Falling Apart/Reconstruct

By: Mishka-chan

Warning: Mentions of Twincest, and Haruhi/Hikaru (which I detest)

Disclaimer: I do not own the twins though I wish I did. I do not own Haruhi; if I did I would dispose of her so that she didn't mess up my yaoi pairings.

A/N: My first posted Ouran fic.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you, Kaoru.

A simple laugh, a gaze filled with love.

A simple touch, pressed against my hip.

I can feel it fall apart. From the outside in. Wilting slowly, dieing slowly.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you, Kaoru.

A simple laugh, a gaze filled with love.

"Is" now turning into "used to be." Why does it seem like you don't touch me anymore? Even though we stand side by side, even though we are sleeping in the same bed, it feels as if you are miles away. I am on an island, you are running away, you are on mainland, and I cannot swim, I cannot touch you. You will not touch me.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you, Kaoru.

A simple laugh.

Your gaze is cold. It freezes the laugh in my throat. If your gaze is filled with love it is no longer for me. I feel dead, in rigor mortis, I cannot move.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you, Kaoru.

I no longer laugh, I am no longer joking. This is no longer funny. It was okay when your eyes were only on me, and your touch exclusive to me; this is no longer fun. She is no longer fun to tease, not when you look at her so, not when you smile for her too.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you.

My name no longer belongs there. Why do you not same my name? Why can you not look at me when you answer? Why, why, why?

Hikaru, I love you.

I love you.I love you. I love you. How many ways can I say it, why will you no longer answer? Why is it when I call you never answer?

Kaoru, I loved you.

Suddenly rebuilding, it isn't the same, why is it changing? Don't go away! Don't leave me! Don't, please, I beg of you!

Hikaru, I love you.

I say again and again, no soft reply.

Hikaru, I love you.

I love her, Kaoru.

Why has it changed? Why have you changed? I don't want our scene to end. I want our scene to last, you can touch me however you wish, you can hit me, beat me, abuse me, kill me. Just don't leave me. I approach the room softly, I open the door, and I shouldn't have made that promise, for what I find kills me.

Hikaru, I love you.

No hesitation.

I love you, Haruhi.

You can't leave me now.

A simple laugh

Don't smile, not for her.

A gaze filled with love.

Why is it the same? Why have only a voice and a name changed?

A simple touch pressed again her hip.

I feel myself fall while you rebuild. Except this time there is no one there to pick me back up.

I love you, I love you, I love you, Iloveyou, Iloveyou, Iloveyou.

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A/N: revel in the angst fest. Review please.