Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. They belong to freeform.
(Takes place after the events of 5x11)
Callie
I don't think I can remember a time when everything in my life was genuinely stable. I've gone from place to place most of my life. I've never been able to call somewhere home that is until I met the Fosters. They're something that's good in my life. My family. Sometime I forget that. I should really be more grateful for them. They're all important to me, I need to stop ruining their trust in me. It's hard though but at least I have people in my corner. It might not be stable but its something.
Relationships. Boys. They've always been my main issue. I've never been able to find "Mr. Right" I guess. Each boy was one I though I could really love but they never worked out. I always try to blame it on them but maybe I should just accept that I'm the problem not them. Aaron… I really thought he was perfect for me but like always that didn't work out. We've both got too many issues to make an "us" work out. I just mess everything up. It's times like this when I think back to mine and Brandon's relationship. God that feels like so long ago. I often find myself wondering "what if," maybe he could have been the one. He was probably the closest to stable I've ever felt. Things change. I still love him only as a brother now though. In a way I'm happy we're over. It never would have worked out anyways. Maybe I'm doomed to spend my life alone. Boys really suck. Things are too complicated for them anyways. They just cause more of a distraction. More instability.
School, thats another issue. I want a real future. A real career but I keep messing it up. My stupid portfolio. My future in the art world depends on a bunch of stupid pieces of art. There is so much else going on and this is just the icing on the problem cake. My moms want me to have the best life and I'm messing it all up. Social work, I guess I could be happy enough doing that. At least it would be something. God how do normal people just do the whole perfect life thing. Everything just works out for them. Thats not me. Its never been my life.
At least I'm not in Ximena's position currently. She stays so strong even when her life is unstable. I don't know how she does it. Her parents have been detained and she's stuck in a church seeking sanctuary from ICE. At least Poppy is safe with my family. They should be together though. The system is so messed up. It tears families apart. I need to figure out something to help Ximena.
She thinks I'm this great person but really I don't feel like one. I don't know why I feel the need to help the people I help but I need to help her. She's one of the people I care a lot about. She's important to me I guess. I just want to be able to do something. I need to get her out of the church and back together with her family. She trusts me. I don't want to lose that trust. My life is unstable but maybe through my instability can fix her life. She deserves a good life. She's such a great person. I'll figure something out.
Stability is such a tricky thing.
Authors Note
I absolutely love the fosters and recently I've really been shipping the Callie/Ximena pairing. It'll be a little bit of a slowburn but not too much because I hate waiting for the romance to happen just as much as you guys do. This story will be uploaded to as frequently as possible with longer chapters. I just wanted to do a little prologue to give a bit of an idea of what Callie's headspace is in this story. Might change the rating as the story progresses. Hope you all enjoy.