I'll Always Be Your Girl

by IrishLass72

She has loved him since she was a young girl. Are they meant for forever?

1. Chapter 1

8/28/2011 Hi everyone so if you have already read this then you know it's different. I was having trouble uploading new chapters and the only thing I could figure to do was to combine them and then re- upload them.. If that makes sense. I know the chapters are now even longer.. Sorry, but I didn't know what else to do… maybe write a shorter story..lol.. Thank you for all of your support. xoxo

This is my first FanFic so please don't be too harsh. I really hope you like it. Any reviews are welcomed. Thanks. I don't own anything to do with SOA except for Cambrie, John and Debby Stewart

So much sadness and strife in the world. Some days I think that I should just give up, but I can't. They wouldn't want me to. It's been years since I have been back to Charming California. I need them, I need my family. Daddy's gone and I'm all alone again. He would want to be with mom, so that is what I'm going to do.

In the Beginning

My name is Cambrie Stewart. I was born in Tacoma Wash and I'm the daughter of Debby and John Stewart. My parents split when I was 9 and my mom moved us down to Charming California. My dad was ok with it because we would be near Uncle John, Aunt Gemma, Uncle Clay and Aunt Dolly.

Dad was in Vietnam with Uncle John and Uncle Clay. They were founding members of Samcro (Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club Redwood Original). A club for Harley lovers. Dad was wounded in Vietnam so he didn't ride, he could but chose not too, I think it had something to do with how he was wounded but he would never talk about it. So he was never patched in, but he worked on them and anyone who had a problem or question about Harleys knew John Stewart was your man. He knew everything about Harleys. He worked for a shop ran by the Tacoma chapter.

Even though we were 1200 miles apart I was still very close to my dad. My mom made sure of it, though they weren't together anymore, they still loved each other and we all knew it. They stayed the best of friends, which I find is rare in divorce.

I grew up running around with Opie Winston, who's father was Piney and another founding member of SOA. Jackson "Jax" Teller and my best girlfriend in the world, Tara Knowels. Jax and Opie were a year older than me and Tara.

The four of us always had fun, but when you saw us together you knew not to mess with any of us. We were family and no one messed with our family.

Jax and Opie always treated me like the little sister they never had and it was great up until I turned 13. If anyone tried to be mean to me, say hurtful things, Jax and Opie would take care of them, usually by scaring them, but sometimes a punch or two was thrown. It was a month after my 13th birthday, I came home from school and found my mom on the living room floor. They said she never knew what hit her and that she was never in pain. It's scary to think that a brain anneurism can take a life so quickly. The first person I called was Aunt Gemma, she was a strong and fierce woman, sometimes downright scary, but when she loved you, you knew it and there was nothing she wouldn't do for someone she loved. I wasn't off the phone with her 5 minutes when Opie came running through the door.

I was holding her and screaming for her to wake up, I wouldn't let go of her. I couldn't let go of her. I wasn't ready for them to take her. I wasn't ready for goodbye.

I couldn't talk to them, I was too distraught, Opie was there when the aid car came and when Chief Wayne Unser got there, he explained what happened to them for me.

There were so many people in and out of the house that night, dad couldn't get there until the next morning. Uncle John, Uncle Clay Aunt Dolly, Piney and Tig all came, they all told me the same thing. "I love you, I'm here for you, will always be here for you if you need anything" I was there princess, they loved me, but I could tell the men were scared, they didn't know how to handle a distraught, sobbing little girl. But I loved them for trying.

I didn't want to leave my house so Aunt Gemma, Jax, Tara and Opie stayed with me. I stayed in my moms room, I thought everyone was asleep then Opie came in and laid down with me. I couldn't stop crying, I just laid there crying silently. Opie wrapped his arms around me and held onto me, I could feel his tears on my cheek. He probably wouldn't admit it but he was crying too, he loved my mom, she was always there for him since his had taken off and left him behind. I never told him I knew he was crying, there was no need. I think that was when I realized I loved Opie, but I really had no idea what to do with those feelings. They scared me.

My moms funeral was fit for a queen, SOA treated her as though she were an "old lady" the sound of thunderous Harleys will forever stay with me.

My dad stayed by my side the entire time, he was sad too, I always knew he still loved her. His heart was broken too.

A week had passed and every night Opie would sneak into my room and hold me until I went to sleep,but he was always gone when I woke up in the morning.

One morning I went downstairs and Aunt Gemma and Uncle John were there with dad drinking coffee.

"Sweetheart, come over here and sit down please, we want to talk to you about something". What is it daddy? "Well, I have been talking with Gemma and John and we decided that the best thing for you would be to stay with them and stay in your school, but we want to know how you feel about that"

" I guess I haven't really thought about it, why don't you want me?" I started to cry. "oh sweetie, it's not that I don't want you with me but what about school, your friends? Everything you have and know is here in Charming." Yes, I guess that's true" Sweetheart, I promise I will visit more, you have my word. I am going to put the shop up for sale and when it sells I will move to Charming for good".

I looked at my father and he looked so sad, I knew it was breaking his heart to leave me and I didn't want to make it any harder on him, so I said I would stay.

Gemma gave me a big hug and promised to take real good care of me.

I moved in with Gemma and John a couple of days later and dad went back to Tacoma.

Living with them turned out to be great, I felt safe and loved, though I had to share a bathroom with Jax, that wasn't so great. He was messy.

Who Knew She Could Sing?

I stayed in school and got good grades and joined the choir. I caught so much hell from Opie and Jax, but Tara was so supportive, she was the only one out of them who really ever heard me sing. Singing in front of others terrified me but I loved music, I taught myself to play the piano and acoustic guitar, I played for Aunt Gemma and Uncle John all the time. They were so good to me.

