A/N:: ok, new story idea. I've been kinda down lately and so i've been listening to a lotta angsty stuff, hence the Linkin Park Numb. Well, i got four ideas for onshot song fics from Ryan's point of view using this song, so, behold, here's the collection of four one shot "Numb" fics. Enjoy. The first part is coming shortly followed by the other three. This is last minute, i havent even really written it yet, i just have the idea, so don't mind the spelling and grammatical errors, cause i'm doing it fast to get it out on paper before i lose the inspiration i have. I'll go back and revise it, but y'all get the idea... Anyway, for those of you unfamiliar with the song or the band, here are the lyrics. It'll be really angsty, and the first chapter's coming up as fast as my fingers will fly over the proper keys. Much love, peace.
-Jenn
"Numb"
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Pt. 1 Ryan vs. his school
Pt. 2 Ryan vs. his sister
Pt. 3 Ryan vs. his parents
Pt. 4 Ryan vs. the World.
P.S. A/N:: haha, i've got so many skills i have a post script to a story preview/authors note. They're all pretty much related, but they're seperate oneshots, therefor, if Ryan were gay in one, he might no be in the next and vice versa. I'm not sure which way i'm going for any of these, i'll find out when y'all do.