There will never be a day when I won't think of you...
I sing the words as I did in those long ago days at Gakuen Academy. Sweetly... Softly...
Can it be? Can it be Christine?
I hear the words as I did in those long ago days at Gakuen Academy. Quiet... Unbelieving... I look up, hopeful that my Raoul has come back.
Nothing, no one answers me but the patter of rain on my roof.
I start to laugh, but it turns to a choked sob.
I curl up on the carpet in my room, forgetting my cleaning as memories tear at my mind.
"Ha! You? Gilbert Beilschmidt? Got Raoul? I don't believe it!"
Friendly teasing. Kisses that meant nothing.
Songs with more meaning.
Think of Me, that's All I Ask of You.
Why didn't I see it earlier?
Am I that stupid?
That blind?
I must be...
Tears roll down my cheeks, chilling rapidly as they roll down my face.
The tracks stay on my face, chilling my cheeks.
"Dammit... I was so much of a fool..." I whisper to myself.
Think of me, think of me fondly, when we say goodbye... Remember me, once in a while, please promise me you'll try...
I continue to sing, just to take my mind off things.
When you find, that once again you long, to take your heart back and be free... Please promise me that sometimes, you will think... of me...
I sniffle just a little, curling my knees to my chest and resting my head on them.
A new voice interrupts my thoughts.
"Sora...? Did you want dinner...?" my brother asks softly.
"Huh? Oh... da, Andrei... I'll be out in a minute..." I reply, my voice steady.
It takes so long to put myself back together, but it's so easy to fall apart.
To break.
Into glass.
A million pieces.
Jagged.
Razor sharp.
Cutting friend and foe alike.
I'mthe sensible one, they say.
The one to speak to.
The one who listens.
The one who care.
Ha.
I can barely care for myself.
Am I compensating?
Am I... lying to myself?
To others?
Who can say...?
I sigh and take a breath, trying only to pull myself together.
It works, but only barely.
It's ever so astonishing, how quickly I can appear normal again.
Another dinner.
The music in my mind plays...
Think of me...
That's all I ask of you...