I had a hard time singing in front of people I knew and loved but not in front of strangers. The day night before my sixteenth birthday I had a recital. I didn't want my family to come but I told my dad he could come since he was coming down for my birthday, I asked him not to tell anyone about the recital and he didn't but Tara did. I could have killed her.

I was back stage warming up for my solo when David Hale came running up, "Cambrie, this night better not turn into a free for all" David, what are you talking about?" ummm, your family of outlaws are here" WHAT? I peeked out the curtain and saw them all in the last three rows of the back, all the cuts with the reaper on them. I caught Tara's eye and she shrunk down in her seat, she knew I was going to kick her ass.

I could hear David snickering, which pissed me off so I turned around and punched him as hard as I could, he could go on stage with a black eye, I didn't care. Punching him hurt my hand but I knew that since my family was here I was going to have to do my absolute best. I didn't want to live the rest of my life with them giving me shit about my performance. I grabbed some ice and iced my hand up until it was my turn for my solo.

I slid up to the piano and started playing,

There are places I remember, All my life though some have changed, Some forever, not for better, Some have gone and some remain, All these places have their moments, With lovers and friends I still can recall, Some are dead and some are living, In my life I've loved them of all these friends and lovers, There is no one compares with you, And these memories lose their meaning, When I think of love as something new, Though I know I'll never lose affection, For people and things that went before, I know I'll often stop and think about them, In my life I love you more, Though I remember I'll never lose affectionFor people and things that went before, I know I'll often stop and think about them, In my life I'll love you more, In my life I'll love you more.

I stopped and there was total silence, I was so afraid to open my eyes. I knew they would be watching, great… they hated it. I opened my eyes, stood up and turned around to face the audience and there were people crying, Tara, Gemma, daddy, and others,…"shit was it that bad"? I thought to myself. Then all of the sudden the audience was on their feet clapping and yelling. I guess it was only about 10 seconds but to me it seemed like a lifetime before they started clapping. All I could do was smile.

After the recital a found my family in the front lobby, they all hugged me and told me how proud they were. I even got flowers. It was a great night. I noticed though Opie didn't say much and he left without saying goodbye. Fine, whatever, screw him was all I could think. I wondered what his problem was, maybe he had a date. I guess I should be happy he even made it since I didn't tell anyone.. I just shrugged it off. I went to dinner with my dad and had a nice evening.

I woke up the next morning to Opie, Jax, Tara, Dad, Aunt Gemma, Uncle John staring at me from the foot of my bed. I just laid there with the blankets over my face and asked "ummm why are you all there just staring at me?" Jax, Opie get out of my room" They all just laughed, Gemma made me breakfast in bed, Jax and Opie gave me flowers. They told me what a great job I had done the night before and left me with Jax, Ope and Tara to eat my breakfast.

"So Cam, what are we doing for your birthday?" Jax asked, I hadn't really thought about it. "It's no big deal we don't have to do anything" I told him. "Well if I know Ma, she's going to at least want to do a dinner." he stated. "Oh no, please lets not". I said, "They always turn out crazy" I said, worried. Jax and Opie laughed knowing that the thought of a dinner made me nervous. I noticed Opie still wasn't saying much to me, "Opie, what's up? You're awfully quiet?" You ok?"

"yea..umm I'm fine" Opie mumbled. "Happy birthday, I'll see you later. Got some stuff to take care of." he kissed me on the top of my head and left. I turned to look at Jax and Tara.

"Ok, what the hell was that?" What's wrong with him?"

Jax just laughed and said he was figuring some "shit" out. I asked him to be more specific and he told me no, not his place.. "FINE JACKSON, go away then" Jax gave me a kiss on the cheek and a wet one on Taras mouth and left us alone.

Tara was sitting across the room from me and being awfully quiet "here I got this for you" she handed me a small box. I opened the box and there was a silver chain with two pendants on it, initials. C for me and T for Tara.

"oh my gosh Tara this is so pretty, you really didn't have to, but I love it"

"Thank you so much. "Cam, you are my very best friend, you have always been there for me especially when my mom left and all the crap I have gone through with my dad. I love you Cam, you are the sister I always wanted but never got"

We both got a little teary eyed, I got up and hugged her tightly. " I love you too Tara, I'll always be here for you".

Jax was right, Gemma wanted to do a dinner, so Tara and I got wrangled into going shopping with her for dinner. She took us to lunch and bought me a new outfit, a new pair of skinny jeans with embellishments on the butt pockets and a form fitting but flowing top, it was emerald green, Gemma always said emerald green was my color, it brought out the green in my eyes and looked lovely with my long auburn hair. She was right. It also accentuated my new found figure. In the last 6 months I sprouted up from 5' to 5' 5" my face had lost some of the fullness and I went up to a c cup in bra size. I noticed the guys had become a little more protective of me. A boy couldn't talk to me without getting the evil eye from one of the guys.

It drove me crazy, I didn't really understand what the big deal was.

We got back to the house and started dinner, my favorite. BBQ chicken, salad, garlic bread and mashed potatoes and corn.

I ran upstairs to get ready and there was a present on my bed . The card just read, Happy Birthday, Love Ope. It was a bottle of Herve Leger perfume, that I always wanted but could never afford and I wasn't about to ask anyone for it. I was reading Glamour a few months back and there was a sample in it. I made Opie smell it, he didn't say anything. I figured he hated it. I sure didn't expect him to remember it.

I got ready for the festivities and put on my new outfit, brushed my hair out, put on my new perfume and necklace, then put a little mascara and lip gloss on. I went downstairs and everyone just stood there and looked at me.

Great, here we go again.. "What"? Do I have something on my face?" They all burst out in laughter.

Jax came up and gave me a big hug and said "darlin, we are just admiring your beauty" "yea, whatever Jackson" I laughed.

