She knew what he felt like. She has felt the pain that was ripping him slowly apart. He doesn't turn around as she approaches him. She's not surprised. Considering. She leans forward, just to see if he'll react to anything.
"Jacob? Hello?" He finally turns and looks her in the eye. She steps back at the sheer emptiness – those eyes that once used to sparkle were now dead. And then she looks closer. She sees in his eyes what she already went through over Sam. She knows that they are just a barrier, a coping mechanism. But she also knows that it is possible to break down this wall, this chasm of loneliness that she herself feels every time she looks at Sam. He breaks the stare and turns away, looking at the beautiful red sunset, but not seeing anything. She doesn't have to be in his head to know what, no who, he's seeing instead of the bleeding sky.
"Jake, seriously…"
"Leah, go away."
"Jake..."
"Leah, why are you even here? It's not like you care, or are going to make things better."
"Well, I'm sorry Jake, but the world doesn't revolve around you…or that leech lover."
"She has a name"
"Yes, like almost all the human population. Wait, even the non human population around here have names – the leeches. You have no problem with me calling them that, and she loves mind rapist leech, so technically she is a…"
"Why are you here?" She's pleased to see that he is shaking. She wants a fight, no she needs a fight. So she keeps rubbing salt in the wounds.
"Why do you think?"
"To annoy me to death? To push me towards that cliff edge? Or maybe you want to jump together – make Sam jealous until the end, is that right?"
She ignores the jibe about Sam. Instead she wanders close to the edge – too close. She looks down and sees the water below, mocking her, tempting her. For a second she wonders what it would be like, who would care, if she did jump. But then again, it probably wouldn't kill her. She wonders what would. A major drop in temperature maybe, like absolute zero. But its not as if tht going to be possible anytime soon. Maybe broken bones – all of them. But, Jake survived that, and besides its not as if she could find anyone who would be able to do that. She turns around as she hears movement behind her. Jacob has moved from his original position of sitting up, cradling his knees to lying down, eyes closed, hands behind his head. To anyone else he could be enjoying the last rays of sun for that one, surprisingly warm day. But from her proximity, Leah can see the tears that gather at the corners of his eyes. She quickly moves away, back into the woods. She thinks she hears his sigh of relief as she disappears. Bu she's not done yet. Stripping off her clothes, she lets the animal take over her body. She feels safer in this form, she knows no one else has changed – they're all still at Sam's, waiting until sunset for the patrols to start. Quietly, she pads over to him.
"Back so soon?" says Jacob, and the pain and anger in his voice hurts her. She can almost hear herself saying the same thing to… well, everyone. She drove everyone away, everyone that ever loved her with her own bitterness. But she was damned if she was going to let Jacob make the same mistakes as she did. In a way, he reminded her of Seth, and that was the only reason she was doing this. She was sure. When she had helped him heal, she was out. Leaving La Push. Forever.