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CHAPTER ONE

It's been three years since I've been gone from Forks. I only talked to my father mainly for the fact that if I talked to any of my friends I would break down and end up in therapy again. After the Cullens left, Charlie and I decided that I should go to Florida with mom and Phil and get help for the way I was feeling and acting. I am happy I get to go back and see Jacob. He's like a brother to me and I miss him greatly.

As I look around the plane at other passengers I can't help but feel a little dread for heading back. Hopefully my friends will accept me back if I explain why I had to leave and why I stayed so long. Sighing I closed my eyes and decided to take a quick nap before I got to Washington.

It felt like someone was tapping my shoulder and it was getting annoying so I hit whatever it was. "Miss, you need to wake up. The plane has landed." I opened my eyes and saw an old lady smiling at me. "Come on hun. Let's get you off the plane." I nodded and grabbed my carry on and walked with the lady off the plane. When we got off I smiled at her and said, "Thank you for waking me up." She nodded and walked away. That was strange. I yawned as I walked over to go grab my bags. I stood in line and waited for my huge duffel bag to come around.

When it came around I pushed through two over sized males and grabbed my duffel bag that had to weigh fifty pounds if not more and slung it on my shoulder. "Do you need help with that?" One of the guys asked me. I shook my head. "No thanks I got it." I then walked away in search of my father. I walked outside and dropped my bag and leaned up against one of the brick poles. I yawned again and looked around. Glancing down at my watch I figured I would call him and see where he was.

"Hello?" he asked gruffly. "Well hello to you to father." I laughed. "Hey Bells what's going on?" He definitely forgot where he was supposed to be right now. "I'm great. I'm just in Port Angeles at the airport waiting for my father to pick me up." I heard bustling on the other end. "I am so sorry Bells. I completely forgot. Wait Jake is at the airport picking up Quil and Embry so I'll see if he can give you a ride to." He hung up on me before I could even say anything. I put my phone back into my pocket and bent down to my carry on and took my pills and a bottle of water out. I opened the top and took one guzzling it down with water. I threw both items back into my bag and sighed.

"BELLA!" I opened my eyes and saw a muscular, russet colored, 6'1" man running towards me. When he was getting close enough he slowed to a walk and stopped directly in front of me. "How are you Jake?" He pulled me into a hug and I sighed. "I'm glad to be home." "I'm glad your home to." He kissed my forehead and pulled away from me. He grabbed my bag and walked me to where he was parked. When we got closer I noticed the two boys who wanted to help me. "Bella you remember Quil and Embry right?" I cocked my head to the side. "Who the hell is making my men grow? I was only gone three years…right?" They laughed and they both hugged me. "I'm sorry we didn't recognize you Bella." "I didn't recognize you either." We laughed again and piled into Jakes truck.

We were on our way home just talking and laughing about random shit I missed when I forgot to tell Jake something. "Jake? There is two things I haven't told you yet that you should know about me yet." He turned the radio down and said, "Yea and what could that be?" "Well first when I got down to Florida I went to therapy and all that stuff that goes with it. I was told I suffer from depression and now I take pills to make me normal and to make sure I don't have my up and downs." "Wow Bella I'm sorry you had to go through that, but at least your better now right?" I nodded. "My second thing to tell you is that about a year ago I started riding motorcycles and mine should be arriving soon, so you want to ride with me sometime?"

He laughed "You're telling me that clumsy Bella rides motorcycles?" I nodded and said, "I'm also damn good at it Mr. Black." Quil and Embry bust up laughing but quieted down after Jake gave them a look of authority. We arrived in Forks and I was getting excited about being able to be home when Jake drove right past our house. "Jake, where are you taking me? You just passed my house." He glanced at me and said, "Charlie didn't tell you?" "Tell me what?" I am very confused. I talked to dad all the time and he didn't say anything about moving or anything.

We arrived in front of Sue and Harry Clearwater's house. What the hell am I missing? I got out along with the boys and saw my father walk out. Jake put my bags on the ground next to me and said, "Be back later. Going to bring those two home." He then hugged me again and got back into his truck and took off."

