he ran over to him and laid the big dog in his arms "Sirius… can you hear me" sobbed Remus, Sirius was back human, but he still laid lifelessly in his arms, Remus cradled him holding him close to his chest, "Im so sorry, I really am" cried Remus, he knew he couldn't leave him here so he picked him up and carried him off to a place where Sirius stays.

It wasn't much, a small little brick shed like room, but it was heated and had two places to sleep in case Remus ever needed someone to stay with him. Remus laid Sirius on one of the beds and wrapped him in a blanket while he ran a hot tub of water to bathe him and Sirius in. He places the tub in front of the fire a gabbed Sirius who was still just as lifeless as he was in the forest, "I love you, please don't leave me" Remus wept over Sirius' body, but little to his knowledge Sirius was listening, "I'm not going anywhere moony". Sirius was badly injured so Remus sat him in the tub of water and washed his wounds, Sirius insisted and told him they would be fine, but Remus wanted to take care of him, he gently squeezed water over Sirius' body and gently drying them making sure they was clean so they didn't become infected. Later that night after they had both been cleaned up they sat in front of the fire with a blanket, Sirius laid his head on Remus and whispered "I heard what you said earlier" but Remus didn't reply "I heard you say you loved me" Remus froze, but then turned away, "I love you too" Sirius said with a gulp, he turned to Remus and cupped his face in his hands "I don't know if you know it, but I've loved you for quite some time now and when you disappeared it broke my heart… I thought I'd never see you again and… and I…" Sirius began to cry and the more he tried to speak the more he cried, Remus was never the best at comforting people when they were crying but he moved up towards Sirius and wiped away his tears "I've loved you for quite a while too and when I thought I had hurt you I couldn't live with myself so I went, but then you found me and then I really did hurt you". The two boys hugged, but as they slowly parted from one another Sirius grabbed the back of Remus' head and pulled him in, he gently pressed his lips against his and he softly kissed him, but Remus didn't kiss him back and instead he pulled away slightly shocked and lost for words "sorry" Sirius said quietly, but seconds later Remus pushed Sirius to the flood and climbed on top of him, their lips smashed together and Sirius let out a soft moan, their tongues explored each other's mouths and it became heated rather quickly "hey moony I think it would be comfier on the bed" Sirius got up and pulled Remus towards him slowly unbuttoning his shirt, Remus slipped off his trousers and helped Sirius get his off too, their lips crashed together once again, Remus had Sirius between his legs as they grinded together letting out small moans. Hours had gone by and they had fell asleep in one another's arms.

Morning came and they both awoke still wrapped in each other's arms, "morning moony, we should probably get back to James and lily, they might think I got kidnapped or something" Sirius chuckled. Later that day they went back and found lily and James "Merlin's beard! Remus is back" shouted James as he jumped onto Remus, " what happened to you two, you both looked like you've been dragged through hell and back" said lily in a concerned manor " Remus and I got in a bit of a squabble while he was transitioning, I found him while the moon was appearing a totally forgot, I turned into my animagus cause I knew I wouldn't stand a chance against him like this, but we stayed somewhere and recovered and now we are back" Sirius explained, "We are glad that you're both back and safe, we was actually in the middle of truth and dare, want to join?" lily asked "sure" Remus and Sirius replied", as they played they got onto the topic of relationships and stuff "Remus, have you ever done anything?" asked James Remus put his head down and shook his head, Sirius knew about them two and he knew he wouldn't say anything about that, but he never knew he was his first. The questions kept on going and it got a little too much for Remus so he left and headed to bed out of the way. While lily and James went down for dinner Sirius went to check up on Remus who was lying in his bed topless, Sirius could see his scars and he could see he had been crying, " you okay moony" "go away Sirius" Sirius walked up to Remus and sat on his bed "I said go away" Remus said sounding annoyed that he didn't leave the first time "Im not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong" Sirius claimed, "I didn't like the subject of the questions and I didn't feel like I fitted in" "I thought you had girlfriend's moony" "no… I only said I did so that you and the others wouldn't think I was weird or something" Oh moony Ii would never think that you was weird, I love you for who you are" Remus sat up and laid on Sirius and he gently whispered "this bed isn't big enough for the both of us" they went to the couch which was slightly bigger for them both to get on "what if James and lily see us Sirius?" they won't, they've gone for food so they should be awhile and besides if we stay away we can just quickly move" Sirius took off his shirt and laid on Remus' bare chest, he traced his fingers around his body and then he kissed him once again "I love you padfoot" "I love you too moony" and with that they had both fallen asleep. An hour or so later lily and James came back with goodies for them all to share, but as she was about to sit down she saw the two boys cuddled up to one another, "hey James, have you seen these two love bugs" James looked shocked, but he probably thought they was doing it for a laugh so he ignored it and thought nothing more of it. Remus was awake playing with Sirius' hair as he peacefully slept on him, but he suddenly stopped as he heard someone get up, he thought maybe they saw them and began to panic he quickly put on some clothes and acted like it never happened.

The next week they had broken up for Christmas, but Remus, James, Sirius and lily all thought it would be fun to stay and spend their Christmas together and stay at school, Lily and James had left that afternoon to spend time together walking and playing in the snow, while Remus and Sirius stayed in the warmth and spent a lot of time together, Remus would read, Sirius would play his guitar and sing soft love songs. Sirius was bored and decided he wanted to do something, but Remus was having none of it, Sirius who laid next to Remus was playfully pulling at him until he finally gave into Sirius, he took off his shirt and pinned Sirius to the ground "easy tiger" smirked Sirius "shut up" "make me" Sirius giggled, but out of nowhere Remus was on top of him kissing his neck, Sirius rolled him over so it was him who was at the top, he reached down Remus' pant and touched him, he smirked at Remus, but little did they know lily and James where on their way back up, Sirius pulled off his top and wrapped himself around Remus "I wish we didn't have to hide it" said Sirius, Remus tickled down Sirius' side and them tumbled over and over again playfully like two pups, but at the door stood James and lily, "do you think they will ever find out about us Sirius?" "Im not too sure, but we did fall asleep last night they might of seen us…", James and lily tried to creep in so they didn't hear them but the flooring creaked as they walked, Sirius and Remus jumped to their feet trying to cover themselves "this is not what it looks like" shouted Remus, but Sirius wasn't bothered and he just smirked at the two of them. When Sirius was alone James came to him and asked about the two of them "so where did this all come from" "well after the squabble he took me back to this little place and he cradled me in his arms and he said he loved me and he didn't want me to go, but he didn't know I was waking up so I said I'm not going anywhere moony, he then bathed my wounds and then after that we kind of cuddled and I said I knew what he said, but he didn't answer so then I said I love you too… "And do you love him?" asked James, Sirius paused "yes… I love him a lot and I was lost without him" Sirius began to cry and then Remus walked in James moved away so Remus could comfort Sirius, he pulled Sirius into his chest and held him close "Im not going anywhere now" Remus laid back and Sirius curled beside him, it was almost as if they had always been together.