This is a translation of one of my fanfictions that I wanted to share with the English community. Sorry if I made some mistakes, this is the first time I do something like this. Hope you guys like it.
It´s eight o´clock, just one more hour to go before graduation party starts and I didn't even have the intention of putting on the blue dress that my father had bought me. This wasn't because I didn't want to go to my last high school party, even though I never really like them, it was because I didn't want to see them together, much less in my current state…..
My name is Bella Swan and I´m 18 years old, I just finished High School and I´m about to get into college, well…. at least that was the idea before I knew that within a few months I would become a mother.
The truth is I never thought this would happen to me out of all people. I was always a very quiet girl with little interest in romantic relationships, my life revolved around school and nothing more, I rarely went out and didn't drink, anyone would think they took me out of a convent. But all that change in a party almost two months ago, when Rose convinced me to go assuring me that she would not let anything happen to me. Now I realize how naïve I was…..
Being entirely honest there was also another reason that made me want to go that night and that reason was Edward Cullen. He is a guy who moved to Forks a year ago, he is tall with coppery hair and has such a beautiful green eyes that can leave anyone hypnotized. And not only that, he is also very intelligent and kind to others. He is simply my perfect guy, the only one I have ever felt some kind of interest for. Unfortunately I was not the only one who thought that because almost every girl in my school wanted him, but he acted very indifferent and reserved in that aspect, it seems like no woman in Forks was good or interesting enough to get his attention. That's why I desisted immediately of any action to approach him, because if girls like Rosalie or Tanya were unable to get him, much less someone as simple as me could do anything….. I was just expecting to see him from afar at the party but I never imagined what would happen that night.
FLASHBACK
"Rose, how many times have I told you that I don't drink?"
"Oh, don't be so bitter Bella, where´s your sense of fun?"
"You know very well I´ve never had it so why do you keep pushing me?" I tried to return her the beer she just gave me but she shook her head.
"No Bella, I want you to relax and have some fun tonight, you´re always so right. God, sometimes you behave more like a seventy year old lady rather than an eighteen year old one. You have to enjoy your youth, do crazy things, try new stuff and this." she pointed the beer. "is one of them. I don't want you getting old and regretting not doing this and as your best friend I order you to take that beer" said with an authoritarian tone. I hated it when she talked to me like that but at the same time it kept me thinking for a while. In a way she was right, my teenager's years will never come back and if I didn't enjoy it to the fullest, I may regret it someday in the future. So without saying anything else I drank the beer and I saw her smile.
"Good girl" she said.
In that moment, a tall, muscular guy with dark hair approached us and I noticed how he immediately scanned Rose´s body, I didn't blame him though, it was almost impossible not to do that since she was wearing a really short red dress that left little to the imagination.
"Hello beautiful" by the way she reacted I realized the interest was mutual.
"Hi handsome. What´s your name?" asked with a seductive tone.
"Emmett"
"I´m Rose, nice to meet you" she came closer to him to whisper something in his ear and took his hand.
"I would love to" Emmett answered before Rose turned her attention back to me.
"I´m gonna dance with Emmett" she winked before pointing my beer again. "Don't forget what I told you" and with that they left.
I stood there not knowing what to do, I looked around and that's when I saw the man of my dreams. He was leaning against the wall across the room looking as handsome as ever. He was wearing jeans and a blue shirt that accentuated his muscles; he was talking with some guys of the school. I felt a strong urge to go to say hello but I held back immediately and decided to better concentrate on taking my beer.
Rose returned several minutes later with Emmett and with another beer in her hands. She exchanged it with the one I had.
"Hey…" I started to complain but then I noticed that the bottle she had was already empty. I didn't realize the moment I finished it. "Thanks" I finally said and she smiled. They stayed with me for a while but I felt very uncomfortable because Rose was practically all over Emmett and kept whispering things to his ear. During that time I drank two more beers to try to distract myself of the little show that they were giving me and soon after, without saying anything this time, they went to dance again.
As time went on I began to feel strange and a little dizzy, I sat on a chair that was near and after a few minutes I decided that it was time to ask Rose to take me home. I began to look for her but I couldn't see her anywhere, I asked some people if they had seen her but they told me that she had already left with a guy about fifteen minutes ago.
I could not believe she had gone without telling me, she just left me alone. I didn't know how I was going to get home because Charlie was working the night shift. I went back to the chair to try to calm down my nerves and took another beer. I put my hands on my face while trying to figure out what to do next but for some reason I felt very disconcentrated.
