I am blind, love being the blackness in front of my eyes
I pretended his eyes were still looking at me, like they used to...they used to and will never ever be,
watching me with a smile from the distance.
kissing my tears away whenever I cried ,being salve for every single blood drop but
like people say blood is thicker than water.
That was what I realized when I saw him walking away, his shoulders straight, pretending to be strong, that he could handle this pain like he handled all the other scars left from former times, from former battles he had to fight.
He showed me that he could handle water, my tears of disappointment and pain,
but the blood that made me blush whenever his bare skin touched and caressed my skin
would kill him again and again,
because he would never ever be able to feel my warm hands in his again.
He didn't understand that this blood would lose the warmness and existence when he wasn't around
it would be fading away, like water under burning sun, water he could handle, but not the blood it was in former times.
Oh god, I want you to to take my eyes off
I don't want to see him die
even the dreams I had about him starring at me
no warmness no life in them anymore
made me cry and suffer like I knew he was almost dead
although he survived in former times
athough a part of him died when he rememberd the human lifes
which were carried away by angels
and the people crying over and over again
about them never being able to love them again
like they did in former times...I am blind, love being the blackness in front of my eyes.
God why don't you take my ears off
I don't want to hear his cry
before angels fly by his side and carry him away
away from me
away from his dreams of happiness
and I know he acted well when he thought it was happiness
taking his breath away
taking my love away...I am deaf, love being the noise avoiding me to hear his cries
God why don't you take my lips off
I don't want to cry over his death
when angels are shouldering his burden and weightlessness
flying by his side taking him away without my cries off numbness and suffer
his chest numb like mine...I am dumb love being the vails taking my voice and breath away.
God why don't you take my nose off
I don't want to smell his death and pain
like he had to in former times
when angels fly by his side caressing his lips
like I did in former times
without me smelling his sweet exhalation and being the mistress
I should be when his eyes lose their light, close
and leave me behind...I am not able to smell anymore love being the numbness averting the smell of death which was searching for me to smell hear and see his body and eyes being carried away by angels,
my crying and shouting burst out
my hands moving to my throat
killing me
like he did in former times when he told me it was me he always loved and still he had to protect me.
Blood running down my lips
a smile on them as they taste the blood he never wanted to handle
a smile on his lips when he welcomed me in caressing my heart
his whispers deap inside of me
fly angel of mine
fly we won't be seperated anymore
our lifes now being eternal
a smile over a dead girls body
blood on her lips as she left life for being together with angels
shouldering her burden and weightlessness
angels flying by her side
caressing her body and fly leaving to bring together two souls crying for each other and longing for another eternal kiss
but they left human lifes behind
world is still caught in a spiral of death...