Monty's Rant
Sometimes, when I am alone, and feeling particularly self-absorbed, I just want to scream "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?"
Of course, I don't. Unlike most of the people around here, I have some self control. Oh, and self-awareness that I am not the be all and end all on this earth.
That being said, I am so sick of being second best. I could tattoo it on my forehead, but inevitably somebody else would get a better, more apt, tattoo on their forehead and it would be rendered meaningless and just sad.
Exhibit A: Parents.
When we first landed on the ground, I felt sorry for Clarke. It was sad, the way her father had died. Of course, it wasn't as tragic as Murphy, who had both his parents die. I was happy, thinking my parents were safe on the Ark, circling the earth and hoping I was alive. Then as it turns out, Clarke knew the whole time we were on earth that the Ark was dying, and that oxygen wasn't a thing anymore? For some reason we had lasted 97 years, but only Mr. Griffin had been smart enough to realize the truth. Like father like daughter I think - suffering from grand delusions that they are the smartest people on the planet. But I digress.
Here we are, several months (seasons?) later, and its a miracle. My mother survived what I had assumed to be a fiery death but had landed in Azgeda territory and had to fight night and day to survive. My father died early on but was that the focus of anybodys attention? No. Of course, Abby and Kane, the precious WASPs that they are, were the stars of the story, leading their people to Earth and like children on the playground, putting their pins on one another to show how much the "respected the other as chancellor". Yeah, nice try - we could all see through that one, geniuses. Boinking the whole time I had suspected, but did anybody care to ask what I thought? Nope.
Anyhow, joyous reunion and lucky me, my mother has returned. Then it turns out, she has turned into a crazy army person - like, what gives mom, we were on FARM STATION remember? My mother is an expert in geraniums, not gruesome deaths! Fine, I will just abandon my only family in favour of my precious friends. What thanks do I get for that? Basically a pat on the back from my esteemed leader, Bellamy, no doubt his half-white lineage being the main reason he is put on a pedestal and I am not. Finally, ALIE, the nutjob, forces me to literally KILL MY OWN MOTHER to save Raven. What do I get for this? Oh, only the anguish that there was a way to save her but instead I brutally murdered her body and then mind! But yes, let's all allow Clarke a chance to cry about how she can't say goodbye to her undoubtedly safe mother in the bunker. How devastating for her, she can't say so long for now, see you on the flipside, and Bellamy and her decide to waste what I can only describe as literally precious seconds to hug it out. Time wasted that probably means Clarke can't get to space. But, ohhhh they had a moment. Swell.
Exhibit B: Loved ones
So, on top of the fact my mom and dad were dead under the most tragic of circumstances, let's consider for a moment the fact my best friend is dead. I know, I know - Raven and Clarke lost Finn! Other, periphery people who nobody can keep straight died too! Jasper was also my family though, and here we are again, watching Clarke and Bellamy cry and moan about how they are going to miss their mother, and sister, even when we are all going into space together and here I am with Harper who only, by the smallest possible margin, decided not to kill herself with Jasper and begrudgingly live her days with me instead.
Yeah, I know we all think Clarke is dead now, and thats harsh, but I can remind you again that Bellamy is quite certain his leader of the grounders sister is probably going to survive the next 5 years. Plus, in the end - she is going to turn out to be alive from nightblood, so yay, he has everything he ever wanted and more! But you look into those soulful, sad eyes, and your heart breaks for him. Meanwhile I am so busy trying to keep everybody, calm, organized, on task and oh, yeah, also be useful as an engineer and a farm station expert but yeah, cool let's worry about how Bellamy might hook up with somebody in the next few months.
Exhibit C: Expertise
I know, I know - but Monty, you are such a well respected member of the team. AM I? I am pretty sure everybody was completely cool with me being off the 100 list of most valuable people along with my girlfriend but at the same time, you all need and want me for my precious brain? Oh, right, even though Raven was literally an ALIE psychic and psycho, we all just figured she would probably be worth going on a hugely long mission to save, only to screw all of us over, and force us into space for five years, with my mangled and disfigured hands trying to keep you all alive because, oh right, I am the farm station guy/engineer back up. Remind me again why when we first landed Clarke wanted me and my precious brain to fix a radio but I wasn't good enough to live out the next five years in the Ark. Why is it you only need me when you need me, but otherwise you all consider Raven to be the most valuable member of the team? I am pretty sure my ability to feed you is just as important as Raven's ability to give you oxygen. But, once again I play second fiddle in this whole show.
Exhibit D: Heart
I am sorry, Bellamy is the heart of this leadership team? I am confused, when was this evident? When he was watching Murphy get strung up, when he was hooking up with every girl in literally a 100 metre radius, when he was helping to pull the switch at Mount Weather and kill everybody, when he murdered a whole army in their sleep (but ohhh look he saved Indra - how tf is that redemption?) or when he got Clarke arrested on the Ark, or maybe even when he killed 300 people in the sky because he wrecked a radio, or killed 300 people on the ground because he wanted to see his sister? Yeah, he has a lot of heart that one. But here I am, constantly thinking of everybody but myself (willing to die in order to "save our friends") and what do I get? Constantly brushed off and not put in a leadership position. Maybe I am not tall enough for the job, or maybe my hair isn't curly enough? It's BS thats what it is.
Whatever. All I can say is that if my character doesn't get more valuable screen time, my fair share of oxygen and a little baby Monty in the next five years in space, I am going to snap. Of course, everybody will be too worried about Bellamy being wracked with guilt over poor Clarke to notice, so thats cool.
[Note: If you like it, tell me which one you want me to do next! I am not sure if this is an enjoyable format, but I always chuckle when I think of things from other peoples perspectives other than Clarke and Bellamy.]