Reconstructing Us
Hermione's POV:
It's two weeks after the final battle and I'm not okay. Hold on, let me rephrase that, it's two weeks after the final battle and I'm still on edge. I can't help it and I can't find a trigger. It happens at random times throughout my day. Sometimes it'll be in the kitchen, sometimes it'll be in my bedroom it's been two weeks and I still haven't left the burrow. I'm too afraid of the outside world and the reminders it brings. I haven't been sleeping well since the final battle. In the past two weeks I've slept 28 hours.
Reading isn't bringing the same comforts that it usually does, nothing that I enjoyed before the battle has actually. It's hard to focus on one thing for too long this is mostly due to the fact that my thoughts focus on the worry or the guilt.
Everything is a mindless blur. One hour blurs into the next, hours blur into days. Everything is numb.
I don't know what's happening to me. I should but I don't. I—I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm the smart one who would have ever thought I'd be the one falling apart. I guess we were all wrong.
Ron's POV:
Hermione hasn't said a word in almost two weeks. It scares me. It's not like I'm not trying believe me, I'm giving it my all to try to help her but nothing I do seems to help. I sit with her for hours on end either trying to get her to talk to me or trying to figure her out.
I'm the only one who seems to be alarmed. Everyone tells me she just needs more time but they misunderstand what alarms me. It's not that she's not acting like she was before the battle, its that she's not trying to talk about it. Maybe it's because no one knows Hermione like I do but I know there's something wrong. Hermione isn't someone who keeps things like this to herself. We've been in plenty of battles together and everyone we've talked about it afterwards. Except this one.
I can't help but wonder if it's because of what happened at Malfoy Manor. I don't voice this certain concern out loud. Partially because not everyone knows everything about what happened this last year. The other half is because if this is all because of Malfoy Manor then I'm pretty sure Hermione doesn't want to deal with this publicly.
I'm really concerned. I don't know what to do.
Hermione's POV:
Ron sits with me everyday. Sometimes he even sleeps in my room. He tries to talk to me and I can tell he's very worried about me somewhere in my mind I care that he tries but I can't find my voice to respond.
"Today Harry, Ginny, and I played Quidditch out back. It was just like old times except you weren't there pretending to understand what was happening." He smiles a sad crooked smile.
"I tried to read Hogwarts: A History yesterday. It's actually not half bad maybe I should have listened to you a those times when you told me I should read it,"
I try to listen to him focus on what he's telling me but most of time I can't.
Ron's POV:
I go into Hermione's room as usual only this time I don't plan on staying long. Today is Fred's funeral and I just planned on telling Hermione we'd be leaving for a while. I pushed open her bedroom door to see her sitting up in her bed staring at the opposite wall like always. I sit down in the chair next to her bed.
"Hey 'Mione I can't stay for that long today. We're—we're burying Fred today. I can't believe he's gone. I'm in denial and I just miss him. I miss the way he used to constantly tease me and pull pranks on me. I'd give anything for him to be back here putting spiders in my bed." I tear splashes down my face and I hurriedly wipe it away. I sigh and then get up. "Well I—I have to go now." I turn to make my way towards the door when I feel I small hand reaching but not quite grabbing my hand.
I turn and look at Hermione.
"Wait?" She whispers. I nod in a stunned silence. Hermione gradually gets up and goes into her closet pulling out nice trousers and a blouse. I turn around once I understand she's changing. When she's done she grabs my hand.
"Ready?" I ask. She nods and we make our way down the stair and toward the garden.
A/N…Hello everyone! I've been in a writing slump these last few months I don't really know why I think it's because I couldn't find any inspiration but I don't know. I did work a little on an original work but that's just a little side project. Anyways I'm returning to the world of fan fiction with a Ron and Hermione story. It might turn into a actual story it could just stay a one shot it all depends on the feed back I get. I'm a bit rusty writing harry potter so cut me some slack please. Tell me what you think by leaving a review!
~A_LovesHP