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Gone
I turned and looked at the clock. It was 8:00pm. I looked to my right and sighed. I couldn't look anymore; I closed my eyes and began to cry. I felt the warm wet tears make there way down my face. I couldn't stop myself; they were coming faster, as I choked back sobs. This was the forth time today. I just can't believe he's gone. I started to cry harder at the thought of him. I came back to reality when there was a knock on the door.
"Hey Pone, can I come in?"
I knew who's voice that belonged to. I was a bit surprised to hear him. But I didn't want anyone in here to see me like this. I just wanted to be left alone.
"No go away!" he came in anyway. Damn, I should have locked the door.
I looked deep into his greyish eyes and I could see concern in them. He made his way to my right side and sat in the vacant spot.
I wanted to punch and kick him off the bed. How dare he sit there? That was Soda's side,only he can be there.
"What do you want Two-bit?" I wiped my eyes. He just stared at me.
"I just want to know if you're alright"
Do I look alright! I wanted to scream at him, I wanted to hit him with all my energy, just to let him feel the pain I felt since he left.
"I'm fine." I said with an angry tone
All Two-bit did was raze his eye brow as he watch me. I couldn't help but look at him. And that's when all hell broke loose. I turned into his chest and cried and sobbed.
Two-bit put his arms around me. I could tell he was a little uncomfortable. He wasn't good at comforting like Soda was, which made me cry even more.
"It'll be okay Ponyboy"
I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "How can you say that? He's gone. He left me all alone... I lost my voice. That thought was painful.
"Soda didn't leave you alone Pony, you still have Darry."
"Darry's not here to much any more." I told him. "He's to busy working. That's how he deals, keeps busy so he can't think about it. The only time I see him is early in the morning. Darry won't even talk to me about it. He goes on thinking nothing's wrong, but I can't do that."
"You've got me and Steve"
I snorted when he said Steve
He chuckled. "Okay, you've got me.
"Yea".... I started "but it's not the same without him" I whispered
"He'll come back"
I closed my eyes. "I can't stop thinking about him. Is he scared out there? If he misses me? Is he okay? Will he come home at all? I started tearing up again. I can't live with myself if something happed to him. He understands me. He supports me. I've already lost Johnny and Dally, I just can't loose my brother too. I don't know what I would do if I lost him. I can't sleep, eat, or focus without him." I buried my face in Two-bit's shirt. "I just want him home."
" You could share a bed with Darry" Two-bit chuckled and I punched him lightly in the stomach.
Two-bit was silent for a moment, then got serious. "Shoot kid, Soda loves you. You know that. He is most likely thinking about you as much as you are of him. Believe it or not but I feel your pain, I miss him too. But we need to have hope. Keep hope that he'll come home safe and sound. But Pony, you've got to stop worrying and take care of yourself. You look like hell. And that worries me"
I rested my head on Two-bit's shoulder and he angled his cheek to rest it on top of my head. We were like that of awhile.
"Two-bit?"
"Yea"
"Can you do me a favour?"
"Um sure"
"Would you mine if you um....maybe...sleep in my bed tonight?"
He was silent of a second before he answered.
"Yea sure Pone." He said as he got up and removed his leather jacket and shoes. We both got under the covers. He put his arm around me. He was no Soda, but I'll admit I felt comfort and safe and...happy.
I got my breathing in a heavy rhythm and was near sleep when I heard Two-bit's voice.
"If you say anything about this to anyone and I'll skin ya "
I couldn't help but laugh. Good ol' Two-bit. Always there when you need him. I couldn't help but think how lucky I am to have Two-bit as a friend. He was more then that he was family. That was my last thought as I finely went to sleep and I had one of the best sleeps I had since Sodapop left.
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