Everyone was there, Dad, Jax, Tara, Uncle John and Gemma, Uncle Clay ,Aunt Dolly, Tig, Piney, Chibs, Otto, Luanne and even Happy and Koz drove down from Tacoma.

I noticed Opie was late and Jax kept looking out the window. "Ok Jax, what's going on? Where's Opie?" Oh, he's on his way. Picking something up for me.

Oh Ok..

Friends or More?

Opie arrived in the middle of dinner and everyone gave him shit for being late on my birthday, he sat down across from me but wouldn't keep eye contact with me.

Finally around ten, everyone asked me to play and sing a song for them so I got my guitar out and played Country Strong for them.

I know you see me, like some wide eyed dreamer, That just rolled in, off a dusty Midwest bus, Yeah on the outside, Hallowed fragile, But on the inside something you can't crush'cause I'm Country Strong, hard to break, Like the ground, I grew upon, You may fool me, and I'll fall, But I won't stay down long, 'cause I'm Country Strong.

I have weathered, colder winters, And longer summers, without a drop of rain, Push me in a corner and I'll come out fightin', I may lose but I'll always keep my face.'Cause I'm Country Strong, hard to break, Like the ground, I grew upon, You may fool me, and I'll fall, But I won't stay down long.

When I was done I looked at my dad, he had tears in his eyes and I jumped onto his lap and hugged him for a long time. I looked over at aunt Gemma and Tara, they were crying too. I started giggling, then told them, "Geeze, if you guys are going to cry every time I play I won't do it anymore" then they all started to laugh.

Opie got up and grabbed his coat and turned around and asked my dad and Gemma if he could take me for a ride on his bike, "you better drive safe and she better wear a helmet" Gemma stated. "Of course I'll be safe with her". My dad smiled at me and winked, so we left. Tara and Jax on Jax's bike and I rode with Opie. I didn't know where we were going and I didn't really care, I just loved being on the back of Opies bike. We got to a beautiful clearing by the river, it was open with a beautiful view of the canyons. There was a small table set up with candles a radio and a gorgeous cake. This is why Opie was late.

"awww Opie, is this all for me?" I asked. "you didn't have to do all this" I told him.

"It's gorgeous out here, everything looks great" I said appreciatively. "When did you find this place?". "Jax and I have been coming here for years". Opie said, matter of fact like. "We haven't told anyone, we come here to think when we have stuff on our minds."

I looked over at Tara and she just smiled at me. Jax came up and handed me a small box, like the one Tara had given me, inside were two skull pendants one had Jax's name on the back and the other had Opies name on the back and the date.

I shrieked with excitement and hugged both Jax and Opie. We ate some cake and turned the radio on and talked for a while, then Jax and Tara left to take Tara home. I hugged them both and told them how much I loved them. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I had the best friends a girl could ever ask for.

When they left I turned around to look at Opie, he had laid a blanket down on the ground by the river, there was a breeze but the air was warm, it felt good.

Opie, looked nervous, when I asked him if he was ok, he grabbed me by the hand and pulled me down to sit next to him. "I just wanted to make tonight special for you" he said, very sweetly.

"Awww, Opie, it's perfect" Thank you so much for everything. I love my perfume by the way. I can't believe you did that." I told him. "I wanted you to have something pretty and I know you have liked the perfume for a while now." then he turned to look at me.

"Cambrie, you are so special to me, you are one of my best friends but last night, when I heard you sing, something happened, I kinda got the feeling you were singing to me. I want us to be more than friends. I know we are young, but Cambrie, I love you."

I was trying so hard not to cry, I didn't want to freak Opie out, all I could do was look up at him and stare into his beautiful eyes.

"Cambrie, please say something, anything." Opie said nervously. I couldn't. I just shook my head and tried to keep the tears from over flowing. I saw hurt in Opies eyes, shit that's not my intention. I couldn't speak, I froze up. I got up on my knees right in front of Opie and without saying a word, I grabbed his face and kissed him. I hoped that would get what I wish could but could not say across to him. When we finally pulled apart we just looked at each other and laughed, the song playing quietly on the radio was 'Are You Going To Kiss Me Or Not', by Thompson Square. Very fitting, don't ya think?

We were sittin' up there on your momma's roof, Talkin' bout everything under the moon With the smell of honeysuckle and your perfume, All I could think about was my next move, Oh, but you were so shy and so was I, Maybe that's why it was so hard to believe When you smiled and said to me. Are you gonna kiss me or not, Are we gonna do this or what, I think you know I like you a lot, But you're 'bout to miss your shot, Are you gonna kiss me or not?.

I curled up next to him on the blanket and looked at the sky with all the beautiful stars , this was the best birthday ever… I was now Opie Winstons girl…

Ch 2. GROWING UP & SKINNY DIPPIN

(Aug 5 months after Cambris Bday)

This can't really be real. Can it? Jax looks like he could explode at any given moment. My heart is breaking for him and Aunt Gemma. Tara looks like she doesn't know what to do, I can tell her heart is breaking for Jax. She loves him. I know she is struggling with how she is supposed to help Jax, we're young we shouldn't have to deal with shit like this. Life is so unfair sometimes.

If you are going to be a part of the club then you have to learn to "deal" with shit like this. Fair or not.

I see the preachers mouth moving but I don't really hear what he is saying. I still can't believe he is gone. I knew he shouldn't have gone out for a ride. He was angry and all out of sorts. You should never ride without a clear mind. They didn't know I was there, that I heard them fighting. He was pulling away and aunt Gemma was trying to get him back. She was tired of all the nights she was having to spend alone, without explanation of where he had been. There were times he would be gone for two weeks at a time and not really say where he had been, would just say "club business".