"Bella, are you okay?" asked a beautiful voice I knew perfectly. I looked up and was surprised to see Edward standing in front of me. The only thing going through my mind in that moment was: He knows my name?
"Erm…" I put my beer on the floor and stood up with difficulty.
"Bella?" He put his hand on my arm and immediately I felt a strong current go through my body. Apparently he felt the same because he removed his hand as if I had burned him. I just kept staring at him for a moment and still couldn't believe he was in front of me, he was even more handsome this close. I look at his hair, his eyes, his nose, his lips….they just look so appetizing. I asked myself what it would be like to kiss them. I didn't know what drove me to do it but I just dared and kissed him.
Having his lips against mine was so much better than I imagined, I felt fireworks around me that didn't last long because Edward separated me and looked at me puzzled.
"Bella, what are you…" I didn't let him finish because I kissed him again and put my arms around his neck. At first he was so static I thought he was going to pull me apart again but after a few seconds he started to kiss me back and the kiss became more intense. He put his arms around my waist and I felt his tongue asking for permission to enter, to which I agreed immediately.
I didn't know how long we kept on going until we finally pulled apart. He pressed his forehead against mine while trying to catch our breath. I noticed that he still looked quite shocked but I still wanted to take advantage of the fact that I was feeling very different and daring, so I said:
"Dance with me" I took his hands and guided us to the center of the room. I started to dance in a way that I never thought I would be able to, sticking my body to Edward´s and putting his hands on my waist. I kept moving to the music but I noted that Edward just remained motionless, so I whispered:
"You have to relax, Edward" he looked at me as if I had two heads but didn't say anything and gradually began to imitate my movements. Having him this close made me feel things that I had never felt before and I loved it. I just followed my instincts and we kept on dancing for a while, I wasn't sure how it happened but suddenly I found myself dancing with my back against his chest and his hands roamed from my waist to my thighs, I could feel every part of his body and his arms enfolding me completely. Suddenly I heard him whisper in my ear: "Bella", it was wonderful to hear him say my name and before I could control myself I turned around and kissed him again. I could never get tired of this.
I separated for a moment and noticed that his eyes shone with desire and something else I couldn't identify before I said:
"You don't know how long I´ve dreamed about this" this time it was Edward who kissed me like his life depended on it and I just explored his body with my hands as he did with mine. I was traveling my hands down his chest and unbuttoned the top button of his shirt when suddenly he stopped me and the instant he noticed my disappointing face, he said:
"Not here" he took my hand and went upstairs. We entered to a room and once the door was closed we kissed again. Before I could think of it, we were lying on the bed and I finally finished unbuttoning his shirt but before I could take it off, a moment of doubt crossed his face and stood up.
"Bella I don't know if we should…You´re very…And I…" I also stood up to put a finger on his lips.
"Shh…"kissed his neck and added. "I want to do it" I heard him grunt and I kept kissing his neck, slowly went down to his chest as I took his shirt off.
When I sat on the bed, he helped me to unbutton his pants and noticed that he was very excited. I touch him gently and said:
"I don't know how to…." he immediately understood what I meant so he took my hand to guide me in the movements I had to do. I heard him moan for a while and that made me feel a little proud, slowly I began to stroke him myself and it made me want to continue my exploration, so I took his boxers and pants down completely. I was surprised to see him like that since I had never seen a naked man before. I kept watching him for a few seconds just wondering how someone could be that perfect. Suddenly I heard him laugh and said:
"That´s not fair, I´m already naked and you´re still dressed" he kissed me intensely and I felt his hands on the verge of my blouse so I help him to take it off. He kissed my neck and put his hands on my breasts caressing them gently for a moment before he moved one of his hands to my back.
When I felt him pulling my bra, I understood what he was trying to do so I decided to help him and took it off myself.
"Fucking bra" he whispered and that made me laugh.
He continued to touch and kiss every part of my body while I did the same with him. When we were completely exposed and ready, he positioned at my entrance and looked me directly in the eye:
"Are you sure about this?"
"Completely" and with that he slowly entered me. It was painful at first but not as much as I expected it to be. Edward paused for a moment waiting for me to get used to him and then slowly began to move.
