Disclaimer: I do NOT own Naruto, it belongs to Masashi Kishimoto. I just write fanfiction for fun. Warning: OOCness, language Info: this is placed after Sasuke killed Orochimaru only because I want to see that snake dead muhahaha…
Angel and demon
Chapter 1
He was a failure, a complete failure. There was this one man that killed his whole clan and he wasn't able to hate and kill him. Really, what the hell was wrong with him, he wondered. It wasn't the first time Sasuke thought about this, to be honest he had this thoughts every day and they were the reason why he couldn't sleep at night, together with more inappropriate thoughts about… no stop it, he scolded himself. He sighed. How was he supposed to fix this mess called his live? He had no idea. Keep on training, you little idiot he told himself. But he couldn't concentrate and fell of the tree in the river. He got out, soaked and shivering from the cold wind. It seems like there would be no more training today. He sighed again and walked to his current hideout to take a bath.
He went through the front door of the small house, hidden in the deep woods. He prepared a bath and got something to drink. It was so nice to sink in the warm water and relax. But even though his body relaxed, his mind kept bugging him. It got so bad that he was hearing voices arguing over this one topic in his head. It was killing him. The angel and demon in his head were always fighting and screaming at each other. Sasuke was getting annoyed. How come he, the great Uchiha couldn't find a solution? Why the hell had it have to be him? Why did he fell for his big brother? Well… It was easy: his big brother was beautiful and always so nice and caring, the angel told him. But he killed the rest of the clan and told you to hate him, the demon replied. But you don't care; you always listen to him even now you try to hate him just because he told you to, the angel argued. Arg, all right. This couldn't go on like this! He would go crazy! He had to talk with his brother. He got out of the bath tub and dried himself and then put on some comfortable cloths.
The next problem was: where was his aniki? He had no idea where the Akatsuki hideout was and if his brother would be there. God, why had his live to so difficult? He sighed and walked out of the front door, deciding to just wander around a bit and hope that destiny would let them meet.
It looked like they weren't meant to meet just jet and even after hours and days of wandering he didn't find him. He looked miserably, his hair even more unruly and messy than normal, the clothes dirty and his form lonely and crooked. His headache because of his angel and demon got worse with each step he took, each minute he didn't see Itachi. He missed him. Sasuke sighed. Great, now he even missed that idiot of an older brother. But how stupid was he? What would he do if he met Itachi? He couldn't just say: Hey, long time no seen. I miss you, come back with me and start anew. How Sasuke wished it was so easy, but unfortunately it wasn't. Hell he didn't even know if his brother missed him too or if he wanted to talk to him, after all what happened. It was like their roles changed and Sasuke being the one that killed everyone, he felt guilty and miserable for something he didn't do and unsure about his brother. He had absolutely no idea how to look him in the face. What would he see there in those dangerous eyes? Would it be guilt? Would it be pity? Or would it be disgust? Anger? Hatred? Love? … wait a minute… love? Why the hell should there be love? And how come he even thought about something like this? It couldn't be that he wanted to see that, right? Sasuke asked himself. He played shocked about his thoughts but if he were honest it wasn't surprising at all. He always looked up and admired his older brother. When he grew up it got stronger and stronger even after that incident. He tried to forget his feelings, locking them away at the back of his mind but they just broke down the door that kept them away. It was sick. He was sick and he knew it. God damn it, now his headache got even worse. Sasuke groaned but kept on walking in a random direction.
Phew… wow I like to write this story, hope you enjoy reading it ^^ anyway: I try to update fast but I can't guarantee anything. If you found mistakes or something else that bugs you or something you like, please don't be shy to tell me.