I know what she was thinking. It had crossed my mind too. He came home from being gone a week, no phone calls, nothing. She had some bags packed at the front door for him. "you can stay at the clubhouse. This isn't some cheap motel. You don't want to come home and see your family! FINE! I'm not doing this anymore John. It's not fair to your family, Think of the example you are setting for our son, and for Cambrie. Who are you?, I don't know you anymore. Where is the man I married? Where is the man I fell in love with? I've been trying John but you don't even try. This hurts too much, I can't do it anymore. I won't do it anymore. I'm sorry but I'm done. You need to go NOW!" when she was done, uncle John turned around and left on his bike.

Two hours later Chief Unser and Uncle Clay showed up. "Sweetheart, I'm so sorry. He didn't have a fighting chance against that eighteen wheeler" the chief looked so sad. He didn't want to be the one to tell her, but he had too, it's his job and he loves her. She's been like his little sister since she was 12.

"They have him hooked up to life support, you need to come and talk to the Doctors and then decide what needs to be done."

That's when Jax and Opie came running into the house. "MOM..What happened? Is dad ok? Where is he? " Jax took one look at his mother and dropped to the floor.

Opie caught him, "come on brother, "No! it's not true. He's a Teller, he's strong, he'll survive this."

I could hear Jax's voice breaking, he was the toughest seventeen year old boy I knew but he wore his heart on his sleeve. This is when I decided to make my presence known.

I got down stairs and through my tears I just looked at everyone. I was crying silently. "oh baby, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were here" aunt Gemma said to me through her tears.

"I'm sorry aunt Gemma, I had a migraine and came home to lie down" I didn't want to bother you". All I could do was stare at Jax, he looked like he was going into shock, so I went and knelt in front of him. I said softly "Jackson, we have to go to the hospital and see him, you need to see him. No matter what happens you need to see him. Now!" Jax looked at me and nodded . I hugged him tightly. It was decided , Uncle Clay would drive us to the hospital. Opie would followed on his bike, which with the current events really freaked me out. The thought of that happening to him made me feel sick inside. I gave Opie and quick kiss and hug before we left.

Everyone was at the hospital, I called Tara to let her know and I called my dad, he was on the first flight he could get from Seattle.

We weren't there long. Even though I knew she was breaking inside aunt Gemma wouldn't let us see that. Everyone knew she loved her man, but she knew she had to be strong. The Doctors said there was no chance for survival. The only thing keeping him breathing was the machines. So with that being said, the machines were turned off. The Sons were a bunch if big, bad, tough bikers but they also had hearts, their hearts broke that day. All I could do was stand there and look at everyone, I tried not to stare but it's not often you see these men break. I knew they would all get their tears out now and we wouldn't see them cry again. They would be strong for aunt Gemma, Jax and myself. Uncle John was my "other father". He was my dads best friend.

The funeral procession was huge. I don't think I had ever seen anything like it. There were so many bikes. There were members from every SOA charter plus many other MC clubs. Uncle John was well known and very respected. It was a very sad day. Every time I looked at aunt Gemma and Jax I couldn't help but worry. Deep down I knew things would change and probably not for the best..

It's been three weeks since the funeral and I feel so drained. School is starting in a week and I am really looking forward to be around people my age and not having to see sadness around every corner. I haven't even been singing. I love to sing when I'm happy and lately the time has not been right.

"Cambrie?" aunt Gemma yelled. "yes aunt Gemma?" I yelled from upstairs. "Baby, could you please come here, we need to talk" aunt Gemma said in her serious voice.

I always get the feeling of impending doom when she says that. That is what she says when she wants to talk to me about something that is going to make me feel uncomfortable.

"Would you like me to get anything for you first aunt Gemma?" I sweetly asked, hoping to butter her up in case I'm in any kind of trouble.

"No baby, just come sit down." I went into the living room and sat across from her.

"Sweetheart, I appreciate everything you have done around here, for me and Jax, but you need to spend some time with Opie and the rest of your friends." "It's ok Gemma, really, I don't mind at all".

"I know baby, that's why I love you so much but, you have been spending all of your time taking care of us and we all need to move on". "Go get ready, Opie will be here in fifteen." Aunt Gemma said sternly. Aunt Gemma had called him and told him that I needed to get out of the house so he needed to come and get me. I appreciate that she did that, I really want to see him but I guess I just felt guilty. Why should I go have fun and be happy with everything that is going on?

Fifteen minutes wasn't a lot of time to get ready, so I ran upstairs and threw on a pair of cut off denim shorts and a white tank top, ran a brush through my hair, brushed my teeth again and put on some of the perfume Ope had bought me for my birthday. I couldn't help it, I was getting excited to see him. We hadn't seen each other too much in the last three weeks. He spent most of his time working at the garage, prospecting for the club and spending time with Jax. I wasn't upset, I understood but I missed him like crazy. I guess I spaced off, because I felt someone staring at me and I looked at aunt Gemma standing in the doorway to my bathroom. She was smiling at me. "Baby girl, I just want you to know that if you ever need someone to talk to about , ya know…um.. Sex!" (and there it was, the uncomfortable topic) you can always come to me.. No judgment" Though I hope you do wait, you are still young, even though I know you are more mature than most kids your age." I am sure I turned ten shades of red. I thought I got lucky and out of having an uncomfortable conversation with her.

I was so embarrassed, I didn't know what to say.

"umm thanks, but I'm not ready for that." I told her. "What? Sex or the conversation?" Gemma said with a smile. "Both" I told her. "Well, I see how you both look at each other and I just want you to know that you can always come to me. There are precautions that need to be made, better to be prepared.. Understand?"

"yes, I understand"

Finally! I hear the roar of Opies bike, THANK GOD.. I could feel my face burning… I gave Gemma a quick hug.. "thanks for caring aunt Gemma, but I gotta go". "Love you" I whispered to her. "Love you too baby girl" she whispered back.

I ran outside and jumped on Opies bike, "hurry go, get me outta here". Opie looked at me with one eyebrow raised, silently asking me what.

