Pt.1

Too be known as something that people hate is something I grew up knowing very well. I was used to the distaste in eyes of those I fall in love with, but with that look in his eyes I just want to die. For once I started hating what I am. An immortal who has watched everyone that he has ever loved die. I never brought up how I felt with Alexander cause I've always been afraid of what he'd say. What will our relationship be like when he's aging like any normal human being and I stay the same as I always will until hopefully I'm somehow killed. I know Alec will forever be in my heart and that's what worries me. As I sit here alone in my loft I start to think what life would be like without the young shadowhunter by my side. How I wouldn't see his expressions change and how I wouldn't be able to hold him in my arms?

I sigh and I hear a slight voice whisper in my ear, "You wish for so much, but ask for none. Lil brother, you deserve to be happy. What do you wish for truly with all your heart?"

I turn around to see that no one is there and i sigh thinking that the voice sounded like my old friend and half sister, Cassandra. She was one of Asmodeus' first children and by far the oldest to survive. Her magic is greater than most people could dream of for a long time she went by the name of Wish Giver, especially to those she deemed worthy of any gift for her to bestow upon. She always said no matter what dead or alive when I'd really need it she'd give me a gift that I'd have a choice to choose from. Truthfully it made no sense, but in hearing her voice I almost wish i knew so much more.

"Mags," I hear someone call me.

I look up too see Alec's worried lil blue eyes and can't help, but too smile gently at him. I look around too realize that I had fallen asleep on the couch which is rather rare for me too do. Especially since it's not fashion week or anything.

I smile gently at him as he takes my hand in his, "Hey, Alexander. What brings you here this fine morning?"

Alec simply gives me a simmering look and sighs, "I knew you'd forget that we made dinner plans. It is our anniversary dinner where we'll have time to ourselves. I'm sure Clary and Izzy will come up with some plan to hold some party for us the day off."

I think for a second and know he's right, but how could I forget the day that… Oh that's right I thought I heard my sister's voice yesterday. Not that I had told many people over the years, but Cassandra was always there for me when I needed her, but when Valentine first tried to steal the cup she disappeared and I've always felt lonely. Maybe I should tell Alec. I mean he deserves to know what I'm thinking. Though this part of my past I've always kept hidden telling someone is a bit difficult.

"Come on Magnus, you promised me a night out after being together for 4 years."

I smile softly knowing he's right and how the boys are probably causing all kinds of hell at the institute since they like it there better than the loft for some odd reason. I miss my lil blueberry and Rafe. I watch my loving fiance laugh with such joy in his eyes as he stares at me with such love. I take his hands in my own as I pull him over to our couch and I smile gently at him, "I need to tell you something I've never told anyone in my whole existence."

Alec looks at me completely worried and I smile gently as he nods his head, "There's nothing that could make me love you any less or anymore than I already do, Mags. What's bothering you?"

I sigh as I look at our hands nervous as I was when I was coming up with how I'd ask Alexander to marry me.

I take a deep breathe and go with it, "I had an older sister by the name of Cassandra. She was beautiful by any means. I'm not sure if the Clave had a nice file on her, but those she helped called her the Wish Giver. I've had my head filled with all these thoughts and small wishes cause I'm just so happy to have a life with you. The other night I thought I had heard her voice and I remembered a promise she made too me before she disappeared."

"What was it, Magnus?"

"Too give me the wish I desire the most, but I'd have to make some kind of choice. Cass, always loved too keep me on my toes."

Alec is staring at me with nothing but love in his eyes then confusion, "I never heard of the Wish Giver… before."

"I wouldn't be too surprised she was my father's first child with a human and she was by far the most hidden. She was an anomaly too many cause they barely knew anything about her, but the moment I met her when i was very young I knew everything I needed too. I could sense the type of bond I had with her, but I hated her for so long cause she didn't raise me. She spent her time only popping in when I needed help. I never said much that she was the one that taught me so much about magic and on how to truly love a person. Maybe I started to think of her cause I started to hate my immortality so much more than I ever could. The moment where I hate who I am more than anything in this entire world."

Alec looks at me shocked and takes my hand and place it on his beating heart and places his free one on mine, "Mags, I'm always here no matter what. Being in your heart I know I'll live there forever. I know we're chasing whatever time we have together from the very moment we met, but I'd never regret wanting to spend my life with you and grow old with you."

I take a deep breathe as I smile at him, "I know love. I know more than you can imagine. It's just as you grow old I will stay the same as I am and surely I will lose you. I don't know what a life without you would be like and the very thought makes me feel nauseous and dead."

I watch tears form in my fiance's eyes and I don't say anything as I brush them away. I lean in and kiss him gently, "Come we have reservations and I'm sure we'd like to eat something rather than whatever we have in the fridge."

Alec laughs as he nods his head, "Of course. We have a lunch reservation at our favorite restaurant don't we."

As we reach the restaurant nicely dressed but still casual I spot a woman with long dark hair and pale skin walk into the restaurant and she's being followed. I shake my head thinking it's nothing to think about this restaurant is pretty famous. Aelc and i are seated at one of the best tables in the place and I spot the woman with long dark hair and pale skin. This time I see her face and I almost gasp in shock. She looks so much like my sister. Her heart shaped face and perfect nose scrunched up as he pale eyes focus on her menu in hand. I feel horrible cause throughout dinner I hardly paid attention too my husband as I watched and tried to spot the woman's wrist too see if she has the scar Cassandra did.

