Stiles POV
It was one of those rare rare occasions that Scott wasn't with his Miss Perfect and I had a shot at having some bro time with him.
Or I would if he'd shut up talking about her long enough to say anything.
Look, it might sound like I hate Allison but really I don't; I just hate how much Scott has been blinded by her.
I don't complain much, he deserves this you know being a loner all this time and then a reward (Kind off?) for coping with the werewolf business.
So I sit back keep my eyes on the road and listen to the very very interesting story of how Lydia and Allison had a panic because they had accidentally picked up each others bags and hadn't realised until they got home.
I didn't complain then.
I'm complaining now.
I haven't seen him outside of school for the past 2 weeks and even in school all he does is stay glued to the girls side.
He says 'Hey' to me when he see's me on the corridors and if Allison isn't in our class he'll sit with me, but even then all he does is talk about her. I gave up listening a while ago, instead taking my mind elsewhere to daydream about… You know what let's not go there because awkward boners in class are not on the priority list for today thank you very much. That doesn't mean I'm not going to think about them though, just not in absurd way.
This had been going on for a while now, me liking him. Yeah him. As in a guy. But I wasn't any better off than I was when I fell for Lydia, he's way out of my reach just like she was. Why did I always have to fall for those I could never have?
"Mr Stilinski!" Harris shouted
"Huh?"
"Detention!"
I sighed. Derek Hale you were going to be the death of me.
After detention I walked out to my jeep alone.
At one time Scott would have purposefully got detention to make that hour twice as bad for Harris and we'd do nothing but mess around and annoy him. Best thing about detention was it didn't class as a lesson so you couldn't get another detention. Smiling at the memorise I missed so much I got in my car and began the drive home.
Okay, I had complained before to Isaac and the others about not being around him but enough was enough now. I needed to tell someone about Derek and how I felt about him. He was the one I talked to about everything, he was my brother and now he wasn't there for me share anything with; hell he was barley here at all anymore! All I ever heard from him was 'Allison this' and 'Allison that'.
I only noticed that I was going to Scott's when I could see the house there before me. Getting out while I still had the nerve I though this is ridicules he's been my brother since we were like 3.
Knocking on the door I waited until the door opened revealing the lopsided grin I had missed ever since he'd been brainwashed and abandoned me.
"Hey man what's up?" he said as though he had never stopped talking to me. Following him upstairs after shutting the door I said "Dude listen," I sat on the bed whilst he crouched at the back of his TV working on getting his game console up and running.
When he heard the tone in my voice he looked up a little worried and I couldn't help but thinkwell at least it looks like he still cares.
"I just wanted to hang out you know, I'm surprised you're here actually, I thought you'd be with Allison again." I said trying to have a normal conversation and not crush the puppy that he is with the rant I really wanted to let loose.
Scott smiled and handed me a controller "She's with Lydia today, having a girly day out at the mall." "So what were you gonna do?" I asked out of curiosity. Would he have called me and asked to hang out?
"I was going to get some homework done to be honest but this is a better plan" he pulled out a bag of Oreo's from his bedside draw and offered some to me.
"Still got the secret stash of Oreo's?" I said staring at the TV screen. Scott frowned at me and said "Yeah, why would you ask you always know I have them there?"
"Haven't been here in over a month Scotty-boy I didn't know whether or not Allison had matured you up enough to get you out of all your old habits." I said selecting the mission we were going to do while Scott just stared at me thoughtfully like he was trying to find a response for my low blow.
"You have been here…" Scott frowned again.
"No I haven't you've been too busy with your new life to hang out with me that's all" I tried not to sound spiteful but it didn't work very well.
"Stiles what's wrong dude why do you sound so bitter like I've had no time for you at a-"
"Because you haven't! For weeks Scott you haven't had time for me! I don't want to sound like that over attached friend that doesn't want you to have any more friends other than me because I do want you to have other people there for you. I want you to be head of the lacrosse team, to be popular, to have the love of your life and have friends. Because you're not just my friend or my best friend Scott you are my brother!" I cried as Scott just sat and looked defeated at my outburst.
But I hadn't finished, if I was going to tell him I might as well finish what I started.
