I was wondering about how much my life has changed since that day, the day when I finally found out who I was. I was not just a women forced, to be whatever the akatsuki wanted me to be.. I had something to live for..something to die for...

I rolled out of bed, feeling like shit...For I had just yet again, yet another member of the akatsuki into my pants.. I may sound like a slut, but its the only way for these men to accept me... But even after they treat me bad.. I have just given up at this point, I looked around found my clothes and left the room without the fear of him waking up...

As I reached my room I was fully dressed in the clothes from yesterday.. and I smelled like sweat.. I decided to draw a shower.. to wash this dirty feeling from my body.. then use my healing jutsu to make sure my birth control pills were still effective..

I stood there looking in the mirror.. my blue hair still wet from my shower.. and I found a new bruise on my shoulder. "I really shouldn't be doing this... but what do I have to live for, My parents are dead, My heart has been broken more times to count and all guys see me as a hit and run never like a little girl trapped inside, just wondering how to live though the next day.." I was in the bathroom when Pein came just bursting into my room and then my bathroom.. " Konan, New mission.. head to the leaf village.. and find out information by any needs necessary, Now hurry up you pathetic excuse for an akatsuki, and get ready.." He grabbed her shoulder, were the new bruise was.. and caused her to fall to the floor in pain. "See weak... You only help us real akatsuki take away our stress...and you aren't even that good at that either.." He squeezed her shoulder harder, causing her to tear up slightly.. then let her go harshly and let her hit the floor kinda hard.. as he just turned emotionless "You have 5 mins or I will really make you feel pain..." He said as he turned and walked out the door..

I laid there tears falling from my eyes like a waterfall, as I struggled to get up, using the sink for support, then applied my healing jutsu to my shoulder to ease the pain as I hurried to get dressed before Pein does something else.

When I was done changing I quickly transported to the main hall, to meet Pein.. "Your late..." he said as he smacked me hard in the face.. "But I was here with 1 min to spare.." "Don't talk back to me.." he said smacking her again.."Now get your act together.. and you should have been early...Now go to the leaf village. Start with the hokage, she's never seen your face, she will assign a sensei who is currently on break to show u around the village.. get information from him.. and then the rest find out his friends an d learn form them.. ok I don't think I will have to explain anymore to you..now leave my sight you discuss me.."

I bowed slightly as I vanished away...I vanished to the woods.. were no one could hear my crys.. well I thought no one could...

Until He said something

Not knowing.. he would change everything...

Just by placing a hand to my shoulder...

I turned to see this man.. He wore a mask that covered most of his face, but you could see his one eye, and he looked friendly enough, and I wasn't wearing my cloak, so he didn't know who I was, so he wasn't afraid of me... he wore a leaf headband, I knew he was the enemy, but... something inside me was saying he could be trusted...

"You ok?" he asked. I wiped some tears from my face "Yeah I guess..." "I know its really none of my business, but I was just on my way to my apt. and I heard you crying and being a respected sensei I couldn't just leave you here." I paused kinda shocked no man has treated me with this must respect, he treated me like an equal ninja.."So are you a fellow ninja?" he asked kinda breaking my silence.. "Yes... an elite jounin.. and healer.." "I am an elite to.. but I can't heal.. Hey, do you have a place to stay, bc I mean I barely sleep, you could stay at my apt if you want.." I sighed I knew were this was going it happened to many time before.. "No I am ok.. you know.. I am kinda hurt right now, and just like every guy all you think about is bringing me back to your apt." I got up "Sorry, but it's men like you who I am trying to avoid... and if you wanted in my pants... you shouldn't have been so nice, you know I almost fell for that nice guy act..." He paused as if to protest, but I disappeared...