A/N- I got this idea when I heard this song on the radio. I tweeked it, just a little, so it would fit! I hope you like it!
Oh yeah, I don't own Twilight and/or Flyleaf. If I did, do you think I would be writing on here?!
I woke up from my nightmare in a cold sweat. I dreamed he was here again, holding me, loving me like he used to.
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I felt you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
I shove my face into my pillow to stop the sobs. My heart shattered in my chest as I thought of his name… Edward.
This fire rising through my being
Burning.
I'm not used to seeing you
It's been 4 weeks, and I still couldn't stop thinking of him. He haunted my dreams, my fantasies, my everything. I couldn't get rid of him.
I'm alive, I'm alive
I remembered that he's gone for good, and I scream into my pillow and quilt. Charlie feebly opened the door.
"Bella?" he asked. I didn't make a sound of welcome, and he left my room, keeping the door cracked open. Light poured into my room, burning my eyes. I hid under my quilt and I fell back asleep.
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
I woke up at the crack of dawn; tear tracks down my face, and sniffed. I wiped them off, and got ready for school. I wouldn't, couldn't, let anybody see how I felt at school. Everybody knew the story, the Cullen's leaving for sunny Los Angeles, but I knew the real reason why they, most importantly Edward, left.
He didn't love me.
My hands float up above me
And you whispered you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
I woke up again, from another nightmare. This one was worse. We were in the meadow. He was holding me. He was kissing me. It was the good times. I rubbed my face, trying to somewhat scratch and peel the memories of him away with my fingers, but I just couldn't. He was etched into my mind forever.
The music makes me sway
The angels singing
say we are alone with you
I am alone and
they are too with you
I wonder how he's doing. He must be lonely, wherever he is right now. Maybe he's up in Alaska; with those other vampires. I roll over in bed, and tried to sleep, but dawn was already cracked above the horizon. Maybe he found someone else. Maybe he's suffering, too.
But I doubt that.
I got up for school. Why sleep when you could be early for school, right?
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
My dreams keep getting progressively horrifying. This time, we were on a beach, his sparkly skin making rainbows for the amusement of the little kids around us. We both stand up, and he throws me over his shoulders…
And then I woke up. Sweaty, shaking, and crying, like usual.
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I stay up late at night, and think.
What did I do wrong?
Did I love him too much?
Was he ever interested in me?
And then I had a new thought.
He never loved me.
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Charlie and I eat in silence. He stares up at me from his pasta. I look back at him.
"I love you, Bells." He says silently, and when I didn't respond, he continued eating.
He didn't watch the game tonight.
Take my hand
I give it to you
Then you owned me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believed you
I believed
I'm up at night… again. I'm remembering the night in Phoenix, where he said he would stay. I moan into my pillow in distress. He said he wouldn't leave me! But he did!
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
I stare out the window during school. I sighed as a bird flew into a tree.
I looked down at my notes, and sighed again.
Edward's really gone.
For good.
A/N- Reviews are welcome!!