I turned towards my father and said, "What is going on here? Why aren't you living in Forks anymore?" "After you left Bella, Harry had a heart attack and hours later passed away. Well over the past two years Sue and I have been dating and we got married. We live here now." My mouth dropped open and I said, "How could you not tell me, I'm your daughter. I loved Harry like a father figure and you didn't bother telling me." I turned around and began walking away. "Bells." I stopped walking and turned around. "Did you not even think of me once when you and Sue got married dad?" He walked towards me and said, "Bella you had your own issues going on and you had to fix them before you became the selfless person you are. I know you would have liked to have said goodbye to Harry and been to Sue's and mine wedding. But you had to be fixed first. You will always be my number one girl and I'm sorry for not telling you anything."

I sank to my knees and cried. "I'm sorry dad. I am so selfish." He bent down and wrapped his arms around me. "You are the opposite of selfish. You are the most selfless person known to anyone." I hugged him and said, "Thanks dad." He stood and helped me up. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and walked inside after grabbing my duffel bag and carry on.

He showed me my room and I unpacked for awhile and when I emptied my carry on I realized I should tell him about my pills and what they are for. I took care of everything else and threw both bags under my bed. I grabbed my pills and headed downstairs to see a lot of muscular hot guys sitting around talking about god knows what with my father. "Dad." He looked at me. "Can I talk to you alone for a minute?" He nodded and got up and followed me into the hallway.

"These are the pills I'm taking dad. These are my life line for now. If you see me acting really weird force one of these down my throat. If I don't talk to you about my problems I will close down and most likely attempt suicide again. I need you to help me with this. I can't do it by myself." He wrapped his arms around me and said, "I will always be here for you Bella. No matter what till the day I die." "Dad, don't talk like that. Not now, not ever." We were just enjoying our father/daughter moment when my phone vibrated.

I let him go and looked at the caller ID. Michael. Shit. "Dad, I have to take this somewhere else. It's personal no offense." He nodded and walked back into the living room while I kept walking and went outside. "Hello Michael what do you want?" "That is no way to talk to your boyfriend." I rolled my eyes. "You only wish you were still my boyfriend. But I will never go back to you after what happened." He laughed "My dear Bella you were the one who cut herself up."

I noticed some of the boys came out and were tossing the football around. I moved away from the house and was standing right next to the road. "Michael you and I both know that if you had not cheated on me, hit me and broke up with me I wouldn't have tried, this is all your fault do not try and blame me for your doing." He laughed and said, "Better be careful love, your temper is flaring." "Do not ever call me love you fucking asshole. Or next time you just won't survive my temper." He laughed and I hung the phone up on him.

I slammed my phone shut and put it in my pocket. I was beyond pissed so I hit the closest thing to me which just happened to be a tree. Yea that hurt like a lot. I grabbed my now broken and bleeding hand and ran inside the house. "DAD! I broke my hand." He came running over to me and dragged me into the kitchen. He grabbed a towel and wrapped my hand in it. "Why Bella?" "It was an ex-boyfriend of mine who had to be an asshole. Plus dad my hand will heal soon." "No we are going to that hospital whether you like it or not." I just nodded and let him drag me outside.

We arrived at Forks hospital and I was just waiting to be waited on. Not so many good memories in this place. Dr. Connelly finally came out and put a brace on my wrist and hand so I won't make the damage worse. After getting it wrapped up and him telling me to be more careful of those trees he let me go. As we were leaving I felt someone staring at me. I glanced over and saw Alice Cullen standing there. She gave a tiny wave and I smiled and waved back till I saw who she was standing next to. Edward Cullen. I immediately ran out following my father who was already in the car. "Dad step on it." He glanced at me and at normal pace put it in gear and started driving. "Go faster dad." "Bells why are you spazzing out?" I glanced at him and in my mirrors and saw them somewhat following us in the woods. "I need my pills and if I don't get one soon I'm going to have a panic attack." He pushed on the gas and sped right into LaPush and I felt a little better but I really needed to take a pill. He pulled in front of the house and we both jumped out and ran towards the house. "Where are your pills?" "I don't know dad."

Jake walked into the room and said, "What's wrong?" "She needs her pills now, where are they?" He pulled them out of his pocket and handed them over. "They were on the ground outside." I quickly opened the top shoved two in my mouth and swallowed. They both led me to the couch in the living room, after Jake made the boys get up. "What's wrong with her?" Charlie shook his head. Sam walked over and sat right in front of me. He stared at me for awhile and I felt this pull to want to touch his face and give his lips a kiss. "I know this look." He then told them that was the same look I had when he found me in the woods after Edward left me.

I felt sleepy and before I knew what happened I had passed out.

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