I remember when I first saw him
I doubt he ever really knew my name
Because to me, my name was Deidara.
But to him, I was
Brat.
I remember when he had first hurt me
Did I ever really do something wrong?
But afterwards, he'd apologized
And that was only the first time
With many more to come
I remember the first morning I woke to
To find Danna's cranky face
The biggest mistake I made was to greet him
And in return, I got another slap
But no apology this time
But one day, he had admitted he loved me
I was confused
I didn't know what to say
But he was my Danna.
And I loved him
Right?
After I admitted that I loved him as well
I think
The world plunged into darkness
I'm not sure what happened
But I was sure I was safe
Because Danna loved me
Right?
The next morning, I woke up
Naked in bed
Danna's back turned away from me
I couldn't believe what he did
But he loved me
Right?
The days that followed
I was stared at
Laughed at
But it didn't matter
Because I had my Danna
Right?
He demanded more out of me
But I refused
I was tired, I had told him
But darkness soon clutched me in its grasp
Danna had poisoned me again
But he did it out of love
Right?
I had lost count of how many bruises I had
How many cuts
How many tears shed
By now, my name wasn't Deidara
It was brat
Sasori's whore
But he love me
And I loved him
Right?
I'm confused
Is this really love?
Danna never smiles at me
And I don't have this warm feeling inside
But I'm positive I love him
Right?
A few members are getting worried
I don't feel like eating that much
My smile is gone
My eyes are dull
This is love
Right?
One mission, I returned
Danna did not
I cried, the only man who cared for me was gone
The only man who loved me
Who would ever love me
Right?
Now I realize
Sasori never loved me
It was a lie
I was stupid to truly think that someone who cared for me would
Slap me
Slice me
Yell at me
Insult me
Or abuse me
He had never actually loved me
Right?
Now I'm afraid
Of what love truly is
Because what if that's what it always is
And kissing is just a cover up
So I guess I can never love again
Right?
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Alright people, I hope you read before you yell at me. If you really think that Sasori abusing Deidara is love, you're wrong. It's dating abuse. I'm tired of seeing all these fics with Sasori 'loving' Deidara even though he beats the living daylights out of him. That isn't love. Think about it, would Deidara really love a guy who he's afraid will kill him? I doubt it.
So if you like SasoDei, don't like Sasori abusing Deidara, and read this without a complaint, thank you.
And for those getting out the torches, I better run.