A/N: Hey People!! Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, just the plot. (it WILL develop into more after this chappie!!) I don't own the song "Just A Dream" by Carrie Underwood either.
So this story is harsh...and by harsh i mean really really depressing :'( But i really really really wanted to write it. And it may SEEM like it is gonna be a one shot, but it's not, so bear with me :)
This story is going to be based off of the song "Just A Dream" By Carrie Underwood, it's a very good song, sad, but good.
Just so you know, I'n NOT giving up on Never Cry (my other story) I'm probably going to be continuing it in the summer though, because right now I'm packed with school, plus i wanted to write this story, AND I'm writing ANOTHER story as well on my own, AND ANOTHER story with my friend at school that we are going to be getting started on soon, when we do write it and post it, make sure you review on her profile too por favor!!!
I'm dedicating this to a very close friend that has always been like a second mom to me. I love you Mrs. Maslyn, thank you for always being there for me, I promise to be there for you always as well.
Rain was pelting down my back like…bullets.
I didn't feel it.
My tears were blending with the rain, carving trails down my face.
I wore nothing but a nightgown and a trench coat above it, and even though the rain and wind were freezing cold, as I neared the cemetery all I could feel was the pain in my chest trying to burn me alive.
I couldn't breathe.
Gasping I let the coat fall from my shoulders into the mud at my bare feet. I keeled over in pain, clutching my chest and trying to hold myself together.
Like that was possible.
I was trembling so hard that everything was a blur….more so than usual. You left me, now I'll never see life clearly again. I saw it through your eyes, beautiful….I just looked at your eyes…so beautiful…
I choked on every breath. You took that from me the first day I saw you.
-Flashback-
"Hello…umm…Mr…Banner…? Hi, I'm new here, Isabella Swan." I said it like a question.
"Ah, yes…Isabella!" He smiled kindly, a little too kindly maybe. I internally cringed. "We've been so eager for your arrival!" Yep, definitely too friendly, "Why don't you take the empty seat next to Mr. Cullen over there? He's not here yet but that's just because he had to stop at the office before class today. I was studying your records earlier" CREEPER! "…and I discovered you were placed in all of the advanced classes back in your old school in Phoenix! You can imagine just how thrilled I was to find out a student like you were coming here..." I tuned out his ramblings for a full five minutes and just thought about who my mystery partner would be when then door to the Biology class opened. Standing there was Adonis himself. Understand, I've never really had a crush on anyone before, and most definitely never dated anyone. I still was hearing Mr. Banner's voice buzzing in my ears somewhere in my mind, but I didn't allow my brain to register the noises. I was too focused on this boy-no-man in front of me.
I was also focusing partially on not drooling…
I saw his mouth move, forming words, and the next thing I knew I was entranced in the sounds of his beautiful voice, not really caring what the words were saying, seeing as you were directing them at the slightly aggravated teacher behind me. The next second though his emerald green eyes were focused on my plain brown ones. I felt like he was peeling me to layers with that stare; learning everything that there was to know about me.
And I couldn't look away.
I was subconsciously aware that the entire class was watching our little spectacle and I could hear the childish giggles of a few of the girls, while the rest were sneering at my supposed "stupidity" and my unfashionable clothing.
His eyes never released mine.
I think Mr. Banner had finally had enough and so he cleared his throat rather loudly, bringing me out of my haze, and the class to attention.
I blushed beet red now that I was fully aware of all the eyes on me.
"Isabella," Mr. Banner said; his tone was slightly husky, what the hell? "…please take your seat now." The 'Cullen' boy, (I didn't know his name yet), walked right up to me and I held my breath, not daring to move an inch. His strong, yet soft pale fingers caressed my forearm. Upon contact, I felt a jolt of electricity warm my body, and as strange as it felt, I internally prayed he'd never let go just so I could continue felling this warmth.
I could've sworn I hear him growl at the teacher. What the hell?!
This school was definitely weird, but looking at his perfect angled features and his casual disarray of copper-red hair, I couldn't help but be happy of that fact.
He flashed a crooked smile and led me to our seats in the back row of the room. I swear this boy was trying to kill me, that crooked smile made my heart soar to cloud nine and never came down!
-End Flashback-
You always were the charmer, and your crooked smile was enough to have me incapacitated most days. Actually I believe the term "falling for you" came quite literally for my klutzy feet and I. The corner of my mouth twitched, I almost smiled when I thought about all of the times you would be nowhere in sight, but you were always there to catch me. However, thinking of these memories was a big mistake. A whole new wave of pain started to come over me.