"Just go, I'll tell you when we get there".

We got to our special clearing by the river. Jax and Tara were already there.

I got off of Opies bike and waited for him before I walked over to our friends. He reached down and pulled me to him in a much needed hug. Then he gently put his finger under my chin and kissed me. Oh how I missed this. I could kiss Opie 24/7. He is an amazing kisser, sweet and gentle most of the time, then there was fiery and hot. Those were the ones that scared us both. I wasn't ready and he new it and he wouldn't push me into anything I wasn't ready for.

"Hey you two.. Get a room or come hang out with us"… Tara laughed. "Shut up Jackson I playfully yelled at him" we went and sat on blankets down by the river in the shade, it was so hot, so I went and put my feet in the water. There was always a soft breeze, but it was so hot that the breeze didn't help much.

I heard Opie say "Are you crazy? She will kill you" but by the time I realized that he was talking about me, I was under water.. "What the hell? I sputtered, I had water up my nose and in my mouth. "JACKSON I AM GOING TO KILL YOU" I started chasing him but started laughing too hard to do anything, the water was cold but it felt so good. Tara got in the water with me, she walked up and gave me a hug. She was like my sister and I hadn't been able to spend much time with her lately either.

It was nice, it was a great day. We all laughed a lot and I think we all needed that. We talked about school and what teachers we wanted and hoped we didn't get and how Tara and I were bummed that we would have to go to school for a year without Jax and Opie.

"Lets just get through this one before you worry about next year" Jax stated. "That's easy for you to say" Tara said. We'll be in school and you and Ope will be going on "Runs". Jax and Opie would be patched in right after graduation. They would both be 18 by then.

Jax took Tara home but Opie and I had wanted to stay behind, it was still hot out and we wanted to be alone. I knew aunt Gemma wouldn't be worried if I went home a little later than usual.

I was laying on the blanket with my back to the sky when I felt fingers dancing across my back. Opie was drawing pictures on my back, we would do that and the one who's back pictures were being drawn on would have to guess what the picture or words were.

I was almost asleep but I got butterflies in my stomach every time Opie touched me. "baby, are you sleeping?" I could feel his breath on the back of my neck… "hmmm, no. I love when you draw on my back, it feels nice"

That's when he did it. He kissed the back of my neck and started placing soft sweet kisses on my back, while caressing my behind. "Ope?" Yea, he said in between kissing my back. "what are you doing?" "oh nothing" he snickered, then he squeezed my ass . I rolled over and gave him a kiss, then got up. "I'm hot. I'm going in the water" I giggled as I saw the look on Opies face, he was pretending to pout. "you can join me if you want to" I told him trying not laugh.

"No I'm good here" he said trying to sound nonchalant. "Awww, is the big bad biker boy mad?" I said in an overly sweet voice. I couldn't help but giggle. Opie had the prettiest piercing green eyes, he could be so serious but I could always see the twinkle in his eyes. There was a way that he could look at me that would make me melt into butter, no one has ever looked at me the way Opie does. I leaned down into the water so he could see my ass, he instantly got up and as he got closer to me I turned around and splashed him as hard as I could. I knew that would get any dirty thoughts he had in his mind out… I couldn't stop laughing as I kept splashing him, he then started to chase me.

"Oh, princess wants to play that game does she?" he then picked me up and threw me over his shoulder and then threw me in. I'm not quite sure why but as I came up out of the water, all I could do is stare at him. I pulled my shorts off and threw them onto the rocks by the blankets. I was scared and nervous but my body felt hot and flushed at the same time. Opie and I just stared at each other while I peeled my tank top off and threw it next to my shorts. Opie came over to me, still in his jeans and boots, picked me up and started kissing me. It wasn't a sweet and gentle kiss, it was deep and passionate. My hands were tangled in his hair as I wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel his pants getting tighter as we pressed into each other. I thought I could explode then and there.

We both let moans escape out of our mouths. He felt so good. I knew we weren't being responsible but I didn't care. I just wanted to feel him, all of him. "I want you so much" I said against his mouth. I could feel him smile.

"oh yea baby? I couldn't tell" we both started laughing. He carried me to the blanket and laid me down, his hands caressing my face and slowly moving down the rest of my body. I pulled his lips back to mine, as I rolled us over so I could straddle his lap. I started grinding against him again.."oh my god baby, you feel so good" he said quietly. "but we better stop before we go too far". I looked at him in shock "what do you mean? I want to go too far". Instantly I was embarrassed. Then I got mad. Then I started to cry.. "Baby, don't cry, please don't cry".. "you don't want me, how am I supposed to feel?" I leaned over to grab my shorts.. He grabbed me around the waist. "wait" "let me explain". "Cambrie, baby I love you so much and I definitely want you but….. I want to make sure that you are ready and this is what you really want." "IT IS WHAT I WANT" I yelled at him. "We aren't prepared" "what do you mean, we aren't prepared"? Ope I'm as ready as I'll ever be". "Babe that's not what I mean. Are you on the pill or did you bring protection with you?" I didn't and I'm pretty sure you didn't either". " I don't want to take any chances on this".. that's when I understood what he was saying. I felt so stupid for getting mad at him, he was just being a true gentleman. Then it hit me… "did aunt Gemma give you the talk"? I asked.

He looked at me confused. "no, why?" he asked. I just laid back and sighed. "she gave me the talk before you picked me up", I'm sorry I told him". "I'm an ass" I told him with embarrassment. Opie kissed me again, and said "ya know there are other things we could do" then he winked. He pulled me down on top of him again running his hands over my ass again. "Shit baby, I love your ass".. I giggled, "I love your hands on my ass" he rolled me over so I was on my back and started kissing me all over.

