Waiting
by Caz
Rated K
Disclaimer is in force, so leave me be!
I sit and watch you look into his face and your laughter ripples across the room and washes over me creating a wave of emptiness that only amplifies how much I want you.
Your laughter is the laughter of a lover, only the lover is not me, it never is. I guess it never will be.
Other men fill the void in your world, whilst you, you are my world, Abby. But until you see beyond the man and his lust, I'll sit here and silently wait.
And just as silently, I beg you to let them go, to try and live without them, but I know I'm asking the impossible. You need men like flowers need the rain. You need their strength with whatever love they have to give along with the promise of nothing more.
And that, I know, is where I fall flat, Abby. You know that if I was your lover, I would want it all, every darn thing that you had to offer, and more. And in return, I would give you as much along with my heart and soul.
But you don't want them. You don't want me.
But, Abby, I want you. But I can't have you while you want them. I can't lay my heart on the line only to have you discard it for something more shallow.
So I sit back and watch while you give others what should be rightfully mine. I wish you would let me in, Abby. I wish you would look into my heart, just for a moment, and see what I have to offer you.
I have love.
I have passion.
I have hope.
And then there is me.
I'll always be here, waiting, hoping and praying that you will one day let them all go and let me in.
My door will always open for you, Abby, as will my heart, when you're good and ready.