Bent or Broken
Bent or Broken is the family tree Bent or broken
It's the family tree each branch is a part of a part of me
This is my tree And It's a bitter old tree
Bianca's P.O.V Dear Diary, Most people don't know I snort cocaine but some do and they judge me about it but they don't know the story behind it at all. My life was fucked up my mom was drug addict smoking weed all the time, and my dad he is an alcoholic. But the only person I live with is my dad because my mom had died from overdose and he somehow is still alive. To top it all off he abuses me only when he's home though which is like three times a week. So to get out my horrible life I smoke coke it makes me happy but before they did the drugs and drank the alcohol my life was so awesome I wish it could go back to that time. Love, Bianca
Shutting the diary closed and slipping it under my pillow I hear door slammed followed by a few girly giggles. I let out a groan knowing that my dad brought home another trashy girl from the bar down the street he goes to. Footsteps were heard coming up the stairs and into the room next to me I peeked out and noticed my dad's door was wide open and moans were filling the room and hallway.
"Yuck," I mumbled a little too loudly.
Before I could toss my hand over my mouth and run into my bedroom the guy that once was my father came marching at me with just a pair of boxers and a frustrated face.
"Bianca! What the fuck?! I'm trying to fuck that women in there could you not disturb us!" as he yelled his spit landed on my face.
"Y-yes sir" I nodded quickly and then quickly said bastard under my breath.
Before I knew it I was shoved against the wall with a forceful shove and then smacked across the face.
"What did you call me!? HUH?!" he yelled at my face his face turning as red as a tomato and his veins popping out so much they could burst.
"I called you a bastard." I don't understand why I had repeated it wasn't the smartest idea but I figured hell why not maybe the beating would so bad it would kill me and take me out of my misery.
Suddenly I was being shoved into his room and thrown on his bed while the lady started laughing as he ripped off my shirt, and lacey bra then yanked my jeans and thong off. He began planting kisses all over me and forcefully kissing my lips, and holding me in a bruising grip. All I did was lay there as he sucked and touched me every leaving bruises. Then I felt him enter me and the pain shot threw as he thrust in and out roughly that's when I realized I had just been raped and stolen from my virginity.
Next Day _
Bianca's P.O.V still
The sound of an alarm going off woke me up, as I let out a groan I noticed I was in my so called fathers room that's when everything came rushing back. The yelling, the hitting, the girl laughing, and the worst of all that had happen had been losing my virginity to the person I hated the most. Tears sprang to my eyes as I tempted to stand up and pain shot through me, ignoring the pain I walked to my room butt naked. Looking in the mirror there were bruises all over me my arms, stomach, chest, my legs, and few on my face and back. Sighing I threw on a red tank-top with a black half shirt that said love on it then my leather jacket to hide the rest of my bruises with a pair of black skinny jeans. I slipped on a pair of red converse and then went to do my make-up. I covered all the bruises on my face, and then put a thick layer of black eyeliner, small amount of black mascara, and some red lipstick was planted on my plump lips. I placed my phone in my pocket and lay on my bed and opened up my diary and began to write.
Dear Diary, Honestly I think that's the worst my dad had ever done to me I didn't expect my first time to be with him I wanted it to be with someone I DIDN'T hate but I guess god wanted to punish me for being the child of an alcoholic. Everyone hates me anyways so hell but last night I was hoping I would end up dead last night but of course god wanted me to live just to torture me. Sometimes I think hey why don't I just kill myself? But I side against because there's a certain boy at my school that I have a major crush on but he never notices me. Anyways I have to go to school so bye diary. Love, Bianca
I placed my diary where I always hide it and got up grabbing my binder and ran down the stairs two steps at a time. I walk the 3 minute walk to the bus stop and sit there as other kids pile in from the fancier houses that are around this neighborhood. The only reason we haven't got evicted is because I work to keep that house we live in because my dad claims he's too old to work. When I turned my head I had a soft smile on my face when I saw the boy I had always crushed on the popular Drew Torres and his brother Adam Torres (Adam is not transgender in this) walking over to the bus stop. I watched him walk past me as if I was a ghost but Adam had turned and waved at me. I gave him a small smile and next thing you know he plops down next to me.