"It's got the extent where you haven't even noticed that I'm missing from the table at lunch" horror dawned on his face. "Yeah Scott I've been sat in the library half of last week and sat out in the bleachers all this week with Derek for company and you haven't even noticed. All you ever say when I'm around is:
Allison,
Allison,
Allison,
Allison,
Allison!"
"Dude why do you hate her so much?"
"I don't Scott!"
"The why are you so bothered by it?"
"Have you ever thought," I quietened my voice and stared at him with tears in my eyes "just for one second, did you ever think that I might have been jealous of you?"
"You like ALLISON?!" He screamed
"No! I mean jealous of how happy you are with her and how I can never have that with the person I love"
"Man, I'm sorry to tell you this but I don't think her and Jackson are gonna spl-"
"I don't mean Lydia Scott, I've been over her for months. More than months and to be honest I wish it was as simple as liking Lydia again because this is driving me insane!"
"Wait what?" he said astounded eyes wide "When was you over Lydia? Why did I not know this? Who do you like now?"
"You didn't know because you've been too caught up lately to talk to me about how you're stuck on your math homework never mind about my stupid crushes on people I can never have…"
Scott stood abruptly walked up to me and bro hugged me.
"So, what girl am I setting you up with, huh?" he smiled and sat on the bed beside me.
"You mean what guy is Allison setting me up with because you wouldn't have a clue how to set someone up. Besides it wouldn't work anyway so there's no point. Sorry man but there's no use in tryi-"
"Guy?" to his credit he sounded more confused than shocked and that wasn't a too bad reaction to one of my biggest secrets. Lets see how he fares with the other one.
"Yes, Scott, guy. Is that a problem for you? Just going to stop hanging out wi-"
"Is it Danny?" he said instead of answering the question.
"Hell no. Why would you think that?"
"You were always asking whether he thought you were attractive to guys or not." He had a point. "Well then is it Isaac? You've been hanging out with him lately, right?"
I smiled "I have but no it's not Isaac. Sadly it is someone we both know well though…" I mumbled the last part, my mind wondering to the last few days were I've been sat out on the benches and Derek has come to sit and eat with me even if he doesn't even go to the school anymore. He seems to be the only member of pack that has noticed I'm out of my ways at the moment. Which is ironic really because he's half the reason I'm like this anyway.
Scott's clicking his fingers in my face "Hey dude stop daydreaming I'm talking to you."
"Sorry." I said looking at the floor. Scott may be slow but he isn't dumb, so I'll only have to drop a few more hints before it clicks.
"Is he in the pack then?"
"Yes but I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing."
"Well I already said Isaac, what about Boyd?"
"No, he's with Erica remember?" I couldn't imagine going out with Boyd even if I tried.
"Please don't tell me you like Jackson?" Horror crawled it's way over Scott's face.
"Eww no." I shook that mental image out of my head.
"Well if it's not Isaac, not Boyd, not Jackson… Dude it isn't me is it?" he went deadly quiet.
"No! You're my brother, dude, don't even give me that picture!"I need brain bleach!
"Well then who the hell…" He had a quizzical look on his face.
"Dude you have gone through EVERY GUY EXCEPT HIM!" I fell back on the bed and covered my face with my hands.
"Hey Stiles…" I heard him shift to face me but I kept my face hidden "Is it- Is it Derek?"
I felt my heart flutter and I knew Scott heard it so I thought that was answer enough.
"You like Derek? Why?" If anything he just sounded confused like the poor innocent puppy he was.
"I don't know, I just do I can't help it okay." I dragged my hands down my face and looked at him. He was quiet for a minuet but it was broken soon enough.
"When you first said… That the person you liked was a guy… You said you Loved them." Scott whispered.
"I did?" I asked looking at him intently.
"Yeah and you want to know something?"
"What?"
"You're heart didn't falter"
Notes
Randomness to be honest comment if you think I should continue or if it's a lost cause please and if you would like me to continue please tell me what you would like to happen because I have no plot at the moment and I'm taking prompts for the story.
It will be sterek but ALL OTHER SHIPS ARE OPEN!
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