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PROLOGUE: GOODBYE

I could avoid all of this, you know.

I could. If I was honest with him.

If I'd have been honest with myself from the beginning.

If I hadn`t denied my feelings.

We could`ve been together now…

I always thought that I would have an eternity to be with him.

I figured, oh, I`ll have my fun and live my life and I can always go back to him when all my adventures are over…when I'm more mature and sure about what I want, and when all the terrible things he's done have faded and healed with time…

I always thought I had time.

Guess what?

I was wrong.

And now he`s dead!

And forever looks like a joke. Especially when it represents a life without him. A life that is hollow, empty, deprived of any hope for happiness or hope. A life I wasn't entirely sure was worth living. Suddenly an eternity without him seemed miserable, pointless, simply unbearable.

I could survive, there is no doubt about that, but I'm not entirely sure I can actually ever manage to live again.

I rest my head on his chest, feeling the tears drop helplessly, flooding my face and blurring my vision. I couldn't find it in me to care if the others were looking, I don't care if they approve of him or not. I have already lost too much precious time with him, wasted time running away from the truth. And it was all in vain now that I looked back at it. Now I know, I don`t just love him, I need him.

But now it is too late.

I needed him in my life and he had left me…

Why is everybody always leaving me? Why would no one stay? Do I not deserve a happy ending? Everyone else does, but not me?! How is that fair?

My sobs fill the room, getting louder and louder as the clock ticks. I can't seem to bring myself to care about that either. I have other pressing matters to solve right now, like remembering how to actually breath. It seems like an unshakeable weight is pressing on my neck cutting the air and forcing me to sob. I try to breath and every time I force the oxygen in my lungs, it hurts like hell. And every time it feels like my entire body is burning from the inside out…

The fuzziness in my head must be a side effect from the dysfunction my breathing system is facing. I suddenly feel tired, powerless and paralyzed from the pain and agony of these last few minutes…or were they hours?

I can't make myself care about that either.

It would seem all I care about, all I can process is one, burning, killing fact that makes my heart bleed in thousand different places. As if I was shot by a thousand bullets and to my bad luck, survived.

I lost him.

I have lost him.

Forever.

That is the only thing that truly matters to me right now.

Someone tries to pick me up from the floor, Elijah, I think. I fight against him. No, he won't take me away from him! I want to be by his side, at least now…at least for a few more minutes. They're all I have left.

I want to stand at his side for once, choose him first, instead of act with the fear "What will my friends say?"

Damn them! And damn her for allowing them to stand in the way of her destiny.

Elijah gently tags my arm, once more, so to remove me from his brother's corpse. His face drained of life and pain evident in his stern eyes. I can hear Bekah's cries from somewhere in the room but somehow all I can do is to cling onto Klaus' body even tighter as his brother tries to remove me from it.

"No, no, no…don't take me away from him!" I scream and scream until Elijah stops and leans over to whisper hushing words to me while stroking my hair tenderly as if to calm me and convince me to follow him. I won`t hear any of it…my head is fuzzy and I can't comprehend anything he says. I only catch the last bits of his sentence…

"…if she finds you here… I cannot protect you, we need to leave."

"Let her come…" I say so calm that he is taken aback. My voice sounds unrecognizably cold and deadlier than I've ever heard it. "Let her try and kill me, let her try her hardest, I don't care anymore."

I collapse on my lover's dead body once more, silently mourning for the life I've lost, and for the pieces of my heart that he took along with him in his lonely journey. I suddenly wish that she finds me, I wish I had her right in front of me to tear her insides out and be done with her before I walk out in the sun without my daylight ring and join my man. Because now, I could only hope to see him in another life and dream about our happy reunion in hell, even if I had to search for him in the lowest circles of it… I would find him!

"Please don't leave me." I begged in a whisper.

"I love you...I love you so much."

But it is already too late, I am too late.

I should have told him this earlier…

I should have told him told him when I still had time…

Hey guys, this is the revised version of the king of shadows I promised

The first chapter will be updated today as well and the others will follow

Shortly. I hope you enjoy and won`t be bothered by the small but vital changes

I make. Don`t forget to write me a review or PM me with questions you might

Have. You know I`ll answer all of them.

T.J.