A/N: This is my first Stitchers fanfic. I am obsessed with this show and Camsten and Cameron's hair. That finale was excruciating and I've been unable to keep from writing sappy things to sooth my bleeding heart.
Disclaimer: I do not own Stitchers or the characters or Cameron would have woken right up and Kirsten would have kissed him, then slapped him for doing that.
He had to keep her safe. That was Cameron's only thought as he called Ayo and worked out his argument better. It didn't matter if she was angry if she was safe. He'd prefer it if she didn't have to be upset at all, but even if he died, he knew that the temporal dysplasia would help her to move on almost instantaneously. So all that mattered is that she be safe. He hadn't been able to keep Marta safe and he would always feel guilty for that, but he knew that if anything happened to Kirsten it would break him.
He wouldn't lie and say that it was love at first sight, but something had begun in that first glance. He never denied that she was a beautiful, intelligent woman, but that night at the club she was stunning. Her constant insistence on going into the field may have been under the guise of efficiency, but he knew it was because she was worried and didn't trust the safety of who she saw in the stitch to others. She may have no concept of time, and she thought that she didn't have emotions, but the more time he spent with her, the more she unwrapped the cold metal shell to reveal her soft gooey center.
Sure, he had first written it off as residual emotion, but that wasn't it. Stitching was CHANGING Kirsten. Each one showed her a new facet of human emotion and helped her make sense of her own emotions. Each stitch made her more human, and he saw that it terrified her. She didn't know how to handle all these new emotions, but he did what he could: be there for her.
Then there was Liam. Her boyfriend popped up out of no where after 2 years, now Cameron was ready to admit that he was jealous. The mere thought of Mr. Perfect Abs kissing Kirsten made him want to throw lamps through his window. But he knew that she had trouble with emotion and if Liam helped with that, he needed to do what was best for her. He did his best to help her work through her emotions, but it just proved to him that she didn't love Liam. As much as he didn't want that fact to change his actions, it did. If Kirsten didn't love Liam he had a chance. She couldn't marry Liam. The night she turned him down was one of the happiest of Cameron's life.
So when Cameron decided that he wanted Kirsten to stitch into him, he knew exactly what she would find. He knew that she would find memory after memory of her, most likely glowing from the powerful emotion surrounding her. He knew that being inside his head and feeling his emotion would finally connect the dots in her head. She would finally catch on to the fact that he was head over heels in love with her, a fact the rest of the lab knew a month ago.
Then when he woke up, Kirsten would give him time to heal. She'd act awkward but not broach the subject for at least a week. Then she would approach him with pity in her eyes and try to let him down easy, but he wouldn't let it get that far. The second he saw the look he would tell her to forget about it and to just go on as normal, he'd get over it eventually. Then she would try and fail to act normal again. It would be up to him to go back to the meaningless teasing until she got back into the swing of things. He would suppress all those feelings and forget that she knew.
Oh, who was he kidding: it would be excruciating. He would have to see her every day and see her act like everything was the same when it wasn't. Once she knew how he felt, there would be no reason to deny any feelings she might have for him. Meaning that when she did nothing, that she had no feelings for him. That knowledge would be worse than just assuming she was unaware. He would be absolutely miserable for at least a few months.
None of his pain mattered though, because she would be safe. She would be safe and it would be (in part) because of him. He couldn't be the perfect Greenpeace boyfriend she had broken up with. He couldn't be the strong protector that Tim or Fisher could be. But he could be the guy with the life saving memory. Four minutes of death and a year of heartbreak are worth that to him. SHE was worth that to him.
A/N: I'd love to hear what you think. I might write a second half with her point of view as she watches him sleep after he is brought back to life. Because he WILL live!