Remorse for the dead...
Well, this is my first one shot, be kind!! lol any way, one warning, its been a while since i watched the movie so some things might seem out of place!!
elfgirl05
Every thing is cold, I dont like winter, I never did and probably never will, It seams like only bad things happen in the months of winter...
I was abandoned...
Evelyn died...
Jack died...
Jack was always the shy one, the gloomy reject. But he was our little brother and he wasnt a Reject to us, he was anything but a Reject to me...
We have all done some fucked up shit, me most of all! but Jack was innocent; He deserved better than what he got and I sure as hell should have made sure he got the best...
The worse part of this whole fucked up thing is that I couldnt protect him, I couldnt save him though I promised him and ma that I would always keep him safe and out of trouble, some shit job I did...
I remember how he called for me, It rings through my ears every day and every night since it happened, since those bastards that killed my ma killed him..
He thought I could save him, I could see the trust in his eyes as he screamed for me to save him, I hate that look, I hate it, it tells me how badly i did for him as a big brother, as a friend...
Yes, we killed that motha Fucker Victor sweet, we killed him and didnt feel any remorse, Revenge was sweet..but I only wanted Ma And Jack back, I wanted my little brother...
He was dead, dead because I was to busy yelling at Jerry. dead because I couldnt kill those bastards fast enough!
I remember holding his hand as he died, how he tried to smile at me, as if he was forgiving me for not stopping them from killing him.. I could never let him forgive me, Im the god damn strong one!! Im the fucker who Jack thought could save him from anything! Im the bastard who disapointed him...
I Disapointed them all, Ma, Angel, Jerry...
I cant look at them in the eye any more, I cant because I know there will be anger and disapointment in their eyes, I cant face that shit, I just cant...
So why do I go on? I go on because I know thats what Ma and Jack would want me to do, I go on because someone has to be there to tell Jerrys kids all about their uncle Cracker Jack, I go on because Someone has to take care of the fairys guitar, that some one should be me, its the least I could do for the little brother I let down...
Im sorry Jack I really am...
AN//
Well, how was it? My first one shot and I dont think its to bad! Please Review!