Again
I've done it again!
I just can't seem to handle,
Anything anymore.
It seems wrong to me!
Is it wrong?
Or is it right?
Does anyone really know?
People say they do,
But do they really?
I don't think they do.
People try to help me…
And sometimes they do,
Even if it's only for a month or two,
They say to stop,
That it "isn't good for you."
So I change to something
NEW!
And
then they say that that's wrong
TOO!
I ask what else I can do.
And they give me their all.
But then I've figured it out.
THERE ISNT ANYTHING ELSE I CAN DO!
I thank them for helping
Me and I ask them for more.
Like they're a twenty-four hour
Drug store.
But then I turn around and do it again.
She tells me to stop and I do for a while.
Then I turn to something else…
And to tell you the truth,
It helps…
Me get through…
Everything I'm going through.
She finds out that I'm not eating.
And makes me eat,
Even though I'm bleeding.
I turn to reading…
Writing…
And asking.
But will it ever work?
I
try my best to understand.
But will I ever?
I really do try.
And then I sigh.
But…
Is it a sigh of relief?
Or a sigh of pain?
Do I know?
Does she?
I really want to stop.
But never can.
It's still so hard!
I ask her for more help
And she listens some more.
To my problems.
I turn to G-d.
And he tries to help me too.
But will that work?
Will anything work?
I want to think so…
But for some strange reason…
I CAN'T!
I really try…
Try to stop that is.
But it just won't go away.
She won't let us be.
She won't calm down.
I try to help her too.
But she won't listen,
She won't understand.
I am trying my best…
But I can't fix it anymore.
I need more…
I need some help,
To help HER and ME!
But it won't work.
Or will it?