When he started to accelerated his movements, the pleasure increased so much that I couldn´t help but moan nonsense and shouted his name. He did the same and I was delighted hearing him say my name over and over again, on more than one occasion I heard him whisper:
"You´re so beautiful" and I really felt like that. When I started to feel a knot in my stomach, Edward said:
"Bella. I´m not going to last long, I´m about to…." I silence him with a kiss and soon after I felt like everything exploded, an indescribable feeling passed through my body and then I felt like something was being spilled inside of me. I thought that nothing in the world would ever overcome this, it was more than perfect.
"That was…" I said while trying to catch my breath.
"Awesome" he said and gave me a gentle kiss on the forehead before pulling out and lied down next to me. I was so tired that I even didn't even register the moment he pulled me closer to his chest and just before I fell asleep, I thought I heard him say:
"You are amazing"
The next day, I woke up with a very severe headache and a terrible thirst. I thought about going to the kitchen to drink some water and take an aspirin, but the moment I finally opened my eyes I realized that something was wrong, very wrong. I noticed that this wasn´t my bed, much less my room. There was someone naked lying faced down next to me and I felt scared. I immediately got up and realized I was also naked, so I wrapped the sheets around me before I started to look for my clothes. My mind kept spinning trying to understand what was happening, I had so many questions but at the same time I wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. Suddenly, the sleeping man turned around and I saw clearly who he was.
"Edward Cullen?" I whispered to myself. Edward and me? Nude in the same bed? Did he and I…? No, it couldn't be possible. It just couldn't be….
When I found my clothes, I changed as fast as I could while trying not to waking him up. I went downstairs and the moment I saw the living room (which was a desaster) all the events of yesterday suddenly came to my mind.
I remembered coming to the party with Rose.
She leaving me behind
Edward asking me if I was okay
The kisses I gave him
The dance we had.
The way he and I…..made love.
For a moment I felt like I couldn't breathe anymore while trying to absorb everything that occurred last night. I had kissed Edward Cullen, THE EDWARD CULLEN and not only that…..I lost my virginity to him and it was fantastic. But looking through the events again I realized it was me who first kissed him, I was the one who incited him to dance, I was the one who insisted on having sex. I behave like a…..slut. I probably was one after the way I behaved.
The urge to leave increased even more, so I left as quickly as I could not even caring that my house was far from there. I just simply walked to my house.
I was afraid that Charlie may have noticed my absence, but when I arrived home I realized that the patrol wasn't in front on the house so I relaxed a little.
During that weekend I stayed most of the time in my room still feeling ashamed of my actions. Fortunately for me Charlie didn't notice there was something wrong with me. But unfortunately Monday arrived and I was scared about going to school and having to see Edward again. For a minute I thought about ditching school but knew I couldn't do that as we were on finals.
The moment I arrived at school I didn't pass unnoticed the numerous glances I received from some of my classmates, probably from those who had attended the party. It didn't took me long to found Rose standing in front of her locker. I approached her with clear intentions of demanding an explanation.
"You promised me to take me home and what did you do? You left me there just to go with a complete stranger."
"I´m so sorry Bella, we just wanted to be alone for a moment without spoiling your fun. It was the first time that you were actually having a good time"
"A good time? All I wanted was to go home" I was feeling really angry with her.
"I´m sorry, I just thought you would find someone to take you home" she tried to excuse herself.
"Well I didn't, I had to walk all the way to my house, no thanks to YOU"
"I´m sorry" she insisted, but I knew her enough to know she really didn't felt it.
In that instant I noticed that someone was coming toward us and it wasn't just anyone, it was Edward Cullen. I felt very scared and did the only thing I could think of, I just went away. I tried to avoid him as much as I could, not only that day but throughout the whole week. The moment he appeared in the same room as me, I did whatever I could to run away. I was terrified of the things he could say to me, I was sure he already thought the worst of me, probably thinking I was just a slut.
That Friday, Rose came to dinner to my house and while I was on the stove preparing the food, someone knocked on the door. Seeing that I was busy, she said:
"I´ll get it" and went to see who it was, then she came back looking very surprised.
"It´s Edward Cullen, he says he wants to see you" I almost burned with the pan after hearing that.
"Tell him I´m not here"
"Why would you not be here, if this is your house?"
"Well then tell him that I don't want to see him right now, tell him that…that…" sighed defeated. "that tomorrow I will go to his house to talk with him"
"Okay" replied unconvinced and returned to the door to give him my message.
While setting the table for dinner, I noticed Rose was staring at me as if trying to decode something. Her stare was so piercing that I just snap:
"What?"
"Spill it"
"Spill what?"
"What is happening between you and Edward?"