My bra was off before I even knew it. His big hands covered my breasts. I could feel my nipples get hard when he brought his mouth near them.. I couldn't help the moans that kept escaping my mouth. It felt so good, soon his hand was trailing down my stomach and then his hand was inside of my panties, lightly flicking the most tender part. I couldn't help but arch towards him. I loved the pressure, I just wanted to feel him against me. In me. "PLEASE, Opie PLEASE.. Oh my god that feels so good. Then he surprised me by putting a finger inside me, I kept grinding against his hand… "Shit baby, I need you so much." I moaned into his neck. I could feel his breath on me, then he removed his finger and replaced his hand with his mouth. Pretty soon his tongue was doing all the work.. It didn't take long. I exploded right then and there. I am pretty sure I saw flashes of lightening and felt thunder.

We just laid there together, wrapped up in each other. It took a few minutes for my breathing and body to get back under control. "Where did you learn to do that"? I stammered… he laughed.. "movies"… we both started cracking up laughing. Then it dawned on me, I needed to return the favor. I pushed Opie onto his back and planted kisses all over his chest, moving my way down as my hands worked to unbuckle his belt and undo the buttons on his pants, I always thought I would be scared shitless the first time I ever went down on him but I wasn't. Opie made me calm, he ran his hands through my hair as I looked down and pulled out, little Opie. I started kissing and licking and then put him in my mouth, Opie was making sounds, I had never heard him make before. I liked it. It meant I was doing good and I wanted to make him happy. It was slow at first but I let my hand help and then soon he was over the edge, when I thought he would explode I removed my mouth but kept rubbing my hand up and down helping him along… I almost died when it got in my hair and all over my hand.. "umm, Ope?" I said. We looked at each other, he started laughing… "babe, you could have just swallowed it, then you wouldn't have to deal with the mess" I thought he was kidding. I looked at him in shock "do people really do that?" I asked completely dumbfounded. He just laughed and pulled me to him, picked me up and carried me to the water, we swam for a bit, cleaned up and put our clothes back on. We intended to lay down just for a little while, but we fell asleep and woke up at dawn. It was beautiful, I loved waking up in Opies arms. When I was with him I felt a calmness, safe. I was home when I was in Opies arms. This was the first time we had been so intimate with each other. Even though we didn't "go all the way" it was still so special to both of us. It couldn't have been more perfect.

I knew aunt Gemma was not going to be happy with me for getting in so late, or early actually. Opie dropped me off and I got into the house quietly and up to my room. Jax and Gemma were sleeping, or so I thought. I went into mine and Jax's adjoining bathroom. I slipped out of my clothes and put on my sleep shorts and tank and started brushing my teeth, then I saw Jax in the doorway. " home a bit late aren't ya?" I didn't know what to say. He had a big grin on his face. I rolled my eyes at him and spit my toothpaste into the sink, rinsed out my mouth, washed my face and went to go past him. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into a big hug. " I hope you realize how much Ope loves you" I looked up at him and sighed… "I hope he realizes how much I love him, Jax" I gave him a kiss on the cheek, said goodnight and crawled into bed.

I woke up and the sun was shining bright through my window. I rolled over to look at my clock, it was 11:45, I groaned.. I didn't mean to sleep so long. I got out of bed and went into the kitchen, Gemma was cooking breakfast or what you could call brunch. She hadn't done this since before uncle Johns accident, it's been so long since we had a big family meal.. She used to love having all the guys over for meals. She was cooking my favorite, waffles, French toast, bacon, sausage, eggs, hash browns, biscuits and gravy.. It smelled heavenly. I grabbed a cup of coffee and sat down on one of the bar stools.

"Out kinda late weren't ya?" I could feel myself blushing. I looked down at my coffee, I knew if I looked at her she could tell what I had been doing that kept me out so late. "Sorry aunt Gemma, I won't do it again". "Do what? Fool around with Opie or stay out so late?"..

I spit some of my coffee back out. Right then Jax walked in, "come on Ma, don't give her such a hard time" Jax said, coming to my rescue. Jax gave me a wink. "I'm sorry baby, I couldn't help myself, I just hope you were careful" she said sounding hopeful. I sucked in and took a deep breath… "we didn't do it last night" they both looked at me in disbelief, so I said.

"Opies a gentleman". "Oh, well that's good, I guess" aunt Gemma stated.

Jax said, "awww poor Ope" and laughed. I threw a dish towel at him. "Poor Ope my ass I said and they both looked at me in shock. "Aunt Gemma, I think it's time I go in and get on the pill". This time it was Jax's turn to choke on his coffee, I just grinned at him. Aunt Gemma came over to me and gave me a big hug "ok baby girl, lets do that".

By noon, we were all around the table eating Gemmas great food. No one wanted to sit in uncle Johns seat so we left that space at the table empty. Opie was next to me and later I pulled him aside and told him my conversation with Jax and aunt Gemma. He just smiled, leaned down and kissed me sweetly.

When we walked back into the dining room, I just stood there and looked at everyone, they were talking and smiling and having a good time. Things were looking up. We were all moving on, it was hard but it had to be done.

The next few days before school started were spent shopping with Tara and aunt Gemma, barbecuing with the club, spending time at the river with Opie, Jax and Tara. I was starting to feel like things were good and we had a lot to look forward to.

Aunt Gemma took me to my Doctors appointment. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I was glad for that. Even though I was on the pill, Opie and I didn't rush into going further, when we could find the alone time, we were more concerned with enjoying each other and exploring our bodies, which at times were very time consuming and wore us out. I think in some ways we felt that was more intimate than actually doing the deed. Opie didn't push, I think he knew me better than I knew me and he knew I needed a little more time.

