Alright everyone this is my first fanfic and im not sure how yall will like it but I hope you like it

Disclaimer: sadly i own nothing Stephenie Meyer is the genius

Bellas POV

"Hello" I said to him. He stood in the doorway with a peculiar expression on his face, and I knew he had seen through my lie. Before he had walked up the steps I had been thinking about jacob and how he would take the news of my wedding. Somehow no matter how hard I tried to hide it he always saw through my pretenses and confronted me about them. I knew he couldn't read my thoughts but nowdays I was much more careful about my thoughts around him because if I thought them they eventually flashed across my face and

He was always looking at my expressions thinking they would let him in my mind. Most of the time he was right. "Bella why do you look scared?" he asked with confusion. YES! He didnt see through my lie."Its nothing you only surprised me thats all."

Edward walked in the room and stood by the couch. I walked into the kitchen to finish Charlies dinner.

"Charlie do you mind if Alice steals Bella tonight? You know how she gets when she's on a shopping spree."

I walked bach into the living room alice hadnt told me about any shopping trip."Umm...sure I guess thats fine. I expect she will be home late then? Or will she stay with Alice.?" He said the last word reluctantly, I guessed he had finnaly realized me and Edward were serious (or as serious as Edward would let us be).

"umm...Im not sure Charlie on how late Alice is planning to keep her." What was going on here Alice never asked me to go shopping and Edward knew it. I opened my mouth to protest but Edwards look caught me off gaurd he was glaring at me. I quickly closed my mouth and walked back into the kitchen i could hear the pasta finish boiling. as i was working my mind wandered. Why had he glared at me like that? Why did he say me and Alice had a trip when we didn't? W hat was wrong with him? "Bella come on we have to go." he said politly but forcefully. Charlie would never be able to hear the resentment in his voice i could hear the pain echoing through no mnatter how hard he tried to hide it, there was something he needed to talk to me about and he would say anything to get charlie to let me stay the night at his house so we could talk about EVERYTHING instead of leaving things unsaid like usual ( well on my part at least). I finished adding the sauce and put it on a plate taking it out to Charlie, said i had to change and ran up to my room. i stood just inside the door

trying to get my heart to slow down by at least a little bit. when i could somewhat breathe a little easier I changed into a new shirt and walked back down the stairs to find Edward still waiting for me as still as statue I could see on Charlie's face that he was a little disturbed at how still Edward was but Charlie would soon forget about it.

"Al... right Edward I'm ready...to go" Edward turned around quickly. Too quickly for Charlie and he seemed to look just a bit more stunned Edward had always protectively hidden this stuff from Charlie and with good reason too but why choose now to be so open and free. Something is defiantly up with Edward.

"Come on Bella." His expression softened a little."

"Bye Charlie I'll see you later." I walked over to him and kissed him on the cheek then walked over to Edward.

He put his arm around my shoulders and we walked out the door to the Volvo.

"Edward...do you mind if I drive for now?" I asked hesitantly. He gazed a me for a minite with a suprised look and slowly nodded his head and gave me the keys.

He said nothing as I drove to his house althougth I wish he had it would have been easier to talk to him with no one but us there. Instead he decided to wait so he sat there thinking it was driving me crazy sitting there for ten minutes waiting for him to begin, to explain what was going on but he never did he just sat there with a puzzled look on his face.

"Edward?" We had pulled up to the garage and I had turned off the engine but he still just sat there not moving...like a statue."Edward please answer me... your..sc..aring me... Edward please." I had started to cry by that time which didn't help any but when he realized it he suddenly snapped to life and got out of the car and "walked" around it opened my door and picked me up tears and all. He walked into the house and up the stairs to his room. Bye this time I was scared stiff that this was going to be the end again that he was going to leave me and never come back, like I had dreamed. It was the way he was holding me like something was leaving. When we got to his room and he set me on the unnecearsy bed I was sobbing and he had a worried look on my face. As soon as he set me down I had a panic attack, I couldn't breathe I knew this was the end... again I couldn't bear him leaving...of all of them leaving. I stood up and bolted out of the room screaming.

"ALCE!?...CARLISLE!?...ESME!?..." I ran to each room in the upper part of the house. there was no one there now i was really getting hysterical. this was the end Edward would leave again and i would be alone with yet another hole in my heart and this time Jake couldnt help me, he had made his own hole. I ran down the stairs as fast as I could and down to the living room. There was no one there. I ran out the door still screaming thier names.

I ran down the driveway. "Alice! there you are!" I ran to her and threw my arms around her, she instantly turned rigid and stiff. "Alice? Whats going on?...Oh my god! Please dont leave i dont know what i would do without yall anymore i dont know if i would survive. Alice please answer me" i was pleading now and crying again too but alice said nothing and stayed rigid.I looked up at her and noticed her eyes. they were pitch black i suddenly became frightened. "Oh i'm sorry Alice i didnt realize." I let go of her and took a step back.

"Its ok Bella you couldn't have known." She warily took a few more steps away from me and relaxed a little more. I took my hair down and swirled it around my face to help I knew she was resisting as much as she could. " Now will you please tell me why you were running through the house screamin at the top of your lungs?... and where is Edward?"

"Oh Edward, I dont know he was just sitting there when i ran I guess he didn't follow me. Alice he's leaving me again I just know it, this is just like the last time I dont know what i'm going to do!" I was seriously over the edge i was so hysterical.

"Bella relax," I jumped at the sound it wasn't Alice it was Jasper. I noticed his eyes were black too. I scooted back farther there was no reason to make this harder for him than if already was, he wasn't as practiced as Alice. "Bella don't worry i'm in complete control...for now, thank you for putting your hair down that helps a lot though." I relaxed a little. I knew it was because of him he knew i was scared and was trying to help. "come on Bella, lets go inside,"

"yea Bella we can talk easier when there isn't any wind and we need to find Edward, something is wrong." Alice came over to me and put her arm around my shoulder, i shook her off and she looked at me with puzzled eyes she nknew i needed to be held and couldn't understand why I wouldn't let her.

"This is hard enough without you tempting yourself I'm fine... for now." I attempted a smile at her and the walked twords the house with Jasper bringing up at the rear keeping a safe distance away from me.

oooh how cliffy (muah ha ha haaaa)

srry this isnt quite finished yet (by a long shot) but i promise i will finish it by 2morow

R&R PLEAZ!!! it inspires me!!