As he watched her naked form lying next to him, he knew he was in trouble. A part of him wanted to push her away for her own sake. He knew nothing good could come from what they shared if it ever came out at the firm. But he couldn't let her go, he was addicted.
Harvey Spector had a reputation for being cold hearted and selfish but for the first time in his life, the brunette in his bed, made him want to be more. It (their relationship) wasn't supposed to have lasted. They had reasoned their first night together was a mistake. He had just lost the woman he cared for and she thought she had lost the man of her dreams. Late nights at work had turned them into friends, banter became flirtatious and one night when she showed up at his apartment in tears; comfort turned to passion. That was three months ago and Harvey will never forget how broken she looked when he opened his door that fateful night. Her face stained with tears he held her for hours on his sofa until she fell asleep.
In that moment he felt protective of her. Initially when he had first learned of the couple's breakup he had taken Mike's side; cheating, had always been on a short list of unforgivable acts for him. Yet after getting to know her, he understood the kiss with Logan was closure and nothing more. Logan had been her first love and learning he was married never permitted a proper goodbye. He had encouraged her to ask for Mike's forgiveness one last time and the bastard had ripped her to shreds. Hearing her sobs that night he found that he wanted nothing more than to plummet the young man. Harvey couldn't believe that the condescending and righteous ingrate had forgotten it was his secret that had cost them all.
When he thought she wouldn't wake, Harvey had carried her from the sofa to his bed but when he went to leave she grabbed his hand and asked him to stay. That night had been one of the most intimate nights Harvey had ever shared with a woman and he knew she felt a connection too. Try as they had, they couldn't remain just friends. Their relationship finally solidified tonight when Mike had shown up unexpectedly at Rachel's apartment. Caught off guard by a knock at her door and not expecting a guest, Harvey moved into the hallway out of sight. When he heard Mike's voice in the entry way, he immediately stiffened. Mentally he began to chaise himself for believing a relationship with Rachel could work when the young man started to proclaim his love. His thoughts were interrupted though when Mike's voice raised. "What do you mean you've moved on?" he heard him ask. "Is it Logan?"
"No," Rachel answered. "It's not Logan."
"Then who?"
"It's none of your business, Mike."
"Like hell it isn't my business, just three months ago you begged me to take you back and now you tell me that you've moved on. We were together a year and a half and you're going to throw it all away for the first guy that comes along? I guess I was right the first time about not trusting you."
Harvey was about to step out and confront the prick but he stopped when heard Rachel respond. "I wasn't the one that walked away from our relationship, you did. And when you did I thought I would die. I thought I loved you but looking back at things now, you can't love someone you never really knew. The man I'm with now sees all of my faults and quirks and loves me anyway without judgement. He gave me space to grieve what I thought was lost love never asking for anything in return. He has made me realize I deserve so much more than what you were willing to give." There was a long silence and then he heard Rachel ask Mike to leave. They hadn't talked about the confrontation, Harvey knew better. Instead, just as he had that fateful night he held her close to him. This time there were no tears shed just two lovers finding peace in each other's embrace. He wasn't sure when he had fallen asleep but unlike three months ago, Rachel took the lead tonight.
Leading him to the bedroom, he felt his senses heightened with every touch of her hand and he couldn't get enough. Their sex had always been passionate and intimate but tonight there had been something raw in the way she moved. It was as if through every movement, she was showing him he was her choice not her rebound.
Looking at her toned tanned skin through the moons light, she was an angel, his angle. It had only been three months but he knew what she told Mike was true. He saw all of her faults and quirks and he loved her because of them. Harvey Spector was in love with Rachel Zane and life at the firm was about to get very interesting in the near future.
"Hey," a groggy voice whispered. He smiled when his eyes locked with hers. Her hair was a tangled mess but god she was beautiful.
"Hey," he answered back just before his lips pressed a light kiss to her nose.
"What are you doing up?"
"Just thinking," he responded.
"Yeah," her eyebrows raised in concern.
"Yeah," he chuckled causing her to roll her eyes in frustration. Pouting at his lack of explanation and just about to turn her back to him his arm reached out to stop her. "Alright, alright…." He laughed. "I was thinking about how improbable this is" He motioned between the two them. "Three months ago I never would have imagined being here with you."
"Do you regret it?" She questioned. "Is this because of tonight, because of what Mike said?"
"Rach, calm down.." He said as he held both her hands in his and bent down to kiss her lips. "I know I should regret being with you because of my friendship with Mike but I don't. Instead, every day that I spend with you learning more about you, I find myself falling harder for you." Even in the darkness Harvey could see her eyes widen at his confession. "I think," he paused "No, I know, I am falling in love with you Rachel Zane," he concluded his voice shaking with nerves. "I know it's only been three months and I don't expect you to…" His rambling was cut short when he felt soft lips press against his.
"I must be crazy too," Rachel answered as she pulled away for breath. "Because I know I'm falling in love with you too Harvey Spector." Harvey couldn't help but grin as he kissed her hard. Giggling Rachel snuggled closer this woman was going to be the end of him but somehow Harvey couldn't bring himself to mind.
