"Oh come on, Clarke.." Bellamy mumbled, staring at the door.
Raven peeked out of the rocket, "Bellamy.." Ravens voice broke a little as she watched Bellamy staring at the doors, waiting for her.
Bellamy turned around to face her.
"I know, Raven." , his voice came out strained as he came to the realization of leaving Clarke behind. His boyish features were now prominent, a sad look buried deep into his face.
Raven turned around to the rest of the group,
Monty sat forward a little, "Is she back?" He asked, his voice full of hope.
Raven looked down, shaking her head. "No.." She trailed off.
Monty sat back, looking down. Harper reached over, placing her hand on his leg to comfort him.
Emori and John exchanged a look. Even after all they had been through, he was sad at the idea of leaving Clarke behind. If Raven was capable of forgiving him for what he had done, then he was damn sure Clarke would too.
Raven turned back to face Bellamy.
"Bellamy, we need to go.. The radiation's already affecting the avionics. It's now or never"
Bellamy kept his eyes locked on the door, his heart breaking as each second went on.
He took a deep breath, turning around and heading toward the rocket.
Raven could see the pain on Bellamy's face as he climbed into the rocket with them.
She sat down, starting to prepare everything for their launch.
Bellamy couldn't look at the rest of the crew, he couldn't face his friends knowing that he would be leaving her behind, leaving their leader behind. He knew in his mind that this was exactly what Clarke would want, but every single part of him was screaming that he couldn't do it.
"Can't we just wait a little longer?" Monty asked sadly.
Raven looked to Monty and shook her head.
A million things began to race around in Bellamy's mind.
"We've been through a lot together, you and I.." their earlier conversation stood out the most in his mind.
It was like she was telling him goodbye, as if she knew what was going to happen.
The idea made an aching knot form in his chest.
Since the idea was brought up, Clarke had kept up hope for the night blood.
She was confident it would work, her confidence and optimism was what always inspired Bellamy.
She was a leader, a fighter.
That was it, she was a fighter.
"Our fight is not over" he recalled telling this to Clarke as she began her speech.
He raised his hand to his chest, where she had earlier placed her hand, giving him a speech about how he used his heart.
But she was the head, she was the leader. They go together.
"Our fight is not over. Our fight" he repeated in his head.
And that was it.
Bellamy looked up, "I'm sorry.." he started as he unbuckled his restraints.
"No, what the hell are you doing?" John asked, looking over to Bellamy.
Raven shook her head, not taking her eyes off the work she was doing.
"Bellamy, we do not have time for this. We can't wait" her tone was a bit harsh, but she was scared. They all were.
"I'm not asking you to wait, I'm telling you to go." Bellamy said with confidence as he stood out of his seat.
"Bellamy no, you can't go.." Harper started, looking to Monty.
But Monty understood. Maybe a few days ago, he wouldn't have. But after what happened to Jasper, he did.
Monty looked up to Bellamy, nodding. The two exchanged a small smile, which meant everything to Bellamy.
"Bellamy, what are you thinking?" Echo asked, a bit hurt that he would abandon them.
"I can't leave, not with out her. We will find a way, she always does." he said with a small smile.
"Bellamy, sit down. I know this is hard, but you can't do this." Raven looked to Bellamy, her eyes pleading with him to stay.
"Raven, I have to.. I love her" Bellamy's voice was soft, a sudden contrast to his usual deep tone.
A few tears fell down Raven's cheek, "I know. I know you do, but we need you" she protested.
"Raven, you're a mechanical genius, plus you have Monty. Murphy is gonna keep you all on your toes. You have each other" he placed a hand on Ravens shoulder, lightly squeezing it to comfort her. But she still couldn't accept it.
"Bellamy, this was her choice. She knew exactly what she was doing. You can't do this" Echo repeated.
"He's not gonna do it.." John snapped as he began unbuckling.
Bellamy moved quickly, climbing out of the rocket and pulling the door shut before John could reach him.
Tears were now falling down his cheeks as he stared at his friends, sitting safely in the pod.
"Damn it, Bellamy!" John screamed, the pain obvious in his voice as he fell back into his seat.
Raven looked at Bellamy through the tiny window of the pod.
The few seconds that they looked at each other were heavy, feeling like years crashing down on them.
Raven felt her heart clench as she gave Bellamy a nod, "May we meet again" she mouthed to him.
That was all he needed, he turned and ran back into the lab as the hatch closed, securing them into their fate.
Bellamy made his way through the lab, a smile slightly growing as he heard the rocket take off.
He knew they would be safe, they could do this.
He was confident about everything he said.
Raven was a genius, Monty too. And Murphy definitely would keep things interesting.
The thought made Bellamy laugh.
But his smile soon started to waver as he looked around the bunker for Clarke.
His walking became running, "Clarke? Clarke?!" He called out desperately.
As he searched for her, calling out to her, he began to get this sinking feeling.
It swelled up in his chest, almost smothering him.
He lingered by the area where Clarke would have come in, where she would have been safe.
"Come on, Clarke. I'm here." He said out loud, waiting for her to burst in and run into his arms.
But then, it started. The wave was coming.
It shook the bunker slightly, there was a faint roar he swore he could hear.
A noise that lingered in the back of his mind, as if it was just his mind playing cruel tricks on him.
He began to back away, shaking his head as he began to call out.
"No! No, no no! Clarke!" He screamed, the pain in his chest bursting.
Bellamy fell to his knees, his face falling into his hands.
In the short time that Bellamy thought Clarke was dead, it crushed him.
The weight sat on his chest like water and he felt as if he was drowning.
The silence that followed was deafening.
"I left..I left them and I still lost her" He cursed himself, feeling angry at himself for not being able to save her.
"Bellamy?" a voice called from behind him, breaking the painful silence.
The voice was soft and all too familiar. It was her voice.
R & R are always appreciated :) Sorry to leave this on a bit of a cliff-hanger, but I intend to continue this story, so gotta leave it some place :) I really hope that you all enjoy this! I was so excited writing it (And super emotional ha!)