What fun is love? By Michelle Smiley
Chapter 1: The Problem….
It was close to being the end to Harry, Ron and Hermione's seventh and final year. Harry and Ginny where the hottest couple and longest lasting, followed by Ron and Hermione. But Hermione had a secret that non of her friends could find out about. Hermione was in love, her heart and soul belonged to him, but it wasn't her boyfriend, no she wasn't in love with Ron. Hermione is in love with the head boy, the guy she had been secretly seeing all year long.
Hermione spent her seventh year trying to get Ron to dump her. But he wouldn't he loved her to much, he wasn't letting her go easy. Which just made her feel even worse since she didn't feel that way for him, she didn't know how to tell him with out hurting him.
The day before a three day weekend, Hermione had decided to tell Ron the truth about everything, But Ron had other plans. Since Hermione had told him that she couldn't see him over the weekend because she had 'head girl duties' and 'needed to study' and since the whole weekend was quidditch finals, he decided that it was the best time to ask Hermione a very important question.
Hermione had planned a picnic on a hill over looking the grounds and lake, she figured it was far enough away from everyone if he yelled no one would hear. She still didn't know what she was going to say. How could she put it nicely so it didn't hurt him?
The day went as they both planned, they ate and Ron caught her up with all the drama she missed while she was 'studying' in her common room that she shared with the head boy. Then they watched the sunset and a couple stars come out. Hermione turned to tell Ron her secret when he turned to her on one knee, he had something in his hands, Hermione's voice left her.
"Mione," Ron started, "Since our first year we've been threw hell, mostly cause we're friends with Harry. But the summer, the war, made me realize that I don't want to loose you, I never want to loose you." He paused for a moment and a lump grew in Hermione's throat, "I know this year has been a greater challenge then all the rest cause we weren't under any threat, but we're in a relationship. And I wanna over come everything with you, so far we have, and I wanna continue to. So Hermione will you marry me?" Ron loosed into Hermione's gaze, he didn't see the helpless look in her eyes, he couldn't see that the love that was in her heart wasn't for him but her secret. She swallowed the lump in her throat, she couldn't tell him now, how could she say no, but how can she say yes, and live with someone she didn't love? She couldn't keep the secret from him forever… Could she? She needed time.
"Ron…" She said when she found her voice, " I'm not sure what to say… It's so sudden." he frowned which made it harder for Hermione.
"Just say yes, It's not sudden, we'll graduate soon and I want you to be mine once we leave here." she looked at him and saw the worry in his eyes, she was never good at saying no to him. She put her hand on his, 'I need time!' her mind yelled… 'No!' her heart yelled…
"Yes… I will marry you, I'm yours Ron, I'm yours!" Her heart broke has the words came out of her mouth. Ron didn't notice the quiver in her voice or the tears in her eyes, she saw the joy spring into his face as he hugged her. He slid the ring on her finger and she put on a smile, he didn't know it was fake. She decided she needed to get away.
"Ron," she said trying to keep the sob out of her voice, " we should head back inside, I'll let you go ahead and tell Harry and Ginny, I have to make the rounds before I go to my room." Ron nodded, he stood up then helped her to her feet and hugged her, she was just glad he didn't want to kiss, even though no one was around he still thought kissing in the opened was wrong. Hermione had picked up the blanket she had taken out there. She then watched Ron run off to tell Harry.
"Once Ron was gone and Hermione was alone she let go and her tears fell. She walked to her common room at a slow pace. It was late enough mostly everyone were already in their common rooms. She had gotten to the statue in front of her own common room, she looked at it, she couldn't go in, it wasn't that she forgot the password, but she couldn't face who was on the other side of the wall. She sat down next to the statue and just cried harder. She didn't notice the statue move or the guy come out into the hallway. He picked her up and carried her into her bedroom. He then laid her down on her bed and he sat next to her, she couldn't stop crying.
"Hermione did it go that bad?" the guy asked, she just nodded to her secret lover, he sat there running his hand over the side of her face and pushing her hair out of her face. "What did Ron say when you told him?" Hermione sat up, she sobered up and looked in the face of the guy she truly loved, she saw sadness in his eyes, she was sure it was because of her tears. When he looked into her eyes he could tell there was something wrong 'what did Ron say to her?' he wondered
"I never told him." Hermione said in a flat tone, she watched as her lover went from sad to angry.
"What?" He jumped off her bed, he looked like he was lost, another tear slid down Hermione's cheek.
"He never let me tell him, I was going to but…" she paused how could she tell the guy she loves that Ron purposed.. That she said yes, her heart broke even more.
"But? He get hit by lightening? The squid eat him?" she could tell he was really hurt, and that he was mad at her, more of her tears fell.
"He asked me something first…" her lover stopped dead, he had been pacing her room, but now he stood there, just staring at her. He knew what Ron had asked her, he searched her eyes to say it wasn't true but nothing showed.
"Tell me he didn't…" Hermione looked away from him, she didn't want to see the glare. "well tell me you said No!" she then let out a sob as her heart broke again. "Hermione, you said Yes!" He was so frustrated now, his heart was breaking, Hermione's heart was in pieces and still getting smaller, when he saw the ring. "How could you, Hermione? I thought you loved me?" she let her gaze lock with his and he made her feel completely broken as he said those words, he knew she loved him and just him.
"You know I love you. You know I've tried to say no to Ron but I can't, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't hurt him." the guy stepped back till he hit her door, she was now sitting on the side of her bed.
"You couldn't hurt him, well I guess you'll end up with him till Death do you part, cause instead of hurting Ron, you just fucken killed me!" he then turned and left her room, slamming her door, she started crying harder then she was before.
The head boy sat in his room and listen to the love of his life cry, he let a few tears fall from his gray eyes but he blinked them away. How could she do that to him, yes he was the other man, but they fell for each other. She had promised him that she was his once school was over. What happened?
Hermione finally fell asleep, but she didn't know whole she was in a very restless sleep she was being watched by the one she hurt the most. When she awoke the next day she didn't go and get food, the idea of it made her sick. She stayed in her pajamas and in her bed all day. She knew Ron wasn't expecting to see her. Hermione wanted to find her lover, to be in his arms, she wanted to redo yesterday. But her thoughts took her back to the train ride to school and the beginning of the lie!