"Magnus," my fiance's stern voice cuts me from my thoughts and I look at him, "what has gotten into you? You've been staring off into space the whole time?"

I sigh as take one last look at the woman too see a small smile graced her lips as she looked at us, "I'm sorry, love. It's just the woman behind you reminds me of Cassandra and everytime I see a woman that'd fit her description I can't help but too try too see if she has any of my sister's scars."

Alec shakes his head as he looks at me, "You silly man you. You had me worried for a moment you know. At least you're not staring at her like you'd cheat on me."

I look at my fiance horrified by the very idea, "No way, my Nephilim. I'd never do such a thing too you."

I watch in the corner of my eye as someone stops at our table causing us both too look up too see the woman that was sitting behind Alec.

She smiles softly enough that it reaches her blue eyes, "I'm sorry to interrupt your dinner, but I'd like to say you to look adorable together. It kind of makes me jealous."

Alec looks at her shocked and I simply smirk at her as I take my fiance's hand in my own, "I know aren't we. Though I'm sure my love will disagree with your use of the word adorable."

The woman giggles softly as she looks at us, "I'm sorry if it offends you. I'm used too a rather open lil brother and I can't help but to use it whenever I see loving couples."

Alec looks at her shocked and annoyed with this talkative woman, "Thank you. Umm… Where is your brother?"

She laughs as she looks at us, "Which one? I have lots of siblings. This brother though you'd love I'm sure. Your fiance kind of reminds me of him actually."

I watch her look over her shoulder at the 2 men that followed her in and she catches my eye as she leans over a bit too whisper, "I'm sure a shadowhunter and High Warlock would not mind help me shake this annoying bunch that's been following me around all day would you."

We look at her and I know Alec in his own way help people as he motions for her to sit with us.

"How did you know who we were?"

"Well I'm like your little man over there, but older. Though I like to spend my time away from humans, nephilim like yourself, and downworlders alike."

"Solitude… isn't that lonely?" I ask her.

She smiles softly at me as she pats my hand, "Trust me when I say this, but I've seen many people I love human, nephilim, and downworlders alike die. They all leave me as I know my lil brother will one day as well. I just wish him the best. Somedays I wish the Wish Giver was still around, but after what Valentine had done she became scared. She was a dear friend of mine. I had heard rumors she was close with you as well Magnus."

I watch the woman and I hate how I can sense her glamour, but I can not see through it. I can not see what her eyes really look like.

"She was a friend of mine she helped me a lot growing up. Sometimes I go through my head and wonder if I'd ask her for any wish what it'd be," I tell the woman and she nods.

"I know the feelings. A lot of magic is hard to complete by yourself the wisher sometimes needs a giver. Now tell me young shadowhunter," she waits for Alec to look at her, "If you had any wish in the world and it could be granted…. What would it be?"

I watch my fiance in wonder as he looks at her, "There's nothing I'd wish for," well that's a shocking answer.

"What do you mean everyone has wishes?"

He nods his head as he looks at me with only love in his eyes, "I guess it's natural as any living being. I simply wish to live a long happy life with the man I love. To build a family with him for he can always be surrounded by loved ones even when I'm gone."

I know he sees the hurt and love in my eyes and maybe even a tear or 2, cause who wouldn't feel hurt and loved by such an answer. Even the woman's eyes go soft and I can almost see through her glamour, but enough is there too distort her real face.

"That's a loving answer and I can sense nothing but the truth from it," she takes both our hands in her own as she says a few words that I for once do not recognize and I can truly sense how old she is, "I wish the 2 of you a happy life. I'm sure I'm drawing unwanted attention and taking time away from your date."

"It's fine. Though what of the 2 followers?" I ask her worried for this… older woman.

"I'd rather not use magic, but I think creating a portal in the bathroom to escape in the only way. I'm sure I'll meet you 2 again. Maybe not crashing your lunch date," she jokes.

"That would be a wonderful idea."

She smiles as she sets her hand on the table to push herself up, "Well lunch will be on me. Now if you'll excuse me." As she passes me I hear a quiet voice say, "I'm sorry little brother."

I look behind me too see the woman disappeared into the bathroom, "That was a bit odd, don't you think?"

I nod my head and try to recall my sister's voice, "It's funny. I could have sworn that woman called me lil brother."

Alec takes my hand in his and nods his head, "I know. Magnus, maybe we should head home. You have things there that you can use to search for her."

I nod my head as take one look back before looking at our hands holding each other on the table. I smile until I notice the 100 dollar bill on the table over a small piece of paper. I pick up the bill too see a polaroid back when cameras were first invented, the paper is finely preserved, and the faces are hard to mistake. Standing with each other is the woman we just saw and myself unlike most photos we are smiling happily, something they said was bad for photos in those days.

Alec takes it from my hand and smiles at it softly, "This is a good photo."

"Of course, I never take bad photos."

I chuckle as I nod my head, "Magnus let's go home. I think we have a few more hours before they send the boys back home."

I smile wickedly at my fiance and I'm going to spend all the time I can with him and never think of a life without him.