Just thought I'd write something, I was bored and inspired by this song. It's called, "Let Go" by the lovely Imogen Heap. Check her out, she's amazing!
WARNING: Mention of suicide. Suicide is a serious matter. Please reach out to someone you know that is dealing with this. Tell someone, let them know you care and love them! It's the best thing to do to keep them still here! I love you all, happy reading.
Beauty In The Breakdown
Bonnie was feeling so sad. She had every reason to be. Her life has gone to hell. Her normal life went out the window when "animal attacks" began forming in Mystic Falls. She thought nothing of it. She just thought a bear or something attacked people. She was ignorant. Ah, how ignorant is bliss!
Then she found her best friend was dating a vampire and said vampire had a an older brother who was causing havoc everywhere he went. On top of all that, She was a witch. Her grandmother would always tell her that she was a very special person. Now she understands why her father would give her grams a "be quiet!" look. Her father didn't approve of his mother beliefs and activities. Her grams said that her father was one too. He just stopped after falling in love with her mother.
They didn't stay together for long because her mother hated her grams talking to her about witchcraft. She even hated her watching Harry Potter!
After her parents spilt, magic was not to be heard, seen or do. Well, at least when her father wasn't around. And he's not anyway. He loves his job and loves to travel. He loves her too, just not as much as his job. He visits now and then. After the death of his mother, he had Bonnie come see him in New York.
He visits more than he used and keeps in touch. It's just not enough. She would love to have her dad live in the same house and be happy, like they used to. When her grams was alive, she had somebody. Now she's gone. She can't talk to Elena as much anymore, like before. She's too caught up in her vampires. Caroline has her problems too. Now that she's one of the undead and helping Tyler with his wolf thing. God! No one is normal!
Jeremy proved to be some comfort but, it's not enough. She met one of her relatives. Her cousin Lucy. She met her at the masquerade ball. She was in Katherine's debt. Guess all Bennetts are cursed to help vampires.
She knows that now. She tries to look happy and act like nothing's wrong. She just can't anymore. She has a breaking point too.
She couldn't think in her home. She walked to the mystic grill to just relax and maybe eat something. It's been awhile since she ate something filling.
She leaves just when a particular song starts to play. She decides to go into the woods. That's the only place she can seem to relax. She knows it's probably not a good idea to wander alone in the woods, with the originals trying to kill Elena and so on but, she needs this.
She passes the old fell church and stares at it for a moment. She used to not think twice about passing this place but now she does.
She shakes her head and walks deeper into the woods. Once satisfied where she was, she lets the tears fall.
She needed to be far from everyone. She just needs to cry. She cries for Elena on how stupid and how fucking lucky she was. She always had the attention and protection from everyone.
She cries for Caroline. Her bubbly best friend. She didn't know any of this and now, she's in this stupid fight and a soldier for Elena.
Always Elena. What about her? Did anyone care for the witch, the sidekick?, the friend? NO.
No one did or does.
Bonnie looked up at the sky. Tears blurring her vision but she could still see the stars.
She gives anything to just join them. Join her grams and Emily up there. She wants to rest too.
Bonnie was never the girl to think of dying or killing herself. But now, that could be her ticket out of this hell hole.
No one would miss her. Caroline would though. Bonnie smiles a little at that thought. Caroline would die if she was gone. Is that enough? Jeremy would too, he would feel like he was cursed or something. All the girls that he loved died. But Bonnie is not someone he loves. She just a crush.
Her dad would morn for a couple of days until his boss says, "Jack! Get back to work!" Then he would shrug it off, like he did to his own mother's death and move on.
Everyone would move on. One witch dies, that's ok will find another one!
Her death would not be shocking or life changing to anyone. She could kill herself. With some sort of spell. She could do it. Question is, will she.
Bonnie cries harder and falls on her knees. She couldn't. She's too scared to even harm a small animal let alone take her life.
Bonnie looks up again and screams.
"WHY WON'T YOU JUST LET ME DIE! I'M NOTHING HERE! I MEAN NOTHING! PLEASE!, PLEASE JUST LET ME DIE! I DON'T BELONG HERE!"
She feels like her body's on fire. Her heart pounding in her chest. She doesn't want to feel anymore. She just wants it all to stop.
"PLEASE! I'm begging you! You took my family away! There's nothing here for me!"
Bonnie weeps and shudders. She can't live like this anymore. She used to pray and hope that everything will get better. But everything just seems to be getting worse and worse.
Bonnie gets up in anger and wipes the tears that won't stop rolling down her face. She curses and yells.
"I used to believe in you? WHERE ARE YOU? All I see down here is the opposite of you!"
Bonnie begins to feel tired. " Are you even real?" She whispers.
She closes her eyes and lets one tear fall. She chants something under breath and then she's gone.
Behind a tree, there stood the tall man vampire with dark hair and beautiful blue eyes. Damon.
He followed the young witch from the grill to the woods. He was curious as to why she was so sad.
When he saw her breakdown right in front of him, all he wanted to do was to hold her and kiss her. He didn't know why but he juts felt a pull to her. He needed to hold her and kiss her. It took everything in him not to run to her.
It broke his heart hearing her reveal how she truly felt. He never did know. He doesn't even think that anyone does. Now knowing what he does now, if she tried to kill herself he would know. He wouldn't let her.
He couldn't help to admire how she looked. She was breathtaking. He never really realized how beautiful she really was. Until tonight.
He will changer her mind. He will not leave her alone until she understands that she is not...alone.
Damon smiles and remembers that song that was playing in the grill.
Beauty in the breakdown. She is a beauty in the breakdown. His beauty in his very own breakdown as well.
He puts his hands in his leather jacket's pockets and looks up at the sky too. He remembers when he used to pray too. When he was human. He forgot all about God.
I'll pray, for her...I hope you're listening...
He makes his way out of the woods while humming the song.
So let go, let go
Jump in, well what are you waiting for?
It's alright, because there's beauty in the breakdown
So let go, let go
Just get in, it's so amazing here
It's alright, because there's beauty in the breakdown
-Let go By: Imogen heap
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~Cynner