This story is based off an Rp that i am doing with HolliKat and I would like to thank my best friend xanimegirl103x for prof-reading and editing this for me :D I love you guys!

Warnings: Yaoi, Character death, Language, Alois.

Disclaimer: I don not own nor do I claim to own it... but I do own Keir he's mine!

Finding You

-Prologue-

In My Arms (Dead by April)

-Then (1889)-

Sebastian lay next to Ciel, as per his master's request, and was looking deeply into the boy's mismatched blue and purple eyes. Earlier, Ciel had called him out about him spacing out while working. Not being able to lie to his master he told him exactly why. That it is was Ciel himself that was distracting him.

Ciel starred back at those wine red eyes. Did Sebastian truly just say that? He blushed faintly, getting slightly lost in the intensity of the look Sebastian was giving him. The boy watched Sebastian move closer to him. He didn't resist nor did he pull away when Sebastian's lips touched his softly, instead he pressed his back to the demons. Sebastian smiled and kissed the boy deeper. "I love you." he whispered softly against Ciel's lips. The butler didn't expect the boy to return the words and wasn't surprised when Ciel stayed quiet. Sebastian didn't allow himself to feel hurt by the silence and just kissed the boy again pressing his body against the boy's smaller one. He knew Ciel just couldn't say those to him yet but he knew Ciel loved him just as much as he loved him so he didn't need to hear the words from him.

Sebastian showed him how much he loved him. He was slow and gentle with him. His hands ran over Ciel's smooth, flawless skin lightly, lovingly making Ciel shiver and moaned faintly wanting, longing for more of the touch, more of Sebastian. He ordered Sebastian for more and like always Sebastian fallowed the order making him a withering mess of loud moans and half screams until both of them came calling each others name panting.

-2 Days Later-

"S-Seb…ast…ian…"

He had barely heard the breathless voice but what he did hear was the very clear pain evident in the voice. Sebastian ran as quickly as he could towards his master. But he was far too late. Ciel had whispered his name with his last breath. Now he lay dead in the cold unforgiving streets of London.

Sebastian held Ciel's body to his feeling guilty for not being able to save his love. He only had one sliver of hope he had of getting Ciel back. The contract. It was still intact meaning Ciel's soul was still out there. He just had to search for it, for him.

"I'll find you. I will search for you my love. Scour this earth for you until my dying day." he whispered placing a light kiss on Ciel's head. "I swear it."

-Chapter One-

Somewhere (Within Temptation)

-Now (2012)-

Ciel always had the same dream. The same dream every night for as long as he could remember. It was always about the same man wearing the same black tail coat and that same sinful smirk. He had this raven black hair that looked soft, smooth. He half wished he could run his hands through it to see if it really was soft. And his eyes. They were an odd red color, like wine or scarlet. He always said the same three words before he would wake up.

"Stuck in a contract to a boy who is long dead… You can't even feel him yet you continue to search for him."

Sebastian sighed lifting his head from the table when his younger brother spoke. "Why do you insist on reminding me that he is gone, Keir? Why? You know it upsets me." he said his voice sounding tired. Keir sat down a plate of food in front of the older demon. "I know. But you look for him at all hours of the day, not resting or eating much and it has made you sick. You will know when he has come back." he said as he sat down with his own plate.

"That's the thing! I can feel that he is back.. That he is near. I can't rest until I find him." Sebastian said looking at the younger demon his red eyes pleading for him to understand him. Keir sighed looking away from him and to the clock for a moment to check the time before looking back to Sebastian. "I understand… I do. Just… please eat before you go out. You haven't eaten anything in a while and you look paler than normal." he said to him and smiled faintly when Sebastian nodded agreeing to the terms and began eating the soul bounded food**. "And can you please come home early… Midnight at least. We both need to get some rest for school." Keir continued talking before eating as well.

Sebastian sighed softly before pushing the chair back away from the table and getting up leaving half of his food still on the plate. "No promises… But I'll do what I can." He said before going to the door grabbing his black suit coat. He frowned looking at before slipping it on and walking out the door. Times had changed and so did what was accepted attire. Meaning gone was his beloved tail coat; the one that Ciel personally gifted him when he began to serve the boy, still hung proud as ever in his closet, and in was the black suit he now wore. He sighed and looked around not exactly sure where he was going. Hell he never knew where he was going he just fallowed the burn he felt on his left hand and tug on his heart. So he walked, always searching, never stopping.

The contract flared up in heat and he looked around trying to figure out why feeling something pull him towards a store that was near by. He wasn't paying attention and ran into someone. He looked down hear a voice he thought he might never hear again saying "Excuse me."

Ciel sighed thinking of his dream from last night. It bothered him greatly that he couldn't place the familiar man from anything. He sighed again shaking his head and tied his eye patch on before pushing his chair away from his desk. The fist day of a new school year was tomorrow and he had to get some things before going. He grabbed the supply list and his wallet before walking downstairs to the kitchen seeing his uncle and guardian drinking his usual green tea. "Hey, Uncle Tanaka. I'm going out to the store to get stuff for school. I have my phone if you need me." he said only receiving a 'ho, ho, ho.' in return.

He walked down the street from his apartment that his lived in and towards the store. He checked his pockets again making sure he had the list and his wallet as his mind wondered back to his dream.

'Yes, my Lord.' played over and over in his mind, said by the same butler dressed in black with those red wine eyes. The dream and the strange but familiar man in them was all he could think about… and sweets. He had a terrible sweet tooth. Ciel walked with his head down not wanting to see people stare at for his eye patch. He knew the rout to the store well enough he didn't need to look up.

He kept walking going inside of the store, his head still down causing him to accidentally run into a man wearing an all black suit. He kept his head down as he mumbled a soft "Excuse me." to the man.

-** In this demons can not get a soul while still in a contract. So there is demon food which is just human food that has a soul bound to it. Which is why Keir is there. To get and bind a soul to the food for Sebastian to eat so he doesn't get sick. If you have questions about this or anything else just leave a review or message me :D

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