Hey everyone! So…I know that some of you liked my last story, I am just sad that I only got 13 reviews for all 7 chapters. So I want at least 5 reviews per chapter because I need to know how to improve the story. Okay so this is a filler chapter, kinda boring with just a depressed Bella.

BPOV

5 months. 13 days. 3 hours. 5 months, 13 days, and 3 hours since he left.

"I don't want you to come with me Bella."

He said he would stay forever.

"You…don't…. want…. me?"

The words were so strange.

"No."

The word rang in my ear, every time I heard it I felt like crying.

Stand in the rain, that's what I am doing, standing in the rain, enveloped in the pain. Hmm…song idea.

I looked at my phone.

New Text Message from Jake

Hey Bella, how about you come see me 2moro?

P.s. Victoria is getting closer to Forks, so you come or I will drag you here.

I texted him back, I would go anyways, just because it was something to do and Jake always made me feel better.

What about Charlie? Him & Billy goin fishin?

New Text Message from Jake

Yeah, see ya there! =P Luv ya Bells!

Poor Jake, he loves me when I could never love him more than a brother, all because he ruined any chances of me being happy when he 'fell in love' with me then 'fell out of love' with me. Him…

Yeah, luv ya 2, but like a brother Jake! =^}

Well its time to go to school, at least Mike and Angela were still friends with me. Everyone else joined the "I Hate Bella" club that started when I first met Lauren. Well someone got her back, with that hideous haircut she got a month ago.

Slowly, and dazed I drove to school, wishing I could see that shiny silver Volvo that would never be there again. I would never see it there or anywhere else for that matter.

"Bella, hey there so you working tomorrow?"

"No, Mike I am going to La Push to see Jake."

"Again? Okay…well Saturday everyone is going to the movies, Angela and I are going, maybe you want to go with me, as friends."

"Friends? Sure, nice to see you finally understand that kind of stuff."

"Yeah, well after months, you get used to it."

He laughed it off but I still felt bad even though he was creepy in the stalker-ish way. But, after he left, I was never the same, and I was even more resistant against dates.

All the way up until lunch, I spaced out in class. Just thinking of nothing, almost as if I was nonexistent. The teachers knew better than to act like I was part of the class. Mostly, I wrote a new song about my feelings for Edward. Well, I kind of wrote a song. If I had eternity that is what I would do. Though, I never would have eternity because they left.

In lunch, I sat in between Angela and Mike. Gym well gym was gym…it always stunk mostly because I was the outcast of the class because I was clumsy.

I went home and finished my homework, even though it wasn't the best job on homework.

Then, I started dinner for Charlie and me. I chose fish and chips for dinner. Easy but required using my hands. Something that would keep me busy.

"Hey, Bells, tomorrow morning Billy and I are going fishing. Did you want me to bring you to see Jake?"

"No, I am just going to drive down late morning. How was work?"

My voice was just a monotone, just boring and lifeless-Charlie's description of me after he left. Wow, I was thinking about him so much today. I wish he would just come back.

"Good. But it was slow so we played cards all day. What about school?"

"That is good. School was the usual, nothing interesting. Oh, but Saturday, I might go to the movies, with Mike and Angela, and some other people."

Though, I wish I could spend the night with- no, I can't think of them, it just hurts too much.

"That sounds fun. What movie?"

"I am not sure, now eat."

"Yes, ma'am."

The rest of dinner just dragged on silently. Then, I cleaned up dinner and the dishes. Charlie went to watch a baseball game, so I said goodnight and went to bed. The window was open, so I closed the blinds, otherwise I would be in an psychiatric hospital tomorrow.

Soon, the dream started. This dream was different from the others.

It was gloomy and me and him were in his meadow.

"Bella, I have missed you so much."

"Edward?" I ran to him and he wrapped his stone cold arms around my waist.

"I love you, Isabella."

"Really?" My heart soared, he loved me! But what about that the day he left me?

"Haha, of course not….don't you remember the day in the forest Bella? You fell for it again. Such a silly little human. Hey Jasper, you think we should make Bella our little pet?"

"Yes, it would help me resist blood."

I woke up screaming my lungs off, I just couldn't stop until I could barely breathe. I wrapped my arms around my knees; I was falling apart. It would never get better. Never. Only worse.

I am pretty sure that I fell back asleep, dreamlessly. That was lucky. Then, my alarm clock went off, even though music reminded me of him, I still liked it, I even wrote some songs about how I felt when he was here and gone. But, I had to turn my alarm clock off the song was too much.

So, I walked to the bathroom and stripped down and got in the shower, rubbing my favorite strawberry shampoo in my hair. Slowly, I got dressed and finished my routine. Running to my truck, hoping to be with Jake soon because he always made me smile no matter how I felt.

Even though I had a feeling something was going to happen, I didn't care. I really didn't care what happened to me because I wanted him back, and I could never get that so nothing mattered. Part of me, part of me hated him because he left me. He lied and said he loved me when in fact he didn't. Why me, why not Lauren or Jessica or that quiet girl with the crazy hair in my calculus class? All I wanted to know was why me? I spent the half the car ride debating over this.

Then, the worst but maybe best thing happened. I saw her. Red fiery hair blowing in the wind as she stopped my truck with one hand. This was it, my last moments of life, no more suffering! But, Charlie…well he would understand that I wasn't suffering, wouldn't he?

I thought of him, no, Edward (I had to cherish his name) all I could, his voice, his face, everything. No matter if he loved me or not, I would always love him. Until death when I can no longer be attached to his soul, even when I am in the afterlife-I will love him. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to remember then. No longer forbidden to remember, but always terrified to forget. Always I would be in love with the bronze-haired god even when he was a vampire, even when he broke my heart beyond repair.

"Bella! I have been looking for you, what happened to Edward? Did he leave you?"

"Yes, he did. He left me to face my life alone and broken."

"Well then, let's kill you now and avenge James!"

I held my breath, waiting for it to end. His angel face filled my mind. Hmm, my guardian angel. Edward Cullen, my soul mate. Pain, and werewolves? NO! I want it to end not continue for eternity…

Okay, so a long boring chapter but next chapter I will tell you about what happens to Bella and I will give you a look on Edward's suffering. I know it doesn't seem like an interesting story now but really it is….I hope well I think it is pretty cool. Sorry for grammar mistakes I just wanted to post this. Sorry about the spacing, the computer is being retarded and I don't know how to fix it, you know?

FreaksLikeVampiresAreCooler-14 a.k.a. FLVAC-14

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