I DON'T OWN OURAN!
I knew he didn't love me the way I loved him. He was to perfect, he was almost untouchable. How can I call him beautiful when I call myself ugly every day? I curled in closer to Hikaru knowing that one day he would leave me, forever. A tear fell down my face slowly and I couldn't help but feel as though I had a whole in the middle of my chest. Slowly Hikaru's eyes opened and he grabbed my face in between his soft warm hands. Pulling my face up so my gaze was on his "Why are you crying my love?"
I looked at him as if he were crazy. Didn't he know? Couldn't he tell that I loved him as more than a brother? I smiled at him and did what I always do when he asks me what's wrong, I just simply say "Why nothing Hika dearest."
He looked doubtful but agreed with me knowing he could do nothing else. I dragged myself out of 'our' bed and walked into the bathroom. In the shower as the hot water scolded my body I cried my tears falling as if they were the shower water. They felt cold compared to the rest of me. I knew one day I would either have to tell Hikaru or just leave him. I had to do what was best for him, even if it meant hurting myself in the process. Finally I heard a knock at the door "Kaoru it's almost time for us to leave maybe you should get out now."
I yelled back that I was getting out. I stared at myself in the mirror 'oh God I was the most hideous creature in the whole entire world. I was nothing like Hikaru with his silky hair and eyes that could melt a polar ice-cap melt in a matter of milliseconds. I hated my nasty hair and my dead soulless eyes. I hated the way I looked everything about me was hideous. I stared at the bags under my eyes knowing Hikaru had none, and I had been sleeping more than he had.' I wiped my nose and parted my hair the way I always do, walking out of the bathroom Hikaru was sitting on the bed reading, waiting for me to come with him. I looked over at his shoulder to see what he was reading. 'The Pride and the Prejudice. Go figure.' I covered the pages with my hand and smiled down at the most beautiful creature in the world. He stood and grabbed a hold of my hand. A concerned look passed over his face he somberly said "Kaoru your hands are frozen."
The thoughts running through my head were along the lines of 'ya about as cold as my damn heart, but those eyes of yours could melt them.' Instead I just nodded saying "Yes and I can't figure out why."
He just smiled and assuming that everything was fine. Yet I could tell deep down he could tell that something was wrong with me. Instead he squeezed my fingers and we headed downstairs to get to our car.