For Karis. Merry Christmas Bella. Love you.
A/N - I wrote this from Mamo to Usagi when he's under Nehelenia's control, but after I read it over... i like the idea that it is to Usagi from Seiya. So pick whatever you like. Enjoy
To, My dearest love:
I have nothing, nothing to give you but my love. I have no world, I have no possessions great enough to warrant your heart. I have been a fool. But I have been a fool, so deeply in love with you. I know there is nothing I can say or do that will ever forgive the things I have said and done. No amount of regret, no promises of a brighter future could ever sway the way I have been. The way I have made you feel and the way I have hurt you. You must see. You can't be that blind to not know how much I love you. How much I care, how I would do anything for you, any time any way. Yes we have had our days, we have done our share of crying. We have, in our own way faced demons greater then any evil could bring. And here I stand, at the gates of hell and the door to heaven begging not for my life but for yours. Without you I can not exist. I refuse to live. You are the very air I breath, the wandering step I take into the darkest night knowing without a doubt that I will be safe, for I would be in your arms.
I have nothing. No diamond, no rubies no money no future. I have no ideas, no thoughts, no words but those that you posses. My mind wrapped in you. My world a melting iceberg of your very essence.
How I long for those days again, where we would frolic and play. When the stresses of our age were something of a dream. And our biggest worry was if your mother would find us. How I wish for those times we would hide from those princesses, lost in our own world. How I would run my hand gently through your hair, begging for one more kiss as we parted for the night. Only to scale the wall to your room to once more kiss you goodnight. What would I give to go back, back to the world of yesterday. Back to the time where we were, not as we are.
I have nothing. No soul, no heart, no mind. I am but a shell of what I once was, caught in a lie I am forced to live. Fighting myself for a piece of that memory, holding it so closely save it not die away. I play it so well, the evil and cold. An act I must follow to keep you safe. I push you away, I scream and I yell and I beg you to leave. I beg that your heart break in two. I pray that you hate me, I scream that you do. For my love I have failed you. And in this end I have nothing, for I have lost you. In this end I shall suffer as I watch you fade away. Your heart has been broken, your dreams shattered. The blood is on my hands and my tears stain to cover. I love you. Goodbye.
Yours Always.