****I CH.3 Don't Even Think About It.

It's already October and school had started and life in Charming has been pretty uneventful and quiet. Kozik and Happy decided to stay on for a while, helping out in the shop and wherever Gemma needed them. They were pretty young, about 22 or 23 but they were known to be good at what they do.. Whatever that means. I had heard that Koz was a great shot and could handle any kind of weapon handed to him. Happy was more serious and quiet. Not much of a talker, a person could tell just by looking at him to not mess with him, he had the most piercing dark eyes and he scared most people but not me. Koz and Happy were always respectful towards me, probably because aunt Gemma would have their balls along with all of my uncles…lol.

Aunt Gemma thought it was time I had my own car, so they all went in and bought me a 1970 Chevelle SS 396, I was so excited. It wasn't too pretty and ran rough but when they had time the guys would take turns teaching me how to work on it. Eventually I would get a new paint job too. It would go from a faded black to candy apple red.

Aunt Dolly left uncle Clay before uncle Johns funeral, something about living a "normal" life. Not only was he hurting because uncle John was gone but he didn't have his wife to lean on. That made me sad for him.

As time has gone on I noticed aunt Gemma and uncle Clay spending more time together. I know Jax noticed it too, he wasn't too happy about it. I on the other hand was fine with it. They seemed to be happier, not so down and sad.

Opie and Jax had the easiest classes, two auto shop classes, one for engines and one for body repair (which could come in handy for me) a woodshop class, weight lifting and an English lit class, which Tara and I had with them.

David Hale was in English lit with us. He doesn't give me such a hard time about my family anymore, ever since I gave him a black eye. He was always trying to talk to Tara, I guess you could say they were friends but she made it clear she would not put up with him bashing her boyfriend or his family.

Since Jax and Opie were still prospects they were doing a lot more for the club.

I spent a lot more time at the shop and club house. I felt safe there .

Though I was pretty disgusted with the sweet butts that hung around there. Most of them were pretty nice to Tara and I, or they ignored us, but then there were the ones who thought they had more of a right to be there than we did.

We usually put those ones straight right away.

I pulled into the shop after school…."your late" aunt Gemma yelled. " I know, I'm sorry. Choir practice started today for the Holiday concert"

"it's ok, baby, I'm just a little stressed out trying to plan this Halloween party the guys want to throw" "well, I could help you and I'm sure Tara would help too" I offered. Aunt Gemma seemed to be happy with this idea. I called Tara and she was excited to help. We had two weeks to plan, this weekend we would shop for decorations.

I went in to the shop to help Happy work on a car. "Hey Shorty, how was your day? Make the boys cry?" Happy asked smirking at me. I just laughed, "yea sure, because I'm so scary you know". "what are you working on Hap?" "Blown head gasket, you wanna help?" I helped him work on the car for about an hour when I heard the bikes pull in, uncle Clay, Piney, Tig , Opie and Jax. They had been out doing "club business". I ran out and gave them all hugs. I saved Ope for last and gave him a big wet kiss. "STOP IT!" OH MY EYS"…Tig yelled… we all laughed, they knew Ope and I were serious but I was still their little girl.

I told them Tara and I were helping Gemma plan the Halloween party. Uncle Clay seemed to be happy. "good, your aunt has a lot on her mind, I'm sure she'll appreciate the help" he kissed my the top of my head and walked towards the office.

I looked at Jax, who seemed to be in deep thought. "what was that about, Jax?" Jax looked at me with sad eyes, "he and mom are in love". "Oh" I said, but before I could say anything else, Jax took off on his bike. I looked at Opie, "is he going to be ok?" "He will be, just needs to clear his head"

I jumped on the back of Opies bike and we went for a ride, then he took me home, I left my car at the shop. He and Jax were going to start doing the body work on it for me, so Opie and Tara would make sure I got to school and someone would be there after to take me home or to the shop.

We were out back on the porch snuggling in one of the chaise lounges.

"my choir practice started today, so I have to stay after school" "do you have to practice every day?" Opie asked. "only three days a week until Thanksgiving, then every day after school" I told him. Opie gave me a quick kiss and said " I can't wait to hear you sing again". "what? I sing all the time I laughed". Sometimes I didn't realize I would be singing and people would stare at me. "yea, but there's just something about seeing you on stage doing your thing, you fit up there" I leaned jumped onto Opies lap and started kissing him, deeply, kissing him felt so good. I was getting really into it when he pulled back "what?" I said smiling. "Don't start something you can't finish sweetheart" he said with a grin on his face. "besides I hear Gemmas car" with that being said I jumped up and went into the house, we had homework to do anyways. Though I was disappointed.

Finally, the weekend was here so Tara and I could go shopping for the Halloween party. We were at the party store going hog wild. They had so many cool decorations. Aunt Gemma let us borrow her SUV, good thing too. We bought so much stuff.

"What are you dressing up as?" I asked. "I'm not sure yet, Jax and I were talking about a Doctor and a nurse".. I laughed and said "yea the naughty kind, Jax would love to play Doctor with you." Tara blushed and I couldn't stop giggling as we walked out. I almost ran over Tara when she stopped short seeing Emily Duncan leaning into Jax with her hand on his chest.

Uh oh, thought this is going to be bad. Tara walked up to Jax's bike and tapped Emily on the shoulder. "Get your hand off my boyfriend NOW!" Emily looked at Tara and snickered. "why you worried I can take better care of your man than you can?" Emily said, in her very annoying voice. POW!, Tara punched her right in the nose, "nope, not worried about that one bit" Tara yelled. "Shit babe, we were just talking" Jax stated. Tara was pissed, she slapped Jax right across the face. "That slut doesn't just talk Jax". Jax looked stunned, Opie was trying not to laugh, and I didn't know what to do. I had never seen Tara so mad.

"FUCK YOU TELLER" Tara yelled. While Opie helped Emily to her car in case Tara decided to punch her again.

"Cam, lets go." Tara said, very pissed off and ready to cry. So we left.