Hunched over in pain, my knees hit the dirt splashing mud astray. I screamed out in agony, and the noise echoed in my ears, in my head, down my spine.
I was alone.
Totally and completely…alone.
You said you would be here forever, you promised never to leave me!
Anger and anguish flowed through my veins.
I told you not to go. I told you I couldn't live without you if you left me.
And I can't.
"Do you call this living?!" I wailed!
Lightning flashed above me. My eyes dilated rapidly from the sudden light. I wished more than anything for it to just strike me dead, so I could be with him again.
I fisted the dirt in my palms, letting it mold to my grasp. In front of me the flowers I had placed there yesterday were drowned out in the downpour. The tombstone was almost black from the rain. I didn't need to read it to know what it said; for I had memorized it from the first time I first saw it.
EDWARD ANTHONY MASON CULLEN
-HUSBAND, "BROTHER," "SON," and FRIEND-
1981-2009
WAR HERO
DEATH WILL NEVER SEPRATE US, LOVE IS ETERNAL
R.I.P.
I hugged the cold stone close to my chest, trying to warm it, just as I had desperately tried to warm your cold body when they brought you to me.
-Flashback-
The laundry bell chimed.
The hot water kettle was whistling.
The dog was scratching at the door, needing to go out.
I tripped on the celery stalk that I dropped on the floor a few minutes ago; I had forgotten it was there…
Bustling around like a mad women I tried to keep the house in order, doing all the jobs that I possibly could.
I didn't want spare time, that was something I desperately needed to avoid. So instead I preferred always doing little unnecessary tasks that in a normal household would be put-off until later. For example scrubbing the place between the fridge and the wall…
I left the laundry to wait a little bit while I turned off the stove and let the dog out.
I'm sure right now you are expecting me to be some OCD wife, but the truth is, I wasn't; I was just trying to get my head off the topic that my husband was away in Iraq fighting in the war effort far away from home and could get kil—NO! I couldn't think about that; I promised myself I wouldn't. He promised me he would be fine. He wouldn't leave me, of that I was positive…he knew I couldn't survive without him…
I scrubbed an already-clean dish two times harder.
Just as I was drying my hand with the kitchen towel, I heard the doorbell ring. Not even checking my appearance that was probably a catastrophe, I made my way to the foyer to open the front door.
The first thing I noticed was the little black car on the curb next to my driveway. In front of me stood a man in a military uniform. His face was solemn. The hectic smile I had plastered on my face before opening the door was replaced with shock and confusion. With a grimace he uncovered an envelope from his coat and took my hand. He dutifully placed the little black envelope in my open palm then closed my fingers around it.
I wasn't confused anymore.
I crumpled in on myself, bringing him down to the cement of the porch with me. Jake; my dog, my intuitive dog at that must of known something was wrong, because I felt his fur frantically try to warm my dead heart and his whine in my ears. My breathing was coming in gasps and I was overcome with vertigo. The man was trying hopelessly to calm me and get Jake away, but I clutched Jake with my life, for all that was left of it.
I couldn't stop thinking...He's gone…he's dead…Edward…My love…Dead…
The last thing I remembered was the laundry bell chime again. That's when I blacked out.
-End Flashback-
I couldn't even bring myself to think farther than that. I've been inconsolable since his death, the only way I ever talk is when I'm here…talking to him!
And it's been a week since his death that I've been silent. I don't know if I can bring myself to talk again…or live…
Hugging my chest instead, trying to hold myself together, I sat up in the mud. Raising my face to the sky, letting the icy shards sting my cheeks, I choked back a sob and whispered to the night, "Why did you leave me Edward?"
EPOV: (Shocker right?!?
Looking down at my angel in pain broke my dead heart. I was a monster for leaving her, even if I never intended to. From up in the clouds, trapped by my death I whispered in a comforting voice to her crumpled figure, "Don't worry, I will do whatever it takes to come back to you, and I'll never leave you again. I'm sorry, my beautiful angel. I love you, and I will be with you again…"
A/N: Did you hate it? Like it? Love (pfft) it? I know it's short...REALLY short...sorrryyyy about that... Should I continue? Please Review, I love feedback!! :) (and ideas...how will edward do what he wants to? i have an idea...and i think it's okay...but i think it could be better...) And if you havn't read my other story "Never Cry" please do!! :) I love you all sooo much!!!! ~Satan :)
Ill update when I can if you want this story to continue.