Part One
A shattered ending
I'm running down a well worn path to the place we first met. The distance I have covered surprises me. I can't believe that I have come so far from where we were to the shock has finally worn off…
My heart finally shattered.
The day started out the same way it always did, week after week, month after month, year after year. I thought that after all this time things wouldn't come to this. Thought that you knew what we had was real. That I loved you, no matter what happened. Even after all the fights, all the arguments, all the battles we waged, won and lost. All the blood, sweat, and tears our entire group have given up willingly over the years, have seem for not.
As I duck and dodge all the low hanging branches, I continue to stumble over the roots of the trees in a forest named after you leaving the worn path to make my own. I don't feel the branches I can't see through my tears striking my face and arms, drawing my blood to trip onto the broken trail.
I feel my ankle scream in pain as I get my foot stuck in a gnarled root sticking out from the ground, stopping me from my race from my internal demons. I looked out of my still tearing eyes and the god tree comes into focus. Just looking at that tree makes me want to break down and cry more. It makes me think of all the sacrifices I have made, all the problems I brought just by falling into the well, all the death that was caused by me. I wonder about the choices I have made.
My tears have finally stopped as I realize that i can leave this place of death and destruction and go back to my time and forget this place, the pain the stupid jewel shards, and get on with my life. I can even go as far as leaving the country. The only thing I have to do is seal the well, to stop you from trying to follow me. I am not as heartbroken as I thought I would be, or am I as broken about the decision I have made. As I pass the tree that brought me to you to break the spell, I am emboldened by the rush I feel as I symbolically close this chapter on my life. I stop when I see the deep gouges in the clearing not so far from the tree.
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing? "
My best friend, my sister, Sango, do you think you could forgive me for leaving you with no warning and no goodbye? Can you be happy with the way things have ended up? Will you blame him for my leaving? Will Shippo?
My son, Shippo, can you ever forgive me? I choose not to leave you by choice but then again it is a choice?
Miroku, my brother; my other best friend, the steady calm voice that tried to be the voice of reason. Do you think that you can work that magic once again? Will you understand my decision?
I turn to walk back to the tree, and sit once again in the same spot i sat ages ago.
What will you think if I left you with no way of bringing me back by force? Or if you somehow broke through the barrier, what will you do if you find that I am gone from the country? Will you still hunt me down? Give up and return to her? Maybe it's better I go without any note to you all.
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
If I left my family and didn't tell them where I was, would it matter if he came to visit and they blamed him?
Mama...
Souta...
Grandpa...
Please, please forgive me,
But I won t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me? "
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
What if I didn't even leave and just left a fake trail that ended in my death, well my assumed death, I know now that you don't care. I stare at my shirt that is torn to shreds and covered in blood...
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I know that I should have never lost my heart long ago, but I couldn't resist you and your rude behavior, your protectiveness...then I think of all the times you have called me worthless, useless, and am only worthwhile as long as I'm your shard detector...
I am so focused on my thoughts, and resolute in myself worth, completely desensitize to everything, that hearing a foot crush a dead branch, doesn't even make me jump, all I can do is look in the direction of the snap, and I see a flash of red and the glint of amber eyes in the shadow of the trees. I feel slow and realized that it wouldn't be him I know that he is still busy with...
Her...
I zone back out trusting my miko powers to warn me of dangers...and forget about the imaginary eyes as I stand and make my way to the Bone Eater's Well. As I sit upon the lip of the well, gathering the last of my strength for my final leap through time, I am coming up with ways to seal the well, short of blowing it up.
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
I know that the one person I want to miss me never will….
Goodbye, Inuyasha….
A/N:
I do not own Inuyasha, nor the songs Missing by Evanescence, Numb or Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park (used in future chapters).
I do however own the plot and the storyline.
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-Serpentine