Bella's Revenge
When you were here,
I felt invincible,
On top of the world,
I soon realized,
That was not the case,
And then you left,
Your family not saying goodbye,
What would be so good about it anyway?
Nothing,
Nothing at all,
It would make not difference in the pain I feel now,
And I would still fall for the wolf,
Because it's my revenge,
For the pain you caused me,
For the suffering you started,
For the danger you put me in,
My pain seemed to please you,
You said it would be,
As if you never existed,
What a stupid promise to make!
Because you can't return to when I didn't know you,
Your face is forever imprinted in my mind,
Growling or snarling,
It's still the most perfect thing,
I ever set my eyes on,
But now your face,
Has been replaced by his,
My werewolf's face,
I'm his soul mate,
With him,
It's as easy as breathing,
As looking at the clouds,
Finding the pictures the wind had painted there,
I laugh when I find one,
Shaped like a wolf,
But then I find one,
Shaped like a curved tooth,
Of a big cat,
Or a…vampire, maybe,
And I wonder, what on earth I could've done,
To stop you from leaving,
Was it me?
Did I do something?
What has made me be put through this suffering?
Through this torture?
I grasp at my sides when the pain becomes too much,
And I gasp for air when my lungs disappear,
But my efforts yield me nothing,
My hands feel blue with cold,
And sweat dews on my brow,
But not even this,
This excruciating pain,
Can take my mind off you,
And it won't,
Not if I live eighty thousand years,
Not if I live ten millennia,
Not if I join the Volturi,
Not if I become feared,
Not if you come back someday,
Not if my wolf dies,
And not if I die, too.
But what could come of that?
A sparkly pile of vampire dust,
That's what.
But the thing is,
I've already died,
And my soul is gone,
The best part about me is gone,
And there's no getting it back now,
Because you had your chance,
And you failed.