"Nothing happens between us" I assured her.
"Bullshit, you´re a terrible liar and you know it"
"All right, all right, I´ll tell you what happened" I said frustrated and started to relate what happened at the party. When I finished, she screamed:
"YOU HAD SEX WITH EDWARD CULLEN?" sounded very surprised but I also noticed she sounded kind of angry.
"Yes" replied so low I wasn't sure she had listened.
"I can´t believe it, now I understand everything. That's the reason why everyone at school is calling you a whore"
"What?" Ok, I didn't know that.
"They´re saying they saw you act all slutty with someone at the party. But I never imagined it was with Edward"
"I…" I knew my behavior had been awful but having people to confirm it was even more painful.
"Oops, I think I shouldn't have said that, I´m sorry Bella" she then hugged me. "What are you going to do?"
"I don't know, I think I´m going to talk with Edward tomorrow and see what happens"
"NO" she replied with abruptness.
"No?" I was confused.
"No Bella, don't talk to him, he would probably just insult you or maybe he just wants to have another round of sex with you, you know how men are" Actually I don't. I thought.
"But he has been very persistent, I can´t avoid him forever" she seemed to think for a moment before saying:
"I have an idea. I can talk to him in your place so he doesn't insult you and I´ll tell him once and for all that you´re not a whore. What do you think?"
"I don't know, I don't think that's something you should do"
"What are friends for Bella? I want to protect you and help you with this. Trust me" I thought what she said for a moment and although I wasn't very convinced with the idea, my fear of talking to Edward was even bigger.
"Okay Rose" she just smiled at me.
I spent the whole weekend feeling very nervous; I had no idea how the talk between Rose and Edward went. I had thought she would call me right after it but she didn't, so I had to wait until Monday.
When Monday arrived, the first thing I did was to look for Rose and when finally I found her, I saw her in the middle of the hallway kissing with no other than…. Edward. I was in complete shock and I started to feel a little dizzy, I felt like throwing up with the scene I was witnessing, like literally, so I ran to the bathroom and did just that. Then I started to cry because I couldn't believe what I had just seen. I was trying to assimilate the idea of Rosalie and Edward together but I couldn't. A long time had to pass before I was able to get out of the bathroom and I try to avoid both Rose and Edward for the rest of the day. Despite that, I couldn't avoid listening to people talking about them: "Did you know that Rose and Edward are dating?" "They make a wonderful couple, don't you think?" and the worst one: "I´m glad Edward didn't stay with Bella, can you imagine with how many guys would she have cheated on?"
As soon as my last class ended, I ran to my truck and while I was looking for the keys, Rosalie approached me:
"Hi Bella, how are you? I didn't see you all day" she said in a cynical way.
"Are you seriously asking me that, Rosalie?. You're incredible"
"Why are you using that tone with me?" she demanded.
"Why?...I can't believe you, I saw you with Edward this morning, I thought you were my friend"
"And I´m"
"Really? And what happened with all the I'm gonna talk to him so he won't insult you, I really want to protect you"
"But I did that; I don't understand why you're angry with me"
"Because you getting involve with him what's not part of the plan" I raise my voice.
"It wasn't something I planned; it just happened; besides he wasn't dating you or something. You only shared one night with him Bella, just ONE" I felt my tears would betray me at any moment.
"But you knew exactly how I feel about him" in that instant I managed to find my keys and quickly got into my truck before she could say anything else.
The following weeks were much more difficult than any other, if I wasn´t already a very social person before, I became a completely anti-social girl. I didn't want to see or speak with anyone, besides with the reputation I had already gained it was better for me to stay alone.
Not only was the school the only problem I had, also my health wasn't at its best either, I had been feeling very bad lately and was vomiting very often. It was until I finally decided to go with the school nurse that I knew what I really had:
"Mmm I have suspicions of what it may be" said the nurse once I told her my symptoms "You told me that your period is irregular, right?"
"Yes"
"Bella, I need to ask you something very personal…." I just nodded and she continued:
"Are you sexually active?"
"In this moment no"
"But have you had sex recently?" I blushed at her question.
"Yes, but it was only one time and it was about a month and a half ago" I began to fear when I realized where she was going with all this.
"And did you used protection?" That was exactly where I thought she was going.
"I….No" in that moment I realized how stupid I´d been, how was I able to have sex without using anything? Ah Yes, now I remember, because I was totally wasted.