"Hey your Bianca right?" He says looking at me.
" Yeah your Adam and how did you know? We've never talked before." My face changed into confusion.
"We were assigned together as partners two days ago in Mrs. Dawes class and we worked on a paper together remember?" Adam looked at me confused of why I didn't remember.
"Shit sorry just a lot been going on so um yeah." I laugh embarrassed as he chuckled.
When the bus pulled up everyone pushed past me forcing me to get on last when I got on there was no more seats besides in the back right in front of the most popular girl in school, Jenna Middleton. Groaning I took the seat in front of her and pulled my knees up to my chest resting my head on it when I heard Jenna's snobby laugh from behind me.
"Oh look who it is guys the slutty loner." Jenna smirks while the rest of her crew consisting of Marisol, Tori, Becky, Maya, Anya, Holly J, and Imogen laughed.
"Yeah I'm the slut Jenna at least I'm not fucking KC and Luke every weekend and Fridays." I smirk as she gets pissed off.
Finally the bus pulled to a stop at Degrassi once we all off Jenna said "Bitch stop making up lies before I fuck you up."
"Honey don't try lying in front of your boyfriend you were the one that accidently butt dialed me and was telling all your little groupies about how your banging both of them." I called back rolling my eyes at her.
A whole circle formed around with kids chanting fight, right when she was about to slap me a hand stopped her. She turned around and saw Drew and his gang consisting of Eli, Adam, Dave, Sav, Declan, Owen, Jake, Cam, and Zig. Some of his crew was dating Jenna's like Sav and Holly J, Owen and Anya, Jake and Imogen, Cam and Maya, and Tori and Zig. Then some of them were dating other people for example Eli is dating my friend Clare, Then Adam is dating my friend Fiona, Dave is dating my friend Alli, and then Declan is dating Darcy Clare's half-sister who is only older then Clare by three months. Then for Jenna's crew only two of them are dating people that aren't in Drew's crew Marisol is dating Mo a football player that doesn't really hang with Drew and Becky is dating Fitz who is friends with Eli.
"Jenna stop with the bull shit everyone knows your fucking them both so stop trying to start shit with that girl I mean come on this is why KC has thoughts about breaking up with you." His gang burst into laughter as the whole crowded left.
I grabbed my stuffed and left before anyone could say anything to me.
Three Hours Later_
Alli, Clare, Fiona, Darcy, and I started heading to lunch when I bumped into a hard chest making all my stuff go flying.
"Hey watch it jackass!" I grumble as I get on my knees and begin picking up all my items.
"Sorry I wasn't paying attention." Drew says getting down on the floor helping me and the girls pick my stuff up.
"Oh sorry didn't know it was you." I say getting up and he hands me my book.
All Drew did was smirk at me and walk off into the cafeteria; I blushed as we enter after him. The girls and I went into the lunch line and order us are food and sit down at a table outside. Noticing they were eyeing their boyfriends want to sit with them I sighed and mumbled "go on and sit with your boyfriends." They thanked me and walked off.
I started picking at my salad bored out of my mind when someone sat with me and started eating quietly. I look up and it's none other than Drew Torres, rolling my eyes knowing he felt bad for me to have to eat by myself I continued to poke at my food.
"A nice thing to say would be hi you know." He says sarcastically.
"Hi." I say lamely looking at him.
"Hey I'm Drew I saved you from Jenna's bitch slap you know." He smirks looking at me.
"I know who you are I'm Bianca but to be honest she can't slap even if she could I would always hit harder than her she's just a wimp in general if she had slapped me she would probably be in the nurses room with a broken nose and a black eye along with a clawed up face with missing hair." I say smirking.
"Feisty I like it; you're very cool Bianca I like you already I don't understand how people hate you." He smiled a genuine smile.
He didn't know why me and Jenna hated each other but there was a story behind us that no one knew and will never know that's what we both said a long time ago if one says it the other gets busted as well.
A/N: So um what do you think? 4 reviews to continue and the first 2 reviewers get a sneak peak of the next chapter ok? Oh and I'm not sure if I should continue Life Unexpected so inform me if you want me to continue.