Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters in it.
I wasn't quite sure where it was all coming from, but the one thing I was positive of was that he knew. What used to be a comfortable situation had been made awkward from by uncontrolled mixed emotions. Edward couldn't read my mind, and there was nothing for Alice to see, but Jasper, he felt it all. I could hide absolutely nothing from him.
Friday night, Alice had planned my weekend in an attempt to keep me out of harm's (Jacob's) hands per request of my beloved Edward. It had all happened so suddenly, I really didn't have time to make anything of it. With everyone gone to hunt except for my baby sitters Alice and Jasper, I was unguarded, not in the literal physical sense of course, but emotionally. As much as I loved Edward, I hated his unbelievable self control ten times more. I was sick of lusting over something I wouldn't ever have, unless Edward suddenly grew warm and fuzzy about changing me. His gentle and very chastely controlled kisses no longer had the same effect on me as they used to. Anyways, Friday- Hunting: Me, Alice, Jasper, and a couch. All three of us fit on the same over-sized couch that occupied most of the living room with Jasper on the far left, me to the extreme right and Alice smack-dab in the middle.
Alice's phone rings, and while pretending to ignore it she rushes out the room mumbling something about "making popcorn"… my bowl was full. That meant something happened on the trip. Before I got the chance to ask Alice, she rushed out the front door, "Be back soon!" she exclaimed already halfway down the driveway. I must have missed the part where she told Jasper not to follow her. It was already awkward enough between us, we never talked to each other.
"Are you enjoying the movie Bella?" Jasper asked feigning interest.
"I guess so." was my disinterested reply. I had already seen this movie what seemed like thousands of times. Some movies just don't get old. This one in particular was one of my favorites, Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest. I adore the on-screen chemistry between the characters! It was at the part where Elizabeth was kissing Jack and chains him to the ship in an attempt to give the rest of them a chance to escape. The kiss is by far one of my favorites because you can tell that they both want each other so badly, but they know it will never work out. My stomach began bubbling and warming deep down in the pit filling me entirely with lust, the sexual tension was overwhelming.
Amidst my reverie sounded a muffled clearing of the throat snapping my pleasantries in half. Then it hit me, hard, like a brick. This was Jasper. Every intimate feeling I just experienced, so had he. My strong feelings of realization were replaced with embarrassment. I slowly turned my head just enough to see out of the corner of my eye that he was gripping one of the decorative pillows, his gaze straight forward at the screen… unmoving. I started to apologize but he stopped me mid breath with a fierce stare that made my insides erupt yet again with feelings of intense passion. But again, this was Jasper. He had the ability to force any emotion on almost anyone at any time. How much of this was I really feeling? I continued to meet his gaze. His eyes became hesitant, unsure. He started to lean slowly towards me, I found the notion impossible to resist. I leaned in closer, his intoxicating aroma enveloped me and took over my mind. Now all I wanted to do was kiss him. To ease the searing heat in my lower abdomen, to convince myself these feelings weren't real, to indulge because I knew they were. Just one small kiss. His lips were mere inches from mine. Almost there… "Bella…" he breathed, and just before we sealed the deal he was gone, back to the other end of the couch, taking the remote with him. He resumed the movie I never knew had been paused.
"I'm back," Alice's cheerful voice rang, "and I brought Bella a present!" I was unable to fully recover from our little intimate situation, so my reaction to Edward walking through the door was not what he expected. He immediately assumed something was wrong.
"What's wrong Bella? What happened?" Edward walked over to me glaring at Jasper and took hold of both my arms shaking me gently. I had to be honest with not only Edward, but myself.
"I'm not sure," Was my reply. "I think I'm just gonna go to bed. Today kinda wore me out." I tried.
"Do you want me to come with you?" Edward teased playfully.
"No, stay down here, I need sleep, which doesn't come very often when I'm with you."
He chuckled, "Alright, I'll wait until you're asleep." I looked around the room, but Jasper had disappeared. Funny, I hadn't seen him leave, no doubt tomorrow would be awkward. For tonight I was too tired to worry about him, and far too confused to think about anything else. There was definitely something there, and I wanted more. I wasn't done with Jasper yet.
I stared up at the ceiling until sleep finally consumed me. That night, my dream relived the earlier occurrence. Our faces only inches apart, I could feel his sweet, cold breath against my overheated cheeks. Again, I wanted nothing more than his lips against mine. I wanted to be in his arms, to be wanted by him, desired by him. It wasn't exactly the best thing to be dreaming about, especially waking up in Edward's arms. What was with me? I was with Edward, and Jasper with Alice. There's no way it would ever work, there was no way it ever could work. There could never be anything between us. He must have leaned in to try and get up, or grab the remote… he must have said my name to let me down easily, or stop me… who was I kidding? Jasper didn't want me. I was simply caught up in the moment.
Authors Note:
I have more to the story written, but I didnt want to post it if no one liked the first part. So if you like it, or want to see where it goes, please review, else wise, im just gonna take it down!