Title: Ordinary People
Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine. I'm just borrowing them for a while!
Author's Note: None
Spoilers: GOODBYE TO ALL THAT
Summary: Cops are ordinary people
Rating: PG-13ish
She doesn't belong here, she's just a baby. I don't belong here either. Who the hell does Swerky think he is telling me I need to go to a 'support group'? He threatened to take me off the street if didn't come to one of these damn meetings. I would have just signed my name and left but I couldn't turn away from the first speaker. She can't be more the seventeen years old but there she was standing in front of what has to be at least twenty people tell them about the weakest moment in her life. That girl is half my age and she's admitting she was weak, she admitting she had no control. So why can't I?
I guess it has to do with the whole myth that cops are suppose to be these big super heroes and they can't be victims of such acts like this. I'll admit that it helps to think like that sometimes. To think we are not ordinary people. In our job having fear of what might happen is not an option, but sometimes things happen to show us we are not invincible and it brings everything back down to reality.
It shows us fear is not necessarily a bad thing but we soon forget, that just comes along with the job. Out on the street there is no time to think, you just DO whatever that has to be done. I still can't do it though. I can't admit I was that vulnerable, when I was on the job of all places. I'm supposed to be able to protect people and I can't even protect myself. What kind of cop does that make me?
Questions like that shows me on a daily basis how ordinary I actually am, and I hate it. I wish I was stronger then this. I wish I could be this super cop that could catch all the bad guys without anything ever happening to me…but who I kidding? That's never going to happen for many reasons. The number one reasons is I have to get over the one thing that is ruining me. The one thing that's keeping me from being the cop I once was and the cop I could be.
I have to do this:
" My name is Serg- My name is Martiza Cruz and I am a rape victim"