Remember
How he told you you were stupid
How he couldn't even look at you anymore
A boy with greasy medium-length black hair hung upside-down, angrily flailing about the air. A boy with black hair and glasses had his wand pointed at the first boy. He was doing this to him. The second boy's friend who had longer black hair laughed and snickered. Their brown-haired friend sat on the ground reading, pretending not to notice the havoc these two were causing. The final boy, blonde and round, stood behind the troublesome two laughing quietly. A fiery red-haired girl stormed over and demanded they release her friend, Severus.
But her upside-down friend Severus shouted, in a moment of weakness and loss of common sense, "I don't need help from a stupid mudblood!"
Lily felt as if she had been stabbed in the heart. Which was partly true; she'd been stabbed in the back. It pierced through. Tears streaked her cheeks as she yelled, her voice cracking, "Fine! Next time, I won't help you!" As she ran off, his gaze left her disappearing figure. It hurt too much to watch.
Remember
How he told you you were crazy
How he got out of the car and slammed the door shut
He said you can't do anything right
Why you gotta make me so mad
Just get out of my sight
Remember that
The next summer, back at home, Severus ambushed Lily as she was getting into her car. He rained down on her with a barrage apologizes, apologizes she had already heard a thousand times since that day. Lily ignored every word he spoke.
"You aren't listening to me!" Severus pleaded, "You don't listen! Why do you have to make me so mad sometimes?!"
"So I can't do anything right?!" Lily insinuated, "Is that what you think? And I'm sorry I anger you, but I'm who I am, deal with it!"
"You must be crazy to think I could ever sa-.." Severus began, but Lily cut him off.
"I'm not crazy!" She said, "You're crazy! You're the one who tackled me into my own car!"
He clawed at his skull, frustrated, lost for words. The only words that could come out were, in a sigh, "Just… get… out of my sight." No words could be said. He got up and left the car, slamming the door behind him.
When it's 3am and he's at your door
And he wants you back and he's begging for forgiveness
Remember that
When your phone keeps ringing all night long and that same old weakness gets so strong and your helpless
Remember that
Her doorbell rang out in the middle of the night every night. The first night she answered, she found a pleaded Severus. "I'm sorry!" he said once more, as if this apology would fix everything, though impossible as it was. "Please, Lily, forgive me!" She shook her head sadly, saying in a whisper, "I can't." Lily didn't answer it again.
Her phone went a little while after. "SEV," the caller-ID showed. She picked up, sighed, "Sev, go to sleep." Her voice cracked as she added, through tears, "And l-leave me alone!" Then she hung up. The phone fell out of her hand, the hand of a broken girl. He called every night, right after the doorbell rang. It hurt so badly to not pick up and say, "It's all right, Sev, we're okay," but she didn't.
Remember
How he pushed you in the hallway
Just enough to hurt a little bit
Back at school that fall, Severus approached Lily between classes. He tried to talk to her, but before a word was even spoken, unlucky Severus tripped, pushing her into the wall. It didn't hurt badly, mostly just bruising her ego.
"Grow up, Sev!" She snapped at him before storming away. Every time he tried to talk to her, he seemed to trip (or be shoved by a so-called "friend) into her.
Remember
The Whiskey in his whispers
And the lies that fell so easy from his lips
One night, he stayed out of corridor late in the Great Hall. He'd somehow managed to smuggle a bottle of fire whiskey in his bag, and he proceeded to drink the enter thing. Lily, a prefect, was patrolling when she found him.
"Severus, get to bed, now!" she commanded as she approached him, "Don't make me say it twice!"
"Heyy, Lilz!" he slurred, "How'z it goin'?" The smell of alcohol was strongly present in his breath, as Lily found out the hard way. Severus grabbed her wrist, trying to pull her towards him. It hurt her arm to be twisted that way, and she grimaced in pain.
"You're drunk!" Lily stated, pulling her arm away.
"Y'know," Severus garbled, "Y'never liked me, didja? That'z a yes. Y'hate me! Y've always hated me!" Tears dotted Lily's face. All of these were lies, just like the lies he'd told her earlier that day.
"I-I really care about you, Lily!" he had said, "You don't see it, but I do! Please forgive me!"
Lily had ignored such comments. She didn't know they were true. She just assumed they were clever lies, designed to get him in her good favor once more.
He said he'll never do it again
You can't take it back
The proof is on your skin
Remember that
The next morning, Lily informed Severus of what he had done while not sober. Severus, horrified and shocked at himself, proclaimed it wouldn't happen ever again.
"Of course it won't," she replied, keeping calm this time. She'd gotten sick and tired of crying. "I don't associate with you, so of course you won't."
"But, I didn't mean to-..!" he tried to explain.
Lily shook her arm in his face. There were red grip marks around her wrist. Tears began to blur her version. Her earlier attempt of calmness had failed. "You can't deny it! Take responsibility! You can't take it back! Here's proof!" She spun around on her heels and ran off, directly before bursting into tears.
When it's 3am and he's at your door
And he wants you back and he's begging for forgiveness
Remember that
When your phone keeps ringing all night long and that same old weakness gets so strong and your helpless
Remember that
Severus had taken to his habit from home. Each night he pounded on the door to Gryffindor Common Room, just hoping Lily would answer. One night, James Potter, the boy who had caused all this, answered, and jinxed him on the spot. He pulled out his phone each night, too, and tried to call her, even though no electronics worked at Hogwarts. He's try so hard anyway, just hoping for a miracle. None ever came.
It don't matter how he hurts you
With his hands or his words
You don't deserve it
It ain't worth it
Take your heart and run
Just run
"Lily, listen to me!" Severus commanded one day. He had caught Lily exiting the prefects bathroom. She was dressed in nightwear, and her hair was wet. He grabbed her shoulders and shook her a little unconsciously.
"You're hurting me!" She cried, then pulled herself free of his grip. And she ran. She ran down the stairs, out the door, and through the forest. Nothing in the forest dared near her. Not even a werewolf could match the strength of a broken bare-foot girl with dripping hair.
When it's 3am and he's at your door
And he wants you back and he's begging for forgiveness
Remember that
When your phone keeps ringing all night long and that same old weakness gets so strong and your helpless
Remember that
Remember that
Oh, remember that
Remember
You're gonna be all right
Take it from me
I've stood there in your shoes
"You'll be fine," I encouraged my friend Lily, "Just forget him. I mean, it's been a whole year. If he was going to somehow do something impressive and redeem himself, he'd have done it by now."
"Yeah, you're right, Alice," She replied, faking a smile. "I'm glad it's over. He hurt me so many times, I'm just done. Physically, mentally, verbally. I'm over it."
"It's good to get out, huh?" I said, then added in a whisper, "Believe me, I've been there." I pulled back my sleeve up to my shoulder on the side of me which Lily was not sitting on. Gazing at the scar, still red, that I bared upon that shoulder, I reminded myself of what I'd gone through, what Lily was still going through. I'd remember that.