"Tara, what the hell was that?" I asked her. "Did you have to punch her in the face?" I asked. Tara started crying.. "I found notes to Jax from her, telling him to break up with me and that she would give him what he needs and when I asked Jax about them he got mad, said I shouldn't go through his stuff. I wasn't Cam, honest. I was looking for a pen and one was open, I couldn't miss it". She started crying harder. "He told me she have him a bj at that party two weeks ago". "WHAT? " That asshole" I yelled getting pissed at Jax too. I pulled the car over and gave my best friend a hug. "I'm so sorry Tara, he's an ass but I know he loves you" I know she knew this but sometimes she needs someone to remind her of that. "Yea that's what he said".

We got back to aunt Gemmas with all the decorations. She met us at the front door. She could tell Tara was upset.

"what's going on with her?" aunt Gemma asked, so I told her.

Aunt Gemma walked up to Tara and gave her a hug. "come here both of you, I think we need to talk" all I could think was "great, here it comes. You never new what Gemma would say.

She told us that to guys BJ's were not a big deal, getting one wasn't a deal breaker to them. Guys Jax and Opies age are not so smart , they are thinking with the wrong head. In the MC life, there are rules, like when they go on a run. What happens on a run, stays on a run. It's hard to accept at first but if you love the man you love the club. It doesn't mean they don't love us, they have needs, that's just how guys are wired. If you want to hold onto your man you need to keep him happy but make sure he's keeping you happy. Let those little tarts know he's yours. Show them you're serious. I started to laugh hearing aunt Gemma say this. "Oh Tara showed her alright. I'm pretty sure she broke the skanks nose." Aunt Gemma looked at Tara with a raised eyebrow and smirk. "Good for you baby girl, good for you".

"Get their crows on you" aunt Gemma suggested. Once you have that everyone knows he's yours and you're his. Your off limits.

We both looked at her in shock. Wow, I had never really thought about all of that. I knew Jax and Opie had gone on a few "runs". I started to get mad. I never really thought about Opie having sex, I figured he was a virgin like me. I'm not ok with the thought of Opie being with anyone but me. I was going to have to talk to him. He never mentioned any of the "rules". He did mention me getting a crow tattoo but he hasn't brought it up in a while.

I called Opie. "hey babe, what's up?" he answered. "Get your ass over here and pick me up Opie Winston". I yelled. NOW! I snapped my phone shut.

**OPIES POV**

What the hell? Why was she mad at me. "thanks a lot brother, now Cam is mad, she just yelled at me". Jax laughed, rubbing his face still stinging from Tara's slap. "why, what did she say?" "She didn't say anything, just that I need to pick her up". "This better not have anything to do with you and Tara" I said to Jax. Jax just laughed and shook his head, " I hope not brother, good luck with that one".

I got on my bike and left. I really can't imagine why she would be mad at me. I'm a good boyfriend, I don't yell at her, I treat her with respect. I love her, she's the best thing in my life. For her to talk to me like that was out of the norm. The closer I got to the house the more pissed I am.

That's it. I'm going to tell her she can't talk to me like that. I was ready for a fight when I pulled up, but when she came out and I took one look at her it was over. I just wanted to grab her and kiss her, but I knew she wouldn't let me. She looked really angry. Hot and angry. She was wearing my favorite jeans on her. My reaper tee and her leather jacket and boots. That massive auburn hair just blew around her face as she came storming up to me.

"lets go" she said. With out a word I drove to our special spot in the clearing by the river.

She got off my bike and walked over to the water, I wasn't sure what to do so I just leaned against my bike and watched her. Waiting for her to start yelling. After about 5 minutes of neither one of us saying anything, she grabbed the blanket from my saddle bag and put it down on the ground. I watched her pace back and forth for another minute or two.

"Babe, what's going on with you?" that was it. Before I could say anything else, she was on me, kissing me. Kissing me like she has never kissed me before. I tried to pull away but she wouldn't let me.

"I'm not letting you go, we are doing this now". She said against my mouth. That was all it took. I carried her over to the blanket, I figured she wanted to be in control so I let her take control. She pushed my cut off of me then pulled at my shirt and took that off too. She took her jacket and shirt off and throw them on the ground. She sat back and just looked at me. She had the prettiest eyes, I could stare at them all day. Today there was something different in her eyes, like a don't mess with me glare, but she smiled at me, then started kissing me again. She pushed me onto my back and straddled me then she got up and took the rest of her clothes off while looking at me. I went to take off my boots and pants. "don't move" she said. I looked at her and smiled, she was beautiful, she wasn't scrawny she was curvy and she had the most perfect ass and her rack was unbelievable. The fact that she doesn't really know it and try to flaunt it makes her more beautiful to me.

Cambrie climbed back on top of me and started kissing my chest, trailing down my stomach. I thought I was going to lose control, "baby, we shouldn't" was all I got out before she told me to "shut up". the next thing I new my pants were down around my knees. I reached up and caressed her tits, they were so nice and perfect, she loved me playing with them. She was so hot. I sat up and started kissing her neck, I knew she loved this too. Then before I new it, I was inside of her, she was in control, she seemed to need this so I let her . "God baby, you feel so good", she was moaning, I was trying so hard not to lose it. "damn baby" I said. Pretty soon we were in a perfect rhythm together. All of the sudden she started screaming my name and that was all it took, I let go. All these months of waiting, this is what we were waiting for. She felt so good. She collapsed on my chest, we stayed like that for a while. Finally I said "you still mad at me?" She laughed and then told me about the talk she and Tara had with Gemma.

I explained to her that I knew all about the rules but I guaranteed her that I wasn't like most of the guys, when I was on a run she was all I thought about. If I had a need I took care of it myself if she wasn't there.

See, we did pretty much everything but have sex up until now. No ones mouth would feel as good as Cambries, this I knew and now no ones pussy would either. Cambrie is it for me. I ached in my bones for her. No one could get in the way of that.