Happy early valentines day... :D

This is a very sad story that ties into "confessions of an Internet addict." I think it's probably the most serious thing I've written that ties into the series. It is a one shot because the flow of it would ruin the main plot. I hope you guys enjoy.

Where do I begin?

Let's start on the fact that I somehow fell for you of all people. You have no idea how bad it hurts. We just started talking and before I knew I was waiting everyday at 4:00 am just to talk to you. I liked talking to Luo, Sonika, Merli, and Lin too. But I only wanted to talk to you. Yukari was the first to hear my confession. I was so scared when I realized I wanted someone who I had never seen, heard, or spoken to before besides a chat room. I was glad when we started talking outside of that, just you and me.

But I wonder if you like talking to me at. Am I a nuisance? Does it annoy you how clingy I get? When I get mad at you for not showing up does that bother you? I try to find out but I can never find the guts to ask.

Yukari knew it. I was scared to admit it. I'm so scared of my heart. I feel like I don't know if I'm crushing on you, if I'm in love with you, if I'm obsessed with you. I am so terrified that you or parents will find out and then we'll never speak again. I don't think you're like that but that's what always happens... I say what I keep hidden in my heart and then... we slowly drift apart. I'll find who your heart really belongs to... then I'll die on the inside while I smile and tell you that I'm happy for you.

The words I'll never say: I like you. I like you so much that I think it might be something more and it hurts to know that I can never actually say my feelings because of my fear of loosing you. I want to tell you that I would do anything to make you happy even stop liking you the way that I do. I am hopeless in my feelings.

I'm scared that I'm falling in love with you. Please tell me that I am not crazy for feeling this. Is there any hope for my heart's wishes to be fulfilled. No. there isn't. I cannot fall in love you. Please make me stop loving you. I want to but I don't... I feel myself falling into a black hole I need to escape from because of you but at the same time, this darkness is so beautiful that I don't want to leave.

Do you wish to drop this e-mail?

yes

Draft successfully terminated.

Mizki pulled away from the computer. Her long black seemed to cover her face.

"Did you send it?" Yukari asked from her bed.

"No... I don't want to lose him. I think... I think..." Mizki began to choke on a sob. She fell to her knees and hot tears fell from her ruby eyes.

Yukari pulled her into a hug and softly said, "Shh... It's okay."

"Is it? Yuka! I am going to break even more... I-I want to forget him."

"I'll be damned before you consider Rei. I don't like that you met Yuuma online but he's a hell of a lot better than him!" She said standing up. She picked up Mizki forcefully and added, "You can do this or so help me god I will go feminist on your ass."

Mizki wiped off a few tears and nodded. "You're right. Rei's a dick! I don't need this! I'll keep on liking Yuuma until the day it fades!"

"At a girl!"

Ending is meh. Poor Mizki though T-T

Anyways happy early V-Day!