"Bella I suspect that you may be pregnant" the second she said that word I felt chills running through my body. If I was pregnant, it meant that I have a baby inside of me, Edward´s and mine. One that I would have to dedicate completely and take care of, but how I'm supposed to do that when I don't have a job? I hadn't even finished high school.
"I…"
"I will make you a test so we can be sure" and that's what I did. I took the pregnancy test and after 5 minutes, the nurse confirmed what she suspected.
"It´s positive Bella"
Positive….positive…I kept thinking all night. The nurse told me about the options I had, but in that aspect I was sure of my decision: I was going to keep it. Despite the circumstances, I already love this baby; it will be a part of Edward that I would always have. I still didn't know whether to tell him or not about the pregnancy because deep down, I was afraid he would thought the baby wasn't his.
I had no idea what I was going to do.
So here I am. Lying on my bed the day of the ball with no intentions of going. I was thinking about watching a movie but then someone knocked on the door and Charlie came in:
"What are you doing in your pajamas? I thought the dance was today"
"I don't feel like going" responded with a tone of indifference.
I thought he was just going to leave the room but then he surprised me by asking:
"Why?" I didn't respond. "Are you afraid of going Bella?" But how did he…
"Yes, something like that" I admitted.
"Bella, you shouldn't make your decisions based on your fears, remember that all people get scare sometimes. What makes the difference is how we face does fears, big things can be lose if we don't do that. Like this party for example" I was very surprise that Charlie was saying this to me. It was rare that he gave me some kind of advice.
"I´ll think about it, ok?"
"Okay, I´ll be in the living room if you need me"
And I really thought about it, at that moment I realized that he was right, all my recent actions and decisions had been based on fear. Which had lead me to nothing good, so when I thought again if I should miss the dance because of Rosalie and Edward, the answer was no.
I felt really nervous when I arrived to the school. Slowly walked to the door and entered to the dance. I felt a little strange because it appear that I was the only one without a partner but I tried to have a good time either way, I even greeted some of my classmates.
The moment I looked at the dance floor, I saw Rosalie and Edward, she was wearing a short black dress and he looked very handsome in his black tuxedo.
Rosalie saw me and then she approached to me saying:
"I thought you weren't going to come" she seemed annoyed to see me there.
"I wasn't going to"
"So what happened?"
"I decided that I wasn't going to let some bugs to ruin my night"
"What do you mean….? You know it doesn't matter, Edward and I are having a really good time together and let me tell you a little secret my friend" I decided not to answer to that. "I think tonight, it´s going to be my lucky night with Edward, I hope you don't mind"
"Of course not" if she could be a hypocrite, I could be one too
"Really Bella? Because you´re not going to be the only girl in the school that knows what it´s like to be with Edward anymore, if you know what I mean"
"Seriously Rose, I don't care" I don't know where I took the courage but added. "I only hope that you can please him as much as I did" I winked and left. It felt so good to do that even though I was dying of jealousy inside.
The rest of the night it was only food and dancing, at first I had no plans on dancing because I´m just a terrible at it. But then I accepted Mike´s invitation and I tried to keep my distance at all times with him, just in case.
When the slow music began, I decided to sit down and just watched the dance floor. I saw Edward standing close to it and he was alone. It was in that moment that I decided to tell him about my pregnancy. I knew that maybe I wouldn't find another suitable time to do it, so I thought it's now or never. As Charlie had told me I have to be brave enough even if I was scared to death. It was necessary to take matters into my own hands.
"Edward" I spoke to him for the first time in months and he looked at me surprised.
"Bella…I…ehh…How are you?"
"I´m fine, trying to enjoy the dance" I gave him a little smile and he nodded. "Edward there´s something that I really need to tell you" he looked puzzled by my comment but said:
"I´m all ears" that made laugh in a nervous way for what I was about to say.
"Do you remember the night we…." I didn't want to finish that sentence.
"How could I forget it?" he answered in a serious tone.
"That night I….what I´m trying to say is….I…I.." I lowered my face in an attempt to take strength to say what I needed but then I felt his hand on my chin and he gently lifted my face so I could see him directly in the eyes.
"You…" he tried to encourage me and at the count of three I finally said:
"I´m pregnant" he became completely stiff as his eyes fluttered open, he seemed to be in shock. I decided to give him some time to assimilate the news and added "I´ll be at my house when you´re ready to talk" and with that, I just simply left the party.
Not even an hour had pass after I got home, when Edward knocked on the door and he said:
"I´m ready to talk"
